Angelz Tearz

Year of the Dragons

2012-01-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hello my long-not-updated-blog. I missed you. :)

Firstly, I would like to wish everyone out there a great and prosperity
CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Yeah. It's our Chinese traditional new year. :D If you'll like to know about our Chinese celebrations...Well. I can't help you much 'cause I'm still a youngster myself - hey, twenty isn't old. :P However, I can give some little informations.
This year, in the Chinese lunar calendar, it's the year of the Dragons. :) It's actually said to be the best years out of the twelve Chinese zodiac - and that's why there is always a great increase in child birth on this year and thus leading to huge competition. :o Anyway, Chinese New Year last for fifteen whole days! (But sadly, we aren't given fifteen days of holidays to celebrate it all...Hmm. :/ *wishfulthinking*) Today is the seventh day of CNY (Count yourself if you are curious of when is the first day - though the days are different on different years. And nope, I don't know what is the reason for that...Ops~) Being the seventh day, it is also known as "Ren Ri" which literally translates as "People's Day". It basically means that it's everyone's birthday regardless of the actual date of birth. Quite an awesome custom, no? And I'm apologetic but that is all the information I can provide. I'm a limited company. :x

Actually, my point of coming here was just to talk about "People's Day" and that's all. If you're thankful for the short information then I'm glad to be of service for you. ^^ All right, enough said. Let's get back on track shall we?

This year's Chinese New Year passed by in a flash. :) Usually, I don't look forward to Chinese New Year gathering 'cause I really loath socializing - especially when I feel like I can't communicate with some. :/ I'm not really sociable. But this year has been surprisingly good. It's not great, but I think 'good' is really good enough for me since there are less awkwardness involved. The only disappointing feeling I have is that there isn't anything planned out from my 'friends'. I guess they rather just spend time with their families and all else isn't important enough huh? :x I know I'm being presumptive but I can't help me. It doesn't hurt to plan once in a while right? And if you care enough, then planning should be a snap. *pout* And I know I can plan. But I have the fear of being rejected by them - especially when they say that they already have plans which was said a long time ago. Wow. And all the thoughtfulness is out of the window and into the dustbin. *shootsandscores* I just wanna step back and see who cared enough. The demanding little girl. :P

Blah~ It's late right now. I guess I'll just end off here. I'll be back probably after a event or a less busy weekend - or when I'm needed online for school stuffs. :)

"Let your love ones know that you care 'cause you never know when your time is up. Don't wait till the last minute and regret once they're gone."

Friends to the end

2012-01-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Walking down a seemingly smooth, path but am I being deceived by the wonders of life?

Hello. I'm finally back after a hiatus of two weeks. :)
There is a reason why I'm missing-in-action (or MIA as you call). It's because I'm starting a diary and it seems pretty cumbersome - and not to mention stupid - to be doing a double entry. Hence, I'll only be blogging once in a while. ^^ But I doubt there'll be people getting upset over it since my blog is practically empty?

Anyway, the first two weeks of January seems to be running smoothly with little hiccups here and there. I've been busy, trying to handle my own schedules and plans. I don't know how one can stay so determined and focus with their studies while trying to balance a healthy lifestyle. Is it even possible? Or does everything have to be sacrificed? At least I'm starting to get productive in school but it's just a small improvement. It's so tiny that it doesn't even seems like a baby step. That's like an ant's step. :( I wonder when will I grow up from my playful self for studies. I think I don't lack the discipline but rather the passion to finish what I've started. I wasn't even interested in finance from the beginning. I rather learn about psychology any days. :/ But since I've taken this path, it's more sensible to finish it off right? Somehow, I just can't find the motivation. Many a times I had wanted to do up a timetable for myself. But life is so unpredictable. You'll never know what may pop up in the middle of your plans. And being a perfectionist, I need my things to be in top notch order. Gak~ This is getting depressing as I go on. I need some time. I need time off. I need a timetable. I need order-ness. I need a plan. I need a break!

Speaking of breaks, Chinese New Year is approaching. It's the time where little kids enjoy the most as they get goodies and red packets, while the married adults fret about their financial position as they have to prepare the red packets. :/ I'm glad I'm a teenager - or a young adult. The only thing I have to care about are my new year clothes and packing my room for the guests. I do admit that I'm not totally looking forward to Chinese New Year - I never do. That's because it's the time of the year where you'll have to mingle with the distance relatives whom you only see once a year. Seriously. I don't even recognise their faces, let alone wanting me to talk to them. It's almost as if you're talking to a complete stranger (with the difference that you know he/she is a family - or part of). Besides, with the examinations coming, my panic button is switched on. I may look calm and cool on the outside, but inside, I'l totally freaking out and stressing myself. Poker face.

Hopefully, January will end smoothly while February would be another 'good' month. *fingerscrossed*

I don't usually type things that're so emotional on-line but I guess I'm pretty lazy to write, seeing how I'm already using the computer right now. Besides, it'll be good to break the walls once in a while - I think. People may judge but you're just looking at the cover. There is always more to meet the eye and hopefully, you're not the ones to judge 'cause that tells a lot about you as well. *hint* All right, it'll be pretty long period before I'll be back to visit, so I guess till we meet again! ^^ Well wishes to everyone out there! Spread the love~

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! It's officially 2012! ;)
*hugs & kisses to everyone*

In this 2012, I hope everyone will have more faith in life and take chances. Be daring but stay safe. Be more adventurous but keep in pace. Be opened-minded but hold on to your principles. I know there may be contradictions here but life is all about contradiction. There is no such thing as the correct answer in life - except in examination papers perhaps. But what's most important is to stay on the right path of life. Anyway, make some resolutions for yourself okay. It may be useless to some but the majority of us knows the importance of having a goal and expectations for yourself. Keep yourself in check and take care!~

Sarah's Resolution of 2012:
I promise that I'll try my ultimate best to keep myself in check and hold on to my own expectations and principles. :) Oh. And they're not listed in their importance.
1. Keep Healthy and Stay Fit:
In another words, that means to exercise more & eat well. Stay way from junk food and never let yourself go on emotional eating. Continue the effort to stay away from soft drinks and try to avoid drinking unless for social events, when in that case, take note of what you're drinking. Drink more water everyday. Cut down on fast food too - fast food may be the easier choice when it comes to food choices but it's not always healthy. (Actually, it's not healthy at all unless it's Subways.) Try to exercise daily with a simple 30 minutes jog or a weekly sport with families or friends.
2. Read more Newspapers and Books
The financial world is big. Be prepared by reading the news and knowing what is happening around the world. Don't be a frog in a well. ;) And it's not just the financial world. There are many things like disasters and misfortune happening around the world. Be a useful person and not just any ordinary folks. Give help when possible - donation etc.
3. Meet up with friends once in a while
Social circle in important in this reality world. Nobody can live life without a friend. Don't be just a home-girl and get out of the house when possible. Meet up with your friends even if it's just a casual dinner. Once a friend, always a friend.
4. Study Hard for the Examinations
I really want to push myself to study hard to know where my ability stands. It's time to put in all effort to study instead of being so laid back. Examination fees and school fees don't come in cheap so it's really time to get cracking. There may be a few sacrifices involved but I think it's necessary when you think of the long run, not to mention your parents.
5. Work
I'm kind of toying with the idea of working part-time as I study. I know that's hardly helping my studies but I can work during the holidays too right? :) I just want to be a little more financial independent - and to keep my lifestyle expenses too. :x
6. Be more organised
People see me as someone who is organised with my things but in reality, my time plan is totally messed up. That's because I always have last minute decisions to make. Besides, being organises can be boring some times. I like to have a colourful life. :D But who says life can't be in balance? So this 2012, I've decided to be more detailed with my time. Time is precious so don't waste it! ^^
7. Diary
In this 2012, I hope I'll be less reliant on blog and write more on my diary. :) I know you'll probably be thinking "What's the difference?". After all, it's all about writing down about my daily life. There is a difference - and it's for me to know and you to find out! xP
8. Sleep earlier and Rise earlier
I've always been a late sleeper and I really do wanna change this bad habit of mine. Besides, with school in the way, it's important to have a good sleeping habit. Maybe I'll sleep at 11pm? :D I'll try.
9. Try something NEW
I've always said to live life to the fullest, which also means to try out new things in life. :) You never know whether you'll really enjoy it or hate it until you've tried it out right? Baby steps. So this 2012, it's time to do things that are unexpected and new - be it trying out new food or activities. Like Nike says "Just do it!".
10. Have faith in life and just be happy
Who doesn't want to be happy? Do you know you do have a choice to be happy or sad? A person can be living in the poorest state and yet still be satisfied with everything and anything that he is given. It's true that we should be aiming for higher living standards and better lives, but let's not forget the importance of being content with what we have and what is given to us. Cherish and treasure everything and everyone around you. ^^ As for faith, just hold on to it - even in the darkest day - because there is no such thing as a rainstorm being around forever. Rainbow will come to those who waits and holds on through the toughest days. I know it's hard to believe but it's really up to you to decide and embrace. :)

Sarah's Carpe Diem List:
1. Visit all the Disneyland and Disneyworld.
- Accomplished: Japan and Hong Kong
2. Travel around the world (Not necessary all at once.)
- Accomplished: Japan, Korea, England, Paris, Hong Kong, Australia and Malaysia
3. Bungee Jump
4. Have a crazy birthday party
5. Experienced great happiness
6. Experienced great sorrow
7. Strolled along in the rain
8. Learn different instruments
9. Go to a concert
10. Fall in love

That's pretty much all. Anyway, it's a new beginning so clean up your act and get back up on your feet! Don't procrastinate. Time wait for no man or woman, so act NOW. ^^ Enjoy your 2012. If the world does ends, end it with no regrets. :)

The coming of 2012

2011-12-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow would be the last day of 2011 - a last chance of 2011, but a new beginning of 2012. :)

Yeah. As you can see, tomorrow is new year's eve. One year passed on really fast - especially for this year. It seems like I've only just started university and yet they year is coming to an end. (I said year, not world.) I guess time really does flies, especially when you're trying to treasure every moment of your life. Time waits for no man, or woman so cherish every second with anyone and everyone. :) I'm not that capable yet but I'm learning to be. I know there are some moments where I don't treasure it because I get used to it and hence it's being neglected. But there are times when I truly appreciate it being given to me like the time with my family. Even a simple dinner. If you don't know, my family is famous for having arguments during dinner. (Okay, not that famous. It's just well known in the family. My family. And now you know.) So I like it when we can just seat down together and have a happy dinner. That's why I don't really peg having dinner outside. To me, dinner is an important part of being family. Okay, okay. I know I'm traditional and old fashioned. :/

Thursday night was a great dinner with my GFG. Okay. Perhaps it wasn't awesome, seeing how there were some little things on my mind but I loved the dinner. ^^ And it's always good to goof around with them, talking anything but sense. Hahahahaha~ It makes me feels like I'm in kindergarten, not having to be bothered about what people think. I can just play around, be silly, be me. Oh. The highlight of the day is where finally bough my Chinese illustration book! That was completely awesome! I've been hunting down that book since forever. Yippee! Now I've finally got my hands on it. There is only one problem though...Hmmm. That is, I can't read much of the words inside! :x Okay, okay. I know my Chinese isn't that bad, but it's not that good either. I don't know why people always thought that my Chinese was pretty good. It seems really pathetic to me to be reading Chinese books with such difficulties. Maybe it's time for me to get my language skills back - or perhaps I've never gotten it. :/ Who knows.

Anyway, seeing how 2011 is coming to an end soon, let's take a walk down memory lane and think through of everything that has happened this 2011 - hopefully to see only the good. :P (It's a good thing I have blogger with me 'cause my memory is failing me - by the way, it's gonna be a long post if you haven't realised.)
January 2011
According to my record, I had my first ever work interview at the school that month. :) It's quite memorable experience for me since I'm not a very good interviewee. That's kind of sad seeing how everything has to undergo an interview before you're hired for the job or some events. :/ I guess I have to work harder there huh. Luckily for me, the interviewer was a very nice lady so it was pretty comfortable talking to her. (And I did get the job for your information. :P) There was class chalet and dinner too with 2S17. I didn't think that we'll actually have such gathering since the class wasn't as close to one another but surprisingly, we did it! Hurray for the class chairman and vice-chairman! And of course to everyone who attended too! I can remember the hard planning we did for the dinner because people wasn't responding to us thus making it inconvenient for us to get down the details. But I'm glad it was a success in the end. Nothing is better than a good old dinner gathering to get us talking and knowing more about one another, right? ^^
February 2011
Second month would be the time the typical events like Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year which, for your information, started on the same day. :D There is nothing much that happened on February besides these events and probably some dinners with my friends - that's because my work is taking up pretty much all my time expect for weekends. (And I remembered that I didn't like to go out on weekends - and I still don't. :P) That was also when I started getting closer to the QB people I think - from having dinners together to movies. They're quite an awesome bunch of people. ;)
March 2011
Doom Day - the month of A levels results. There wasn't much disappointment from the results 'cause I've kind of expected it. (Actually, I've expected the worse, so it's better than I imagine it to be.) Anyway, that whole month became application months where I had to deal with a lot of stress from choosing the courses I wanted. It's really tough to make decisions - and if you know me, you'll know that decision making isn't exactly my forte. :/ So I'm an indecisive chap. It's know. Oh well. It's one of my close friend's birthday month too! Took the liberty to plan for her birthday since it was the first time I'm celebrating her birthday for her. It was an pretty awesome night I have to say. It's in my genes to give surprises to my love ones. Heehee~
April 2011
April marks an awesome adventure for me - my one week trip to Europe! ;) Don't get green with envy 'cause you'll get your chance someday too. Really. If you want it, work for it. Anyway, it was a trip with my mum to Paris and England. It's been a great experience, going off in the country, and learning to be part of them - what I meant is simply learning to use their transportation to get around that's all. I'm not that capable yet. Perhaps in the near future? Who knows. :P All I know is that someday, I'm gonna be going all over the world - hopefully. It's my dream. :D
May 2011
It's the month of all the yummy mummies in the world. ;) That's right. It's Mothers' Day, and 'Father's Day' for me too since Daddy's birthday falls on the same month. Had a party with my family and for the first time ever, I broke my piggy bank (Not really 'cause I don't own one - it's just a phrase.) and bought a diamond ring, with my siblings of course, for my mother. :D The only reason I'm willing to fork out money is because I know this money will be from my hard-earned money and not from my allowance - which is from my parents. (Don't you think it's weird to be buying gifts using their money? I mean, I know the money is given to you but...it's still weird. To each own preference and principles I guess.)
June 2011
Had my first ever meet up with my secondary school friends for that year. It was really awkward I have to say. ._. But awkwardness don't last forever, especially between friends. (And of course it's your choice to seat there and be out of the social circle or get in and mingle.) I had my first picnic at the Marina Barrage that month too. Wow. That really seems like a long forgotten memory. I've forgotten how much fun the four of us can have when we're together. It's really been long huh. But I guess nobody cares any more. :/
July 2011
2S17's outing at Sentosa! Whee~ I really enjoy going out with a big bunch of people than a small group of people. I know it's the quality time spent that counts and not the quantity of people, but you've never been out with my friends before and we're all a bunch of people who cannot decide over what too do with a small number of people. Seriously. :/ Anyway, with a big group, you'll get to play more things - though it's tougher when it comes to eating. Hahahahaha~ ;) But we still had fun! Oh. There was MY's birthday party that month too. And of course SRJC's yearly WillRUN. :D We're loyal SRJC-ians! ^^
August 2011
It's the start of a new term and time of meeting new friends. Oh! Not to mention it was my brother's 21st birthday! (There'll be one child in the family turning 21 every year huh - it'll be my sister's turn next year, and mine will be the next after hers.)
September 2011
September marks my first every experience to Zouk, a club. I know I'm not much of a party girl - and I don't like loud music - but we gotta try everything at least once right? :) It's not an excuse but rather a living principle. There are lots of other events that happened too like N's birthday celebration, V's homecoming for a week, and more.
October 2011
I seriously don't see much posts on October so I don't think there is anything memorable that month? I'm sorry. As I've stated before, my memory is failing me everyday. :/ I think I have the memory span of a nut? My bad.
November 2011
There is nothing to remember expect for my birthday! And that November was a tough month for me to get through. But I managed to survive it! What don't kills you make you stronger...right?

I shall skip through December since it's still happening right this second. :) Anyway, I hope everyone had a great 2011. Remember, 2011 may be ending, but a new beginning is coming on 2012. :) Do write resolutions. I know there are people who thinks it's pretty useless. Of course it'll useless if you don't plan it well. We do have choices in life. Perhaps not for everything. But that doesn't means it's not there is it. ;) The world is changing everyday, so we must change our thinking and style of living too. Don't be trapped in the past. I know a lot of things are easier said than done. Trust me. Been there, done that. You have to be tough to defeat yourself. And when you make it, you're going to become a better person than before. Just don't go through scheming ways and method. Think no evil and do no evil. (That's what my teacher used to say to us.) Have a good new year's eve celebration everyone! ^^ Cheers~

P.S I know I've only met you like once or twice and I don't even remember your face, but it really does breaks my heart to hear of the news. I know my grandparents and parents are pretty upset over it too. Please rest in peace. May you be with god. (And I'm really sorry for not attending on the last day...I don't want to give any excuses so I'll just apologise. I'm really sorry.)

Night is young, and so are we! ;)

2011-12-28T02:02:00.000+08:00

I've officially celebrated Christmas for four days!

As you can see from my big title above, I've celebrated Christmas for four days straight this year! That's like breaking my self-record! Seriously! I've never celebrated Christmas with friends until this year came along. It's really been an awesome and fun time with these sweet people in my life. :) I think 2011 didn't end up badly as I thought it would be. Or perhaps it's because November has been a tough month for me so December looked more rewarding as compared to the previous month? I don't know. What I know is that I'll keep these sweet memories forever in my heart. We don't always get to taste the sweetness of life but when we do, I hope everyone would cherish it - even it's for a day. And now looking bad, I really think that people's quotes really do make sense. It doesn't matter if you're given 100 days of bad days 'cause there will be this 1 day that'll make everything even. (Of course that is if you make it through the 100 days.)

"Life is tough but there'll always be sweet moments, it's just whether you're able to see it and treasure it."

Third Day of Christmas~ (Literally the day of Christmas - look back to my post and you'll know what I'm talking about.)
My third day of Christmas started of with a late morning 'cause I woke up pretty late that day. :D But I got pancakes for breakfast! ^^ It's an awesome start! (Okay, so the day is always awesome to me when it starts out with pancakes for breakfast 'cause I'm a total sucker for pancakes. :/ And it wasn't really breakfast - it was brunch. :P) Whatever~ We went to grandma's house in the night as stated and we had steamboat for dinner! Beef! :9 Okay, so steamboat isn't the greatest dinner for me 'cause I can barely cook and there isn't much that I can eat but it was an awesome dinner nevertheless. We just hung around and chatted after the whole dinner which was great - unlike the previous buffet dinner were we just went on our separate ways after dinner. Nothing is better than a great family chit-chats. :) Oh! We made coffee too, using my aunt's Christmas present - a coffee maker. The coffee maker is cool! It works with those cube-packed coffee thing-y. I'm not sure how to explain it...yeah. I don't really appreciate coffee but I do appreciate the coffee machine. Kekekekeke~ ^^ That's pretty much it. There isn't even Christmas presents - expect from my big aunt who made me $100 richer. ;) Shopping time! Or in this case, I have to pay my debts to myself first. :P That's about all!

Fourth Day of Christmas~
Meet my girls (A, S & T) for dinner at Liang Court. It was my first ever time there I think. Pretty empty and quiet except for the dinning place - which was really noisy. :/ I don't remember the name of the restaurant but the food there was pretty affordable. (Who am I kidding, it's really cheap. :P) But don't expect much for the food there. I guess you get what you pay right? Anyway, sweet little S gave us presents for Christmas! I know I love teasing you but it's really very sweet of you for the gifts. Thank you love! ^^ And since we're at Clark Quay, and they wanted to drink, so off we went to find a nice place for a drink. We walked around the whole area and ended up at AquaNova. The place was more of a club style than a casual pub. There were live bands though so the music was pretty great. There is only one problem - the band kept picking on us! Hmph! The guy of the band keep pointing to our direction and asking us questions etc. (That's party because we're seating almost directly in front of them and they're trying to heat things up in the pub since there wasn't a lot of customers yet.) Seriously irritating. We're laughing and joking about how we should clap loudly after their performance so that they wouldn't 'arrow' us, and it did work, for a while. Story of the night is that I got cheated by Iris (who is an iPhone application by the way) because it states that bus 2 ends at 23:29 which sort of made me panic when we arrived back at Pasir Ris. It's lucky that that wasn't the case but Iris, you owe me one! xP It's a good night though I feel that we aren't talking as much as we used to. Perhaps it's because I can't understand people with boyfriends and all. Or it's because we're leading different lives now and all we have in common is the past? I don't know...Hmm. I guess it's true that friendship doesn't stay the same forever. Things change, people change, even I've changed.

This Christmas made me realized that I don't really know how to socialize with people at all. It is because I can see through some of their motives? Or it is because I can't be bothered to know about people's lives? I don't know. I just assume that if they want to know about me, they'll ask. And if they wanted to share something about their life, they'll tell. So much for pro-activeness. I'm in a state where I can't be bothered about anything and everything. :/ Sometimes, I wish life was like the dramas you see on TVs. Why? That's because you'll always sort of know what is going to happen in there. I really wonder is there anything out there that can move my heart - it's really cold as an ice cube. I mean, I do love my friends and I'll seriously do lots of things just to get them happy but what's the point? Maybe I need to have more faith in life. Even if it's just by a little. A little. A little. Slowly. Baby steps. And then one day, I'll find what I'm living for. :) Faith.
Anyway, a new year is coming and I'm getting myself ready by preparing my resolutions and carpe diem. ;) It's always good to have goals and a target - even if it's a short term one. That way, you'll progress and evolve and grow and learn. Baby steps as I've always say. 1,000,000 steps may seem a lot, but if we are willing to put our feet up and walk through, we'll make it and pass through the finishing line. Gotta have faith. Live under the unexpected. ;) Give yourself expectations but don't expect anything from anyone to avoid disappointment. That'll probably be what I've learnt throughout this whole year of disappointments. Even if we're disappointed, do we stop in despair? Nope. We learn to control our emotions and continue moving on. The life is a long journey, it's the greatest challenge but also the biggest joy when you manage to go through each obstacles. I don't know why I'm teaching and preaching about life here when your friend here can't even manage hers. :P Anyway, have fun on the last few days of 2011 people!~

"Happiness is everywhere - it's just whether you choose to embrace it or miss it."

Merry 2010 Christmas!

2011-12-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Christmas & Merry New Year everyone!~
Whoa~ What a crazy Christmas this year! Officially celebrating Christmas for THREE times! (If the plans doesn't change.)

First Day of Christmas~
On the first day of Christmas (or rather the eve of Christmas eve), I had my first Christmas party with my friends at my house. For the first ever time, a Christmas tree was brought up to my house. It's weird somehow to see a Christmas tree in my house. Probably 'cause I'm not used to it - my family usually celebrate Christmas at my grandmother's house with the whole family gathered together for pot-luck with sushi, roasted beef, ham, home-made been hoon, chicken wing and many more. :D Actually, I'm so used to having Christmas dinner at my grandmother's house that some times, just some times, it doesn't feel like it's Christmas when we spent it outside on buffet dinners. :/ But it's not up to us to decide on the venue and event since it consist of the whole family. But for Christmas, I still like home dinner the best. :) Anyway~ Back to topic. I think I sort of failed at cooking on that day 'cause I can never tell whether the food is fully cooked or only half-done. (The only time I can tell if the food is cooked is when it's charred - that is why my instant noodles is always soft instead of being chewy in texture :/) Without mummy's help, dinner would have been a complete failure - 'cause apparently I didn't really cooked the spring roll skin to a proper state (Actually I though that it would be okay if it's just crispy. Oh well. At least it was all fixed in the end.) We started out as if the house got hit by a tornado because we were literally rushing for time. Who knew the guys (or guests) would be late. Oh. And it turns out that there wasn't much deserts 'cause I told them not to over-buy and we ended up with no deserts. But it seems to be all right since everyone was too stuffed from dinner. ^^ All good people! We took lots of crazy photos and exchanged gifts. I think this whole event was really fun but even funnier! Hahahahaha~ Tons of laughter in the air though it had been a busy night. Phew~ At least it's over - and I'm glad that they had a good time (hopefully it's a great time). Picture's up by M. :) It was a really good time hanging out with these people again even though I didn't really get to talk to all of them 'cause I was busying (since I'm the host and all) but it's really great seeing them and joking around. Till next time guys!~

Second Day of Christmas~
It started with a lazy morning and plans to head down to Orchard. I thought the town would be less crowded since it was Christmas eve after all, but I was wrong. Instead, it was crowded - so crowded that it was kind of hard for us to walk down from one place to another. The places where it's less crowded were the shops - the streets were way packed than the shops. I guess I wasn't thinking straight. I thought everyone would be home for Christmas eve to be with their family. Or was that supposed to be Christmas day? Oh well. My dream Christmas would be having a dinner together at the dinning table with roasted chicken (or turkey if you really want) and many other food - in another words, a typically English/American Christmas. It's just so heart warming somehow. :D Anyway, met my family at 313 for tea before walking around Forever 21. Wasn't really in the shopping mood so I didn't have much to buy. Anyway, the shopping ended when it was time to head to Marriott Hotel for dinner with the whole family. (And when I say whole family, I meant 19 people and not just the six of us!) Dinner didn't go well with me. :/ I don't really fancy the food there. Actually, the food down at Todai was much better. There was more varieties and there was labellings on each of the dishes unlike the ones in Marriott where you have to half-guess what you're eating - I know I'm adventurous (sort of) but I'm not the kind to try food without knowing what's in it. (So I'm kind of picky. :P) We took lots of pictures and polariods too. I have no photos or anything since I wasn't using my own camera. :) I do have some polariods though. But there wasn't much to take. I wonder how the family photo turned out to be? Hahahahaha~ I didn't check. Hopefully, I'll look all right. :P The whole event ended up with me getting over-exhausted. I really don't know what the hell happened but my whole body just got weak. :( I blame the cold medicine. Hmph. But overall, it was a good night. :D

Today is officially Christmas Day! Hohohoho~ Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you're spending today with your love ones. :D Even if you can't, your love ones will always be in your heart and vice versa. Just have a happy day - and happiness is up to you to decide. ;) I'm watching out for my Looney Tunes' Christmas Carol but apparently the TV network isn't broadcasting any! :( That's like my favourite show on Christmas! And the Christmas Carol is my all-time favourite Christmas story. *sigh* I wish it was on VCD, 'cause at least that way, I'll get to buy it and watch it whenever I want to! :/ Whatever~ I spent my morning slacking away. (Which sort of reminds me...I haven't had lunch! :o Oh my. What short memory span I have...) Anyway, my third Christmas party is about to start later at night - a steamboat dinner at my grandmother's house. We're like celebrating Christmas twice. I think they probably feel the same way as I do - that it doesn't feel like Christmas without a dinner at my grandmother's house. I'm sort of glad that my paternal side doesn't celebrate Christmas 'cause it's kind of scary if I had to celebrate it more than thrice. That is like...overboard. :/ It's a good weather to run today but I can't 'cause I'm heading out later as stated. Next week shall be exercise week! Oh! Not to mention it's my homework and studying week! Time to get cracking and study! It feels like I haven't studied for months instead of days. :( Slack time! Good day! And goodbye! Hohohoho~ Merry Christmas once again! Love is in the air. *hugs & kisses*

P.S. If you're really bored like I am, go to YouTube and catch MBC Christmas special with SNSD, SUJU and many more Korean artist. But if you're not a Korean fan then well, there is only one thing I can say, and that is...they sing in English too since Christmas songs are mostly in English. :D *peace*

"Love everyone tonight. Actually, not tonight. Just love. :)"

A busy pre-Christmas

2011-12-21T03:23:00.000+08:00

I am stuffed with piles of things to clear before Christmas and those are not including holiday assignments!

As you can tell from my title and sub-headline, I am currently busy right now. I know it's contradicting that I'm still blogging when I'm busy, but it actually helps to keep my sanity level up if I blog so it's not an option. Anyway, I'm filled with work to do due to the closeness of Christmas and Chinese New Year. Oh. And of course it's mostly because I've been procrastinating till the last minute to plan and do my stuffs too. :x I'm repenting now, but it's kind of late to do so. *sigh*

I. Am. Seriously. Exhausted. To. The. Last. Bit. Of. Energy.

Be a little grateful that I'm still blogging away 'cause I only left a little energy in me right now. It's 1am in the morning and I'm still not done with my stuffs - which means I have to burn midnight oil. What kind of stuffs? Well, check out my to-do list if you're so curious. But remember, curiosity kills the cat!
Sarah's To-Do List:

Finish up the address to the Christmas Cards
Write the messages in the Christmas Cards
Plan tomorrow's agenda - 'cause I'm planning to head to town to buy a dress but I have tons of things to complete tomorrow too like baking and posting.
Find present for gift exchange (Does that means I have to go out again on Thursday!? Pooh~)
Shop for new year clothes
Complete holiday assignment (This is not really in a rush BUT I really do want to get it out of the way - and I do wanna do some studying during the holidays too. :/)
Compile the details for S18 Christmas party

Just reading this gives me a headache. And it's not like I have a lot of time to do 'cause Christmas is this Saturday already. THIS SATURDAY! *panic mode* If I have a heart-attack, I would have died just thinking about all this things to do! Phew~

Enough about all this crazy stuff. Let's take a look at the brighter side of life. Today I got to watch another movie - New Years Eve! :D I think I'm on a movie-craze mode because I've been requesting my friends to watch all sorts of movies with me since November started. I guess it's because I haven't been watching movies in the theatre for quite some time so I kind of missed the old days where my secondary school friends and I would watch movies every other week in one whole big groups. I really miss those awesome moments.
Anyway, today I got L to watch New Years Eve with me! Awesome! The company was awesome and so was the movie! It's a touching, sweet and sad, it's definitely a movie worth watching. :D I love how the whole story line revolves around love, unfinished resolutions and future.
We were late for the 2pm movie, so we decided to watch the later movie at 4.20pm. With much time to spare, we decided to use it on our virgin trip to A&F. It totally feels like a museum! Why? Well...Firstly, it's dark inside shop, making me sort of dizzy as I explore the inner part of the shop. Secondly, there are lights inside the shops BUT the lights are all directed at the displays and clothes. It's a little too much don't you think? I mean, I do think the shop interior is nice and all but...well. Yeah. Thirdly, there was actually a line to take a instant photo with the model of A&F. What the heck? It's just...weird. :P Anyway, overall we did quite a lot of shopping. Thus, we were a little late for the movie. Oh! Today is my first time drinking coke after eight months of hiatus and I can say that I totally didn't like it. It was too sweet for me. :( After movie was dinner at the food court below. I had pepper lunch. I was kind of regretting having pepper lunch 'cause it made me eat so much rice. I know I'm picky over the amount of rice I consume. Don't judge me! :/

I am officially burning my midnight oil right now. (It's 3.0.5pm - Don't ask why I'm taking such a long time to type. I'm multi-tasking. Or at least trying to.)

All right. This will be my last long-ish paragraph for today so bear with me!
Today, I encountered some weird person on the train! :( I blame it on too much teasing of my friends and now it's the return of karma. Anyway, what that person did was that he kept stepping on my shoes (deliberately - I can tell!) and trying to get my attention. It's not like I know him! I swear I was so scare that I would have broke down in tears if he didn't alight at the next stop. T.T Scary to the max! *heart pounding* Girls, please beware!

And that's the end of today's journey. I am really burnt out so I'm just gonna go off without completing anything - though I'm supposed to finish my short messages for my friends' Christmas cards if I want them to receive before Christmas. *fingers crossed* Pray that I'll make it on time all right? Thanks! ^^ Peace out~

"Spread the love to everyone 'cause love is the most powerful thing there ever was/ Everyone deserved to be loved - even the bad ones - just like everyone deserves a second chance."

A weekend closer to the holiday

2011-12-18T23:41:00.003+08:00

Two more days & it'll be the holidays!

I can't wait for the holidays to be here. Although I'm quite hesitant towards the holidays as well because...well. It's because I'm kind of afraid that my self-discipline would be gone. Okay. So it was never there to begin with but I was working on it. Now that holidays are coming, I've this feeling that I'll be more slack and lazy than before. :( I guess every thing has it's good and bad.

Friday was an awesome day with the babes at TeoHeng. :D It was really a TGIF feeling for me.

I had a three hour of lecture by myself sadly - and I didn't managed to make friends 'cause as expected, everyone was sitting with their own cliques. Met up with S after class and off we went to Orchard - by bus. We took a different bus from the previous one I had too before so I alighted at the wrong stop. We had to walked a longer distance to 313 but since S didn't mind walking - she claimed she loves to walk - so I guess I didn't have to apologise. :P

Anyway, we walked around 313 while waiting for C & J to arrive - they were late but expected to be. :P Had small lunch at the basement. I love the chicken cutlet from Shiling but kind of fattening. Heehee~ ^^ And I got to eat soft shell crab temaki! First ever time I find it being sold in a small shop and not those big Japanese restaurant. :9 It was delicious. We loitered around a while after lunch before taking the bus down to TeoHeng. It was super fun singing with this bunch of girls. I got high by myself from singing all the songs. ^^ Actually I'll always get high from singing as long as the group of friends are those who're...well. I guess it's only for those who're hyper along with me. :D

But Friday was my sister's birthday too so sadly, I couldn't join the girls for dinner. Instead, daddy came to pick me up and we headed off to Orchard for dinner. The dinner venue was at Wheelock - a Japanese restaurant called Sun with Moon. I didn't even know it existed until that day. The desert was awesome, especially for the chocolate crepe. I'll definitely be heading back for more! The whole dinner was damn expensive and sadly to say, I was quite in envy of my sister for having such a great birthday dinner unlike mine. :/ Never mind. I shall not compare and make myself feel bad. Instead, I should be happy that I got to enjoy such an awesome dinner because of my sister. :)

Saturday & Sunday was nothing usual. It's just a boring weekend with tons of stuff to do. Some times, I think I really do waste weekends easily. Like this week, I wasted it by using the computer and doing nothing productive. It's kind of sad. Really. I'm still lacking a lot in the self-discipline department. *sigh* The only good thing that is praise-worthy is that I managed to persuade myself for a jog after three weeks of hiatus. It's quite a fulfilling feeling as I managed to run for 30 minutes even! :) *pats myself on the back*

Right. Time to head off. I'll be back for more when Christmas arrive - it's exactly one more week to Christmas by the way! Celebrate and have fun people! Go crazy but stay safe! With lots of love! ^^

Tomorrow's agenda:

9:00am - Wake up and finish stats tutorial (Hopefully)
11:00am - Start on Christmas card messages & ask daddy to buy stamps! (And hopefully I've finished stats by then.)
12:00pm - Lunch time
1:30pm - Head off to school (I need a two hours head start if not I'll probably be late.)
3:30pm - Stats lecture :(
6:30pm - Rush for the bus home for dinner. :9
9:00pm - Finish off whatever messages I've not finish and prepare for posting on Tuesday/Wednesday

"Enjoy while you can, endure when you must."

Sniff Sniff

2011-12-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

My nose is like a spoilt water tap. *sniff sniff*

I'm feeling a little out of shape this few weeks 'cause I haven't exercised for quite some time. I do have excuses for the first two weeks but this week is purely laziness. The weather today was perfect for running but I couldn't bring myself to run at all. :( My motivation to run is all gone. Even my motivation to diet. And not to mention my motivation to do sit-ups and crunches. It's a really slacking month this December. Probably the holiday spirit getting into me. I'm feeling so laid back and relax nowadays, with no worries at all. But this cannot do. I need to start my engine again because soon it'll be 2012, and it's quite an important year 'cause examinations is coming. Not that it's not coming every year but it'll be my first university exams. And for the first ever time, I have set a target for myself. Hwaiting!~

I forgot to mention that Monday's dinner with my secondary school friends. It was for one of my best friend's birthday. Awww~ The organizer is so sweet don't you think? Kekekekeke~ ^^ Don't mind me. I'm just playing around. :P Anyway, we had dinner at Just Acia. The food there was so-so, nothing special. I guess the guys wanted to eat there 'cause it's cheaper and it comes with free flow of drinks and ice-cream. It was kind of awkward in the beginning of dinner - especially when I first met them while my friend was in the shop. Hahahahaha~ It's just so weird. I think I'm more comfortable with my JC peeps since our class is smaller so there is less 'cliques' and more togetherness. :/ But the conversation we have between secondary school mates are way funnier! YM & I was actually comparing the secondary school guys (or rather poly guys) with our JC and university mates and we thought they're (secondary school mates) much immature. Ops~ :P Or maybe they're just at ease with the old school people. After all, we all act differently somehow with different groups of people. It's not being two-faced but rather the different comfort level with the people you know. Like if I were to analyse myself with different degree, this is how it'll be:

Family: Totally a kid (And it doesn't help that I'm the youngest of the family. :P)
Secondary school mates: Childish but serious depending on the mood & event & people.
Junior college mates: A little more mature but childish with closer friends.
University: A little unsociable & introvert with people. (I'm trying to change and be more friendly but apparently my other self doesn't allows me to. My conscious and deep-conscious have way different thoughts that it's almost, ALMOST, like I have split personality. :/)
Work: Totally adult & detach. (But that's mainly 'cause all the working adults are mostly way older than me so there is no way for me to go crazy there right.)

But there is one thing I have to say, and that is even though I seem to act differently with different groups of people, I've always been honest about myself. It's always the real me - just in different layers of protection. So if there is one thing I cannot stand, it is when people's character or sincerity are faked - and I can tell them apart. xP

Okay. I've been digressing. After dinner, we headed down to one of the pubs in Pasir Ris Park. If my memory serves me correctly, I think the name of the pub is called Summer Breeze. I'm so glad that there are cars to drive us in because it's really deep inside the park. If we had to walk there, I think I'll just go home. :P We drank a little, played around and decided that it was time go head home 'cause it was late and some of us had school or intern-ship the next day. I think drinking session was better with the choir peeps. We're a crazy bunch. :D

Anyway, I think I've done quite a lot of new things this year, which is kind of awesome 'cause I love trying out new & exciting activities. Next year, I shall start my Carpe Diem list again! ;) So many things to do but with so little people. Come on people! You haven't really lived till you gone crazy once. Some things are better done when you're young so strike while the iron is hot! Where is my T&C boyfriend when you need one? Hahahaha~ In case you're wondering what is T&C, it's a joke between me and my friends. I'm serious when it comes to relationships - no matter if it's kinship, b-g relationship or friendship - 'cause these things take time. On the other hand, I need people with sense of adventure and spontaneous to go all out on an exciting life with me. It doesn't have to be the love of my life. Just good friends will do. As long as it's not some pure strangers or doing it alone. *shrug*

I can't wait for Friday with the girls. :) But as Friday approaches, it'll means that...well. Let's just say that there are things that I'm not looking forward too. Oh. I managed to finish my Christmas cards for ten special people! :) What's left is finding recipe for the cookies and well, finishing up the messages. Oh! Not to mention the present that I owe my friends. Plus my own timetables to do up. *sigh* It's tons of work for myself with a short holiday. I'm determine to finish my things so I think with determination & motivation, I'll definitely complete my stuffs! Yeah~

I realized my new blogskin doesn't have a blog-counter nor a music box. Oh well. I think the next best thing would be to just post up the song title that I'm currently into. ;)

Mizuki's Music Mix: Jetlagged by Simple Plan ft. Marie-Mai. And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged~

That's about it for today. I think it's pretty long-ish already so I'm off! Peace out!

"In the world, there may be thousands of people with the same names but there will only be one you. So don't be someone who act like others. Just be yourself."

Dinner-Deserts-Post Deserts with 2S17 ♥

2011-12-13T23:53:00.001+08:00

Awesome time are meant for awesome people like US! ♥

Let's play back the things that has been happening around this few days! Rewind!

Friday was the date of 2S17's dinner meet-up. I had expected it to be an awkward dinner but it was really comfortable eating and chatting with these bunch of cool peeps! ;) Anyway, it started out with 3 hours of PBF lessons and I had to study in school for hours just to wait for the time to be up since the dinner was at 6.30pm. Chomp Chomp. I don't really fancy the place but the food is really delicious so I guess I can see why they wanted to head there. It'll probably be our last dinner at Chomp Chomp since it's really inaccessible for us. (Actually, I realized that if half of them can go home, it'll means that I can easily go home too. So it's not really inaccessible as I thought it was.) We ordered quite a lot of mouth-watery food like satay, barbecued chicken wing (I think that is one of the best chicken wing in Singapore! ;P) and carrot cake etc. Okay. Now looking back, we didn't really buy a lot of food for nine people. (Of course there were other food besides those that are listed but the total amount of food for nine people was only about 30 odd?) Maybe that's why they wanted desert after dinner! The desert house was totally engulf with the smell of durian that I literally choked. Yeah, I'm not much of a durian fan. :/ But the place was comfortable enough. We ordered our own desert and ate as we chat. Took lots of random shots, and I think the most epic one happened when we took with the Christmas tree. I didn't even know it happened until they told me.
Well. What happen was that we were taking a group photo around the Christmas tree in the shop, with the help of the friendly staff of course. But as we took the photo, the people (No, I'm not talking about the other customer. Us. We're a big group so...) on the other side kept laughing non-stop. It was only after the whole photo-taking that I realized the decoration (the snowman) on the Christmas tree had fallen down! LOL! Itchy fingers guys! Tsk~ Hahahaha~
Anyway, looking at the post title, there is still a post desert to go! It was Urdders. (I hope I got the shop name right! :/) It's a ice-cream shop. I didn't buy one for myself though since I was already full from the desert shop. But I did get to try some flavours. I think the tiramisu was a little too bitter, but not bad. The chocolate was nice! Hahahaha. Chocolate is always nice. :) But everything tiramisu-flavoured is always the best of the best! :P Oh! I was doodling on the glass wall of the shop, with the pen provided BY the shop, with S. It was an awesome experience to be 'vandalizing'. Kekekekeke~ ^^ The night ended with R riding us either home or to the nearest & convenient bus stop. Thanks!
Thumbs up to the people who attended!
Wilson! For organizing the whole event. ;) Sok Loon! Cassandra! For attending even though you were exhausted! Awww~ Pei Xuan! Rahul! Thanks for the car ride! Xi Da! Reginald! Crystal! Alton! And me!
I hope I didn't miss out anyone. Oh. I didn't get to use my Poloriad though. :( Next time! Next round we shall go USS! Hahahaha~ ^^

Saturday was my date with mummy! We walked around city area to buy some Christmas stuff which I needed. Big sister came around at night to join us but by then I wasn't really in the mood to shop already because I was feeling well from the start. I came out to buy my stuffs despite being sick. *sigh* The things you do for your friends. :) Of course I wouldn't say that I didn't enjoy myself because I did. Especially for dinner at the Asian Kitchen. The rice cake was awesome! So was the sambal sweet potato leaf. :9 Recommended for everyone to try. But do take note that it's quite crowded so you've to queue in early or die of hunger while waiting. :/ Good things are worth waiting right? :D

As for the rest of the days till today...Well. Nothing much to comment about. It's just like normal days with ups & downs. Oh. But I'm quite satisfied with something - that is I found my goals and aim. Awesome. ;) Although 2011 is coming to an end, it feels like I'm prepared for 2012. I'll fight everything in my way! ^^ Since this is my blog I guess there is no harm typing things that are a little deeper. If you're a friend you'll understand. And for those who aren't, I have no need to report to you. xP
My goals are simple actually. It's just to get first class honour for my university. I don't know why I have this serious urge to study well. I'm not even aiming for a certain job in the future. But somehow, I think I'm starting to want something. Maybe I'm being more honest to myself for a change. I've been honest to everyone but myself. It sounds skewed but it's the truth. There is really no one standing in your way but yourself. :) Argh. It's really hard to describe this very feeling I have inside but I think...Gak~ I really don't know how to phrase it. I think you have to experience it to know it. Perhaps extreme enlightenment. Hahahaha~ It's like those cartoons where you see those little figures with the light bulb shinning beside them. "I've got it." It's almost that kind of feeling. You know what? I think people should really read more about self-enriching. Especially, well, everyone should read it, learn from it, & grow wiser and more maturer in handling stuffs. We need little of everything to make life balance - even the bad stuff. Okay. Now I'm totally digressing because I can't describe the feeling of awesomeness. I know that there is bound to have people who are critical of every single thing you do. Just ignore them. It's true that those who criticize are the ones being jealous. Been there, done that. Slowly, you'll realise that there is nothing to be jealous of. I mean...Gosh. Surely there are some who are better, but I believe God makes us all equal in one way or another. (Omg. I'm even preaching about religion now... :o It's not an insult by the way. :) Peace.
All right-y. I shall stop my babbling. It seems like the more you say, the more mistake you make because it gives people chance to criticize you - not that I care. Or maybe I do? Omg. More contradictions! Hahahaha~ The complex mind of the scorpios! ;P By the way, I really do believe that scorpios are really self-less although they can be somehow selfish. I think those who gets the inner scorpios are the lucky ones. And I'm not saying that to praise myself. No. I love people which horoscope of the cancer. They're by far one of the best! ^^ To me at least they are. Hahahaha~ Okay okay. I shall end here before my horoscope craziness kicks in. I don't think I can sleep now, seeing how I slept for 3-4 hours in the afternoon just now. Still, this post needs and ending! Goodnightz~

"Enjoy each and every moment you have."

Why does bad things always come faster than the good ones?

2011-12-08T15:34:00.003+08:00

Why does bad things always come faster than the good ones?

A few days ago, I had serve headaches and body pains which lead to a minor fever, but I though I had recover through this few days. Apparently, I was wrong. Instead, I'm having throat problem now. :( Bad things really comes faster than the good ones. *sigh* It must be the popcorn from yesterday. My throat is really feeling terrible right now that I'm not in the mood to sing or eat anything. I just want it to stop throbbing and making me cough. Every cough is like a torture to my throat, but it's so itchy that I can't help doing so. *irritated*

I know today is not the right time to be here typing away. I'm not gonna make any excuses for today 'cause I just don't feel like studying. There is no reasons to that.

On the bright side, I finally got to watch 'Already Famous' with my friends. The next show on the list would be 'New Year's Eve'. Awesome! I haven't been into movie watching since secondary school! ;) Anyway, I caught the show with V & S. I think the show was hilarious & worth it. (Check out my reviews at: www.littlemsangelz.livejournal.com) It was a good time spend with the girls despite the little time. After the hang out, I got on my second ride on the circle line and headed to Bishan. Bishan is still as confusing as ever to me - at least the bus interchange was, seeing how I came out from an unfamiliar side. But I managed to find my bus so it was all good. Did I ever mention that I'm not good with unfamiliar buses? 'Cause I totally panicked on bus 52 yesterday despite knowing that it'll surely pass by my school. :/ The bus took longer than I estimated so as you can guess, I was late for class. Oh well. At least I wasn't the only one, seeing how a guy was walking towards the door of the lecture too - there was one who was an hour late or so! It was pretty tiring when the lesson ended. Thankfully for mummy & daddy who came to pick me up. I'll probably reach home at 11 plus if they didn't. (My lesson was at 7 to 10pm.) Oh! The brighter side of yesterday was that my parcel from G-Market is finally here! Awesome! I was literally jumping up and down as I opened my parcel. Actually I was already pretty excited about it since I received the SMS from the delivery company. ^^ I love my new Instax Mini 25! Thumbs up! Whee~

Okay. Seriously feeling tortured over here with my throat. Gak~ Shall get out of here and explore else where. Goodbye! Have an awesome week ahead 'cause Christmas is coming! Santa Claus is coming to town~

(/Edited)
I'm back again for more retarded stuffs. Nah~ It's not retarded, but I just realized I'm always posting stuffs different from what I've initially wanted to write. No, it's not because I didn't want to write it out to the world. It's rather that I keep forgetting what I wanna type in and thus it ends up differently. Oh well. Like right now. Hahahaha. I wanted to type in how bored I am of the things happening around and yet I'm digressing. Oh. I'm a hungry monkey. I need some food. And here's the bad thing about a problematic throat - you'll be extremely picky over what you eat because you know some food will make it worse and you don't wanna risk it. What a joy. (sarcastic) Oh man. Talking about food, I have sudden cravings for sushi & Korean delicacies. :9 And there are sooooooooooo many things I wanna do! Like like like. Okay. Too many to name. Random! See ya~ Gonna watch TVEEEEE~

"Love life like how you love yourself. If you don't love yourself, how will you love life?"

A laid back weekend

2011-12-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Gosh. I'm become a couch-potato on weekends. :/

I think I'm enjoying weekends too much for my own good. *sigh* Weekends are the best and worse days of the week. It's the best because it's the day I get to rest, use the computer and go out to have some fun. But as you know, everything has it's flip side. And for my case, weekends are far to relax for me to do my assignments & study. Seriously! I ought to be more discipline on weekends. My schedule for the weekends mostly goes like this:
I'll wake up early in the morning to watch some cartoons like Doraemon & Pokemon. I know it's childish but I can't help watching. Then while waiting for breakfast, I'll just be sitting by the sofa and watching random shows all the way till the afternoon comes. :/ Then when lunch comes, I'll switch on the DVD player for a movie which probably last till either three or four plus in the afternoon, depending on the time of my lunch. Since it's already so late, I'll still be seating by the TV and watching channel 8's rerun dramas. And if the weather is good, I'll be going for my later afternoon jog. It'll be dinner by the time I'm ready and I'll be too relax to start work so I'll be thinking: I'll do tomorrow. And it goes on repeat.
*sigh* It's no wondering I'm not loosing any weight off me. I'm so frustrated with myself. But as much as I try to get moving, I just can't study. Perhaps my mind is already conditioned that way where I can't study on weekends. Omg. That would be terrible. It's time to do something. *scared* I'm really to easily distracted. I need a timetable badly! Unfortunately, I'm terrible at using Microsoft Excel for timetable. What am I gonna do! *panic*

Enough about that. Self-reproaching wouldn't work. There must be determination and motivation too. Oh. And action. Hahahaha~ All talk and no work doesn't make much difference. :) Gotta work hard too. 2011 is already coming to an end and yet, I'm still the same old me. This will not do. I need to change! Fast! Well. Since I did managed to accomplish some resolutions for the year 2011, I think I'll plan what to aim for in 2012 soon. That way, I'll have a gauge for myself. But as we grow, live seems to get duller. I wonder does everyone feels that way? Especially when you've got no dreams in life. *sigh* There I go again. I better stop right here before it goes on and on and on and on and on....

Today's weather is really sunny. A good weather for the standard chartered marathon. :) Okay. I take that back. It seems pretty cloudy too. Hmmm. I hope it doesn't rain later on because I wanna go for a run. I feel like listing out the things to do and things to buy. I think I like lists. Hahahaha~ 'Cause I'm always making long to-do lists. Checking the items off the list is really a great sense of achievement to me. :P Then again, I think I'll pass for now. It's contradicting to post a list for Christmas stuffs when you want to keep the Christmas gift a secret. :D Goodbye~ I shall be a little hard working and keep my laptop. (Or at least stop posting and try to do up a timetable.)

"If your friends can't accept the real you then they're not your friends."

I love my computer times!

2011-12-03T01:47:00.001+08:00

Weekends are the best because it's my computer time! ;)

I just spend my whole computer time for today to change my blogskin. Phew~ It's been long (approximately two years) since I've touch up on my blogskin so it was quite a tough job for me just now. I've long forgotten all the codes and everything. *sigh* Hopefully, I'll be able to change the photos later on. Yeah, the photos aren't me. I'm trying to edit my photos into the same quality as the ones already on the blogskin, but my photoshop skills ain't that good yet. Maybe you'll like to help me? Hahahaha~

This whole week has its goods and bad - just like how we have ups & downs moment in our lives. :)
I think Tuesday was relatively worse than the other days since I was all alone for lunch that day. I don't blame anyone 'cause I know they have their own things to do. It's just kind of saddening somehow. Lucky for D who arranged to have lunch with me even though it was a last minute decision. Thanks! Yeah. I know I'm over-dependent on friends that I can't eat alone. *sigh* I'm really trying to grow out of this dependence of others. Really. Anyway, it was all good 'cause I got to meet my friend who I haven't seen for quite some time. Perhaps it was a blessing in disguise. :) Oh. That was the day of the M.Net awards show too! Hahahaha~ The award show was a little boring but I love it when it was SNSD's turn to perform. The stage was awesome! Nah~ I wasn't there for the live concert. It's okay. I want my virgin concert to be for C.N Blue - that is if they every come to Singapore for a live tour! L.O.V.E! Which reminds me, the SNSD's concert is coming up. It's on the 9th December if I remembered correctly. Well, for those who're going, please say hi to Yoona-Unnie for me! ;)

I'm back in my little self piano lessons. This time, I'm learning a piece with the music score. It's really difficult for me since I can hardly read the black notes. :/ Despite that, I still managed to play half the song - though I'm unable to play the other half due to the difficulty of the left hand and right hand coordination. *sigh* I really wished my parents had given me piano lessons in the past. I would have loved it - at least I think I would. :) Oh. My sister kindly taught me the 'Cat Dance' too! Awesome! I've been trying to learn it but somehow I just couldn't get it right since I've no idea what's the notes to it. But there was a funny story behind this lesson. I can play (partially) songs like 'Because of you', "Haru Haru', 'River flows in you' & 'Kiss the rain' but I can't play an easy song like 'Cat Dance'. Isn't that a joke? Well, it's really kind of funny in a retarded way. :P

By the way, it's 22 more days to Christmas! (Or 23 days, depending on the way you count your time.) I really have to get moving and start buying everything on my list for my Christmas to be complete. :D It's time to get busy! I wished there was some Christmas parties to go to though. I mean what is Christmas without a party where there is gifts exchange, wine & dine, and maybe a little dance. ;) That'll be totally awesome! But I guess living in a country like Singapore has it's perks and off-perks? Hahahaha~ That is we don't celebrate Christmas much. Yes, we do get a holiday but you can't feel the Christmas joy in the air. The only joy you'll find is probably from the retailers & shoppers when there is a post-Christmas sales - the joy of shopping. Tsk~ There is so much more than just gifts. But of course, as a typical Singaporean, I am looking forward to the sales too! Fred not for those who're dying (please, not literally) to experience the feeling of Christmas (even if it's just a little). You can hop down to the city areas at night time. The decorations on the streets are bound to lift your Christmas spirits somehow. :D And if it doesn't work...Well, then throw a little party of your own. :) Bake cookies, decorate your house, buy a Christmas tress. And if it doesn't work, just make gifts and cards for your friends. Because Christmas is really about showing your appreciation for your friends and families. Or was that Thanksgiving? I don't know. All I know it...All I want for Christmas is you~

All-righty. I've been typing non-stop since minutes ago. It's probably time to stop and sleep since I'm not feeling well either. It's just flu, nothing serious. But there is this discomfort in your body that you'll really want to sleep them off. *sniff* I know it's Christmas but I do not want to look like Rudolph, thank you very much! *sniff* Time to head to dream land!~

"If you can't keep a promise, then don't seal a promise with someone."

Short-tern

2011-11-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

Another weekend just passed in a blink of an eye. ;)

Time really wait for no man or woman. It's something more precious than money because you can't even buy it with money. Tick tock. Seconds are passing by as you read this, and if you're supposed to be somewhere else, you're probably wasting your time right now. That's how real life is so make every second count.

I'm not sure what I'm doing here actually. :) These few days have never been better. My mood has lifted - though still with some occasional moods. I can't wait for Christmas & the end of year to come. That'll mean parties and celebration right? ^^ Perhaps not too much of a party but rather family celebrations. But seriously, my mind is already tuning to Christmas that I'm thinking of Christmas gifts & cards ideas every possible free time. My only Christmas wish is to enjoy it with my friends and families. But apparently they're too busy with themselves to notice the true meaning of Christmas joy. It's kind of saddening. Hopefully, they'll snap out of it when the real time comes.

Sometimes I wished Singapore has winter. :D Then we can have a white Christmas - wouldn't it be cool? Actually that'll be awesome. I've always wanted a white Christmas, with people carolling along the streets, door to door, to pass on the joy of Christmas, the time of giving and appreciation. *sigh* If only they knew. If only they realized. But since it's Christmas, we gotta have a faith right? *pray*

Anyway, my Christmas gifts & cards are planned! ;) The only things I have to do is to buy some stuffs & draw time to make. Hopefully, I'll be able to finish this Christmas project on time. Every year, I've always sent last minute Christmas cards due to procrastination. :P Things I hope I'll be able to do this December: Have a Christmas dinner with the family; have a Christmas gathering or countdown with my dear friends. But I guess sometimes friendship does fade a little. It's like studies - if you don't put in enough time on it, you'll just slowly forget about it and then you'll become 'strangers'. Sadly to say, there is always people like that. People who prioritize school work or even new friends over friends & family. Oh well. If the person truly cared, that would never happen so that says something about the person's character doesn't it? Hmmm.

I'm in need of adventures this December. ;) Please let me have some companions for these. Hahahahaha~ I don't know to feel happy or irritated about some stuffs...Like how some people can be complaining & rejecting activities that you had suggested and then suggesting the same thing themselves. :/ It's kind of irritating but whatever. I'll let it slide.

The adventures in stored (Hopefully?):

1. Cycling

2. Badminton

3. Movies

4. Parties

5. USS

Can't seem to find active people to join in though. Zzzz~ No offence but I need more adventurous friends. Or just active. :D Full of energy with nothing to do now. :( Time to sleep! Goodnight & sweet dreams everyone!

Happiness indicator:

1. Managed to keep back to my promise to run & exercise again. :D

2. A relaxing week.

3. Looking forward to tomorrow's dinner with my girlfriends - N & S.

4. Christmas is coming!

5. M.Net awards is on Tuesday which means lots of Korean idols will be standing in the same country as me! (Example 2PM's Nichkhun! *faint* Heehee~ ^^)

Exercise Regime

2011-11-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

One, two, three, four! Two, two, three, four! Huff. Puff.

Now what does that sounds like?
If you've guessed 'exercise' then you're absolutely right! :D

I've officially started my own exercise diary over at LJ - www.littlemsangelz.livejournal.com - do check it out.
It was supposed to be my secret diary but I've decided that there is no reason for me to do double postings. Besides, I've nothing to hide from anyone. ;) Hence, all the post are shifted down to this blog. (It's hard work just to shift the posts you know. :P) Since December marks the end of 2011, I've decided that I should do something about my goals and dreams - and plans. I'm desperate to loose weight like any other girls. But what will make me different from them would be the determination to put my words into action and start working out. In that site, I'll be posting tips and plans for a healthy mind & body from what I've researched. With Internet, it's really easy to get information. Starting this journey is easy but staying with it throughout the years is difficult. It really takes great determination. *phew*

I'm really in a good mood today for once. :D
I guess occasional changes is really good for the mind and soul huh? Why is that? That's because I feel great after redecorating my bedroom - the table and shelves. It was really a good feeling to clear everything. Perhaps it's the 'fengshui'. Hahahaha~ Maybe that's what it takes to get me to be motivated again for studies. There are many things I wanna do right now that some times, I really wish we can spilt ourselves into a few person and do many things at once. Now wouldn't that be cool? ^^ Once again, I'm gonna try and remove my unhappiness and start all over again. (Though I know it's not the beginning of the new year but then who is to say that I have to have a specific date to pick myself up? :D)

Here's some little happiness for my weekend (Saturday):
1. My sister is back from Oz.
2. The feeling of motivation and happiness is back again. :D
3. The box of treasures I just received from my babes yesterday.
4. The changes I've made to my room, making my room seem less cluttered and more workable.
5. Feeling relax (Hopefully I'll do my work later!)

All right! Enough nonsense over here. It's time for lunch and time to get cracking! Hwaiting!~

December - the last month of 2011

2011-11-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

December. November. December. November.

December is slowly approaching, which means we're getting nearing to the end of 2011 and the start of 2012. There are many unpredictable things that are coming our way for us to tackle and learn as we grow. But before we look forward to the future, take a moment and look at the past where you've been through. :) Be grateful to al the problems you had to face in 2011 as it made you stronger. Be thankful to the friends and families who didn't let go when you were facing those problems as they made it possible. December may be the time of farewell, but it's also the time of appreciations to everyone who had made a difference in your little life.

While December is something worth looking forward too, I sincerely hope that November comes to an end quickly. If you were to ask me for a reason, it'll be hard for me to answer because I can't give one reason, but I can give you plenty. :/ Firstly, like I've said, December is a month worth looking forward too with Christmas and New Year's Eve. Secondly, it would mean that my school break is coming soon. (Which is on the 21st of December.) Thirdly, and most importantly, November has been one screwed up month. Seriously. I thought that November would be the best month in this year because of my birthday but apparently things don't always go your way. Problems occurring one after another; stressing about studies; self-emotion problems; even my birthday was a mess! Not that I didn't appreciate all the surprises and blessings from my friends. Please don't get me wrong. It was just something else that I didn't voice. And why should I? It wouldn't make any difference for me to tell. Why should I bother other people with my problems when they have their own problems to handle? It's not like I can't get back up on my feet. It's not like it never happened. I'm used to it - or at least trying to.

Anyway, my real motive here is because I wanted to list down my goals for next month since this month I've been breaking a lot of promises to myself. (No, I'll never break promises to my friends because I know how important promises are, so if you're the type to break promises, please don't ever promise me anything or you'll suffer a horrible fate.) Here goes!

Goals for the last month of 2011:

1. Exercise

I really meant to exercise this month but apparently I'm the rain-god 'cause it always rains on the days when I'm about to go for my evening jogs. 'Lucky me'.

2. Cut down on junk food

If you've read the past posts, you'll realize that I don't eat junk food from the beginning of 2011. But I guess I'm too stressed up. Besides, it's really tempting somehow. I can't believe my determination is breaking down - I was so closed to success! :(

3. Cut down on distractions

I'm still easily distracted as usual - by TV and whatever not. Even the simple chit-chats can get me distracted. *sigh* I'm always saying 'make sacrifices' but somehow, I can't. And it's even harder since I don't like weekly routine. I like to be spontaneous and have a balance of everything. (Though it always ends up loop-sided, with entertainment more than work. :/)

4. Make more friends

Yeah. That's my ultimate aim. I really want to be more sociable and meet more people 'cause I get bored easily. :/ Besides, sometimes I always end up being alone because I'm too reliant on my friends. *hint & point fingers*

5. Walk home when possible

No. I'm not trying to save money from bus fare - though indirectly I do save money from bus fare! :D I'm trying to get into the habit of walking home since I can't jog due to the bad weather. It's not much but at least it's a form of exercise.

6. Meet up with friends once in a while

I'm the world most laziness person to get out of the house because my house is too comfortable. :) That is why I'm always rejecting outings and meet-ups. (So if I ever agree to go out with you, you better appreciate it - especially when it's raining!) I'll try my best to arrange my time for my friends but no guarantees for now. :P

That's about it for now. Probably. I'm just going to end this here and now since my brain is a little distracted. ;/ I have a PBF test tomorrow and yet I'm not studying for it.*sigh* So much for cutting distractions huh. (I actually have similar goals for this month.) I'm out of here! Peace out!

Thoughts & feelings are hard to express in words

2011-11-24T09:28:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!

I'm feeling bored so I decided to pop over to LJ for a short post. (No, I'm not using using the computer so no worries.) Somehow, it doesn't seem right for me to post these meaningless (or meaningful - whichever you think it is) thoughts on Blog, 'cause my Blog is supposed to keep all the happy memories. :)

Thursday isn't the greatest day of the week. Why? That's because it's a day where you feel like you're hanging in the middle - where tomorrow is Friday and yet it's nowhere near. Get it? Never mind. But today is specially dreadful to me. :/ I don't think it's because of the lessons I have since I do enjoy Daniel Soh's classes. In fact, his class is one of my source of entertainment in school. (Though I do sincerely hope that he'll increase his hand writing since the half-blinded me is always seated behind - so I can't make out half of what he is writing, which makes notes-copying very difficult and somewhat torturing for the eyes. :/) I'm digressing again.

Back to topic. Today is dreadful because...Well. I really don't know. Maybe it's because I'm feeling lonely. I don't know why sometimes I can still feel so lonely even though I'm surrounded by a bunch of good friends. Hmmm. But despite feeling lonely, I really don't feel like interacting with anyone today. It's almost as if my brain and heart coincide and both of them 'wants' to be anti-social with the world for a while. Oh well.

Actually that is somehow untrue. I have tons of things I want to say, tons of stories to share, tons of jokes to entertain. But somehow my mouth just zips and refuse to say anything. :/ Its like my mouth has a mind of its own. "Never mind" & "Next time" are almost like my pet phrase. Perhaps I've lost the will to share because I know that it wouldn't make a difference whether it's told or kept - so I choose to 'take the easier way out' and keep quiet. And sometimes, people are not always willing to listen to your random stuffs, hence thinking twice on whether to tell or not to tell - though most of the time it'll be 'not to tell'. But is that really the easy way out? Somehow, it feels like I'm making this even complicated. I think the reason why I liked the song 'Fearless' by Taylor Swift is because I want to be fearless and step forward bravely instead of hesitating every single moves - and even regretting. *sigh* If only life has manual.

Whatever. I shall proclaim today to be 'Sarah's anti-social Thursday'. :) I can't wait for Christmas to come by. Hopefully I can enjoy the celebration though because so many things are happening at home that I doubt it'll be a good Christmas... *pray* I really wanna enjoy all the festive events happily. Please let December to be a better month! (Unlike this totally-screwed-up-month of November. *sigh*)

More maths! And sadly, I have a PBF test tomorrow. *sigh* Things just get 'better and better' huh.

You're the apple of my eyes

2011-11-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

You are the apple of my eyes. ;)

I'm just kidding. There isn't anyone whom I would like to say that to right now. Perhaps in the near future? Or even further. :) But for now, I'm just referring to a Taiwan film that is shown currently in cinema theatres right now. I just watched it yesterday with my friends. (I finally got to watch a movie! *happiness*) It's quite an awesome show though please note that you'll have to be above the age of 16 to watch the show due to some coarse language and sexual reference. The show is really NC16, in case you think that I'm just kidding with you. Overall, I think the show quite touching and funny though I wished it had a happier ending. Ops~ I shall not revel too much of the movie!

Anyway, Tuesday blues came as usual but since I changed my boring old routine, the blues sort of went away for once. (But sadly, my usual headaches still came to me.) I was supposed to study in school on Tuesdays after lectures but yesterday, I had a movie date with S. :) It was quite an impromptu date as she had no tuition that day and I wanted to catch a movie, so we just did. L came along too since she had something to do in town. (And it's a lucky thing too 'cause I'm a total loser for travelling on buses - especially buses which I'm not familiar with.) So it became a threesome date! Heehee~ I had great fun though. Talking, shopping and just being random. I haven't had such fun since...I don't know. When was the last time I've actually spent half my days having fun? (Mind you, my idea of fun isn't doing crazy things all the time. I love just lazying around with my friends and doing nothing. *sigh* All the good old days.)

Oh. Before you remember, I shall plead guilty first!
Yes. I know I'm not supposed to be here since I've promised. But as I've said, this month has been a total screwed up month that I don't really care any more. (Okay, okay. I do care but just...I wanna the remaining days of November to pass by quickly and without me breaking down again so I'm just gonna cut some slacks for myself first.) If you're still not satisfied with me surrendering myself, then let me tell you that I have a good excuse for being here - printing study notes. :P
Remember what I said about opening LJ? Well, it's officially opened (Some time ago actually.) and I'm inviting all the readers there. :) But, I'll be posting both sides - and be warned that LJ will usually consists of locked up posts so you wouldn't be able to see much there. I'll continue to update on this site about daily/weekly/monthly events and happening so just stay here if you're a lazy blog hopper. ;D I'll be back soon enough! Hint: littlemsangelz

Optimistic V.S Pessimistic

2011-11-21T11:20:00.002+08:00

Question of the day: Am I a optimistic person or a pessimistic person?
What do you think?

You don't have to answer because I'll answer that for you. I am an in between.
For those who have ever asked for my advices and consolations, you'll probably see me as an optimistic person. I'm always telling them to look at the bright side of life and just be happy. But sometimes, I just can't walk the talk. Good thing I'm blessed with a poker face and therefore people are always assuming that I'm happy all the time. Yes, they have seen me sad, angry and emotional before but somehow they have this perspective that I am happy 85% of the time. (The other 15% is probably when they make me angry or sad?) Truthfully, I can tell you that I'm actually more pessimistic that optimistic. But I'll still take the stand that I'm an in between since I haven't fallen into depression, yet. I wonder what is it like to fall into depression? Hmmm. Such curious thoughts.

I am trying to stay happy everyday though. Trying. Really. Hard. But things, situations, people are making it difficult for me to stay happy. My friends are always asking me to smile more, but what the hell do you want me to smile about? And it's even contradicting for them to ask me to cheer up when they are the ones bringing me down. Seriously. It's such a joke that I don't know whether to laugh or cry. Of course there are times when I'm truly happy - like when I managed to accomplish something, or when I get to spend time with my families & friends. Still, happiness don't last long. They're the most fragile 'things' that human possess and yet, I don't understand why they treat it so lightly. Sometimes, I wish I can't feel happiness, because too know happiness, it means that you've gone through great amount of sadness in your life. And because something bad always happens when you're happy.

"Happiness is like a thin glass. You can see it, hold it, but it's fragile and breaks easily if you're not careful with it. It's the most beautiful thing you can have but the most vulnerable when you don't cherish it."

Words can't describe how I'm truly feeling everyday. If I ever figure out my emotions someday, it would almost be like how monks are enlightened, I would have reached the highest inner peace. :P

I don't really wanna post this silly thoughts up but I thought "What the hell, just do it.". And I'm here.

Buffet-licious

2011-11-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

Buffet-licious is here in the month of November! :)

November must be the month of great food for me since I've been having a feast since my birthday period. Don't get me wrong 'cause I ain't complaining. In fact, it's really awesome to be eating such great food again. But I ought to be more careful 'cause I might just grow fatter over this month. :/ I've been meaning to exercise as promised but apparently the weather is out to get me since it's raining every single time I'm prepared to run. *sigh* Am I some sort of 'rain god' or something? *sarcastic*

Anyway, this buffet I just had is none other than the restaurant in the Marina Bay Sands called Todai. :) It's my second visit to MBS but I'm still loving every moment there because of the great city view. The only regret is that I don't have a better camera to capture the beautiful sights that is in my memory. *sigh* You guys are so missing out Singapore's night view if you haven't been in the city area at night - especially at MBS. Hmmm. I'm thinking that perhaps I'll book a hotel room at MBS or something for my next birthday and have a sleepover with my girlfriends - no guys allowed. :P It's just a thought. And this thought may succeed if I have enough cash and time. Okay, I'm digressing as usual. I'm sure you rather hear about the food than the sights. Obviously you're a fool though. xP

Well. Here is my review. Let me declare first that everything written here is just my opinion towards the buffet. :) If you think otherwise then that is your opinion.

Review

Restaurant: Todai

Type: Buffet

Firstly, Todai has quite unique variety of food. Yes, they do have the usual western, chinese and japanese aisle. But the one that caught my eyes was the korean display of food. It was really a surprise. :) The food looks really appetizing. (Probably because I was famished at that time too.) The service was quick too - for clearing of the plates. Ambiance wise...Well. Let's just say it was average? I think the desert table brings the most disappointment. I wished it had better variety and more mini cakes. The only thing that was kind of awesome was that they had ice-cream waffles. :9

Overall: A little about average?

Price: I didn't pay so I'm not so sure about it. But I think it was quite expensive for normal non-working teenagers like us. Probably more suitable to the families. :)

That's about it. Pardon my poor review. It's my first so it can't be the best.

Do take note that this buffet isn't for my birthday. Hahahaha~ It's for my grandfather's birthday. :)

That's about all. I can't think of anything else to type. I think it's getting harder and harder for me to phrase what I wanna say and how I feel on blogs any more. Whatever. This was supposed to be a happy post so...Have a great day! :)

An exhausted Friday

2011-11-19T11:12:00.004+08:00

Hey there! I'm pretty exhausted right now after a day-worth in school so I'll probably be rambling and just typing whatever that comes into my brain. But then again, it's kind of empty right now 'cause my thoughts are pretty much cleared, unlike the past few weeks where I was undergoing an emotion crisis. Yeah, you saw correctly - an emotion crisis.

You're probably scratching your head and wondering "What the hell is an emotion crisis?".

Well. It probably doesn't exist in the real world, but it does in mine. Have you been on a roller coaster? Yes? No? Well. If you have been on one, you'll know that the roller coaster would sometimes goes up and then come back down to the bottom. That is exactly how I'm feeling every single day. It's not difficult to make me happy and smile. But it's even easier to upset me. I know I'm sensitive to little details of people, but that is what makes them. Their little actions shows exactly what kind of person they are, what kind of friends they are. Sometimes I think to myself "Am I that invisible in my friends' eyes?". We all need a little confirmation and appreciation, especially from our love ones. Don't you think so? Which brings me to another question, "Why do people like to assume what I'm thinking and how I'm feeling?" Yes, I know I'm a hard book to read but if you cared, you'll try. And if you've tried, you'll know why.(Actually, no. I don't think I'm a hard book to read at all. Instead, it's the total opposite. I'm easily readable when I'm upset and angry. But the hardest to read when I'm happy.) I know the easiest thing to do is just to confront them and tell them how I feel. It's not difficult yes, but it almost sounds like you're bribing the friendship. For me, I believe that if they are your true friends, they would do it without anyone telling them what to do. Right? Right? Sometimes, I wonder why I let these little things bother me. Then I realised that it's not 'little' because these people are important to me one way or another. *sigh* I'm living in a world full of contradictions.

This is what exhaustion and too much brain activities brings you - a wordy essay which probably doesn't makes sense. This whole paragraph isn't even close to what I'm really feeling actually. I just barely scraped the skin of it. Not even close to the first layer. There is a lot of complication within and truthfully, all this complicated stuffs is really reducing my life span by years. *phew* Sometimes, I think my thoughts are a little too mature for my age. I know it sounds like I'm praising myself, but seriously, it's totally not a good sign. I rather be the immature kid and have a happier childhood than walking down this path of maturity. Usually though, I'll just keep my mouth shut and pretend that I don't know because sometimes, I feel that ignorance is really a blessing.
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Omg. Dear brain, you actually allowed my hands to type such a post?! Gosh. You must be really exhausted. Either that or you're about to walk into the path of insanity. (I wish.) This almost seem like a self-reflecting essay actually. :/ And I always self-reflect when I have the spare time - which is pretty often. Well. To conclude this post, I have only one thing to say: Life is such a contradiction!

All right-y~ I really admire you if you've read through the whole post till this tiny little part. Is it possible for me to say that you actually enjoyed reading my conflicting thoughts? Hahahahaha~ :D Actually, I've sort of planned my next post to be an appreciation post for my friends, though they wouldn't be able to read since this LJ is still a secret to everyone. (Except one.) Next round, next round. Time for a daily and brief update on my blog! :)

A little broken promised

2011-11-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hello there! :)

This could probably be my last post for this blog. (Key word: COULD. But the account is already in process. :D Heehee~)

Yeah. Sorry for the sad beginning but I'm considering of switching over to livejournal instead because it's more privatised as compared to blogger. (Unless you consider blocking out all readers that it - you'll know what I mean if you have a blog.) But I'll still post here and there, because it's hard for me to grasp the posting technique for livejournal in such a short time. Be warned that livejournal wouldn't be as un-privatised as this 'cause that's where I'll be using as a diary. Probably. I haven't really made up my mind yet and if you know me well, I'm pretty indecisive. ^^

Okay. Before you nag, I'll apologise because I've promised that I wouldn't be here on weekdays and yet, here I am, breaking my very own promise. *sigh* This month is quite happening. I'm feeling so emotional that it seems like I've just board onto a roller coaster ride. Sometimes it's up, and the other time it'll be down. Gosh. It's tiring, really tiring. Oh. And somehow, there are a few things that really gets me irritating. One example is today, from the expression of a friend of mine. Omg. I swear I'll dig your eyes out. (No. I'm not talking about any of my girls or the two guys who occasionally joins us. No. Definitely not them.) I didn't even offend him or anything. What the hell. I am so tempted to punch him but I politely smiled and greeted him still. *sigh* These people. ~~$%#^&*%&#$@%^&*()~~

Somehow I have this feeling that people think I'm this super unfriendly person because I don't smile often. It's not that I don't smile often guys, it just takes me a long time to be close to you because...well. You just have to know that it takes time for me to get close to you. These close friends of mine also took quite some time to know me. You know those little cousins who would take you a few hours just for them to tell you what they like? Well, I'm one of them. It was worse when I was younger 'cause I cannot even stand having to sit beside a stranger! I guess I just don't like people to invade my personal space. :/ At least it's better now. You know how people say "Hit is care, scolding is love"? (Pardon my poor English but for your information, this is a direct translation.) Well. If you want to know whether you're acceptable in my space: Skin-ship. Hahahaha~ Really! It really doesn't shows! Okay. Maybe not for everyone, but mine definitely does! If I'm close to a person, I can just hit the person without any care. Sounds insane huh? But it's the true. My favourite action is grabbing the neck from the back. HAHAHAHA! It's a violent back-hug! ;D Kekekekeke~ ^^

Oh. As I was typing all this, I've actually completed a livejournal account. :D Heehee~ It's called...Eh. I'll reveal it next time. (After I've learnt how to use it.) Anyway, I just came here to vent a little on how people perceive me, that's all. Of course I have some other stuffs that I'm dying to say out but I don't think now is the right time. For the millionth time, Christmas is coming! Isn't it exciting. I wish I could celebrate all this festive seasons with my best friends and families but Singapore doesn't have this custom. Well. I just hope I can spread my love & appreciations to my love ones who have somehow or rather touched my heart, help me, and have been there for me through the best and worse time. It's the season of giving. :D And all this thoughts really comes from the bottom of my heart - the deepest. You have no idea how some of the little things that you do means so much to me. :) I love giving but I don't mind receiving once in a while to know that I'm appreciated. Hey. Sometimes, all we need is a little confirmation for the little un-confident self. I love to surprise my love ones with little sweet notes & treats when I've got the time to spare. ;)

All right-y!~ Time to go off. I've been typing this for hours due to distractions. Which reminds me...I haven't done much work all day! :o This is bad. My goals for the month is crumbling again like a cookie. :/ Hmph. This will not do! Buck up Sarah! Persevere and motivate! Remember sacrifices? ~~Have little faith~~. Nope. Scratch that. Have MORE faith! Hwaiting!~

10th November 1992

2011-11-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

Do you know that 10th November is an extremely important day to me? ;)

Three years ago, on 10th of November, I was taking my O Levels Physics Paper 2. It was quite a breeze. At least I thought so at that time until I got back the results. :/ Two years ago on the same day, I was having my A Levels PW presentation. It was nerve-racking for my group and I as we tried to dazzle the judge with our presentation. The whole process was really unforgettable and I never want to do it again. :P Last (One) year, this day coincided with my A Levels GP paper 1 & paper 2. It was the start of my A Levels and naturally the whole school was nervous about it. I can't really remember the content of the paper, but I think it was quite a difficult paper. I'm sure those who were taking the exams would remember this.

But what you don't know is that 10th November was also the day that I was born. Nineteen years ago. On that very evening, a newborn child was brought into this world. And that child is no other then ME. :D

HAPPY SELF-BIRTHDAY TO ME!~ Kekekeke~ ^^

Anyway, I really wanna thank those who had set aside little of their time to send me well-wishes on the day itself. :) Be it on FaceBook, Twitter or SMS-es. It was greatly appreciated. :) And there I was, thinking that people who somehow or rather forget my birthday. *shrug* Hey. Too much expectation only bring disappointment. That's what I learnt during birthday dinners, which always turns out disastrous. (Don't ask, I wouldn't tell. *zip*) So I've decided not to expect anything from anyone. If they want to give, it should come from them and not some reminders or whatever nots, right?

The little small appreciations for my friends and the things they did:

1. Like I said, I'm really thankful with the small messages on the FaceBook walls, Twitters and SMS-es. (Truthfully, I prefer the SMS-es. Either that or personal wishes.) :D Oh! And did I tell you that some of my friends actually wished me exactly at midnight? *touched*

2. The second gift would be my dearest coming all the way to my school to wish me happy birthday! I swear I'm super touched with that! She even gave me a letter and a gift. *damn touched*

3. I got a surprise when the waitress brought a cake over with nineteen candles after we had our lunch. It's was my friends' doing. And that was totally unexpected because I thought we said to celebrate it some other day so I wasn't expecting anything from them! *touched*

4. The 'surprise' from my QB babes at the void deck yesterday. My friend is damn bad at lying somehow so I had good fun watching her as she tries to hide from me. Don't you know scorpios are easily suspicious and you can't lie to them? xD But I'm happy to see them both, especially my 'neighbour' in Paris. HAHAHAHA!~ *QB*

I wouldn't lie and say that I didn't enjoy my 19th birthday because I totally did! :D Thank you to everyone who've I've met and got to know over the nineteen years of my life!

Yesterday's celebration was really funny that we couldn't stop laughing about it somehow - especially when it comes to the 'got-caught-in-a-lie' part. HAHAHAHA! :D The one thing that I was totally in shocked was that even my mum knew about it! O.o Like what C always says (It's her trademark all right.) "Damn jian!" Hahahahaha~ ^^ I can even hear the way she says in my mind whenever some one 'steals' her line. xP

Can't wait to do something more when the holiday comes. I am already counting down to Christmas. :P Speaking of which, I better start doing my yearly Christmas cards for the special people in my life. There is gonna be an out flow movement in my bank account soon. *sigh* But it'll be worth if I can manage to give some warmth to my friends over this special holiday. :) Actually I wanna buy them cupcakes too. But that's just a thought in process. Probably not idealistic, right? *consider*

It took me quite long to finish this post as I was interrupted several times so I'm just gonna stop here. :D See you next week my blog. (I had actually wanted to type every single detail about my birthday but seriously, it's too much of a trouble. :/) Goodbyez~

My little tummy!

2011-11-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

Gosh. It's been a non-stop eating week this short holiday!

I've been such a glutton recently, eating all the delicious food this entire weekends - from the local 'zichar' to Pepper Lunch and Domino's Pizza. It's sounds so delicious, doesn't it? But all this just sounds like a guilty trip to me, since I am trying to loose weight and all. :/ Besides, I sort of broke my own promise for not exercising this weekend due to my laziness. I was going to run today but my my mind was kind of exhausted out from studying today that I fell asleep in the late afternoon. *sigh* There goes my chance of fixing my promise.

My determination sort of fell off track over the week. *sigh* Don't get me wrong. Monday started out great - with me doing my work diligently after school and all. But everything sort of went downhill as weekends approached. I'm diagnosing myself with the 'withdrawal effect'. What's the withdrawal effect? Well. It's the effect of sudden withdrawal from entertainments and enjoyment into studying mode. :D I know it sounds silly and insane, but somehow I think that is the best way to describe my attitude as weekends approaches, don't you think? Come on', have some humour in you. xP Anyway, no more procrastinating. At least not till the next holiday. (Somehow, I'm already counting down to the next holiday.)

All right-y. I shall get to the updates.
It's been a normal week in school, meeting up with friends and trying to survive the work load given by the lecturers. :) Somehow I had a great week though. Maybe it's 'cause I'm feeling so much better due to determination. Hmm. Or some other reasons? :P Anyway, I've been better for this weekend. I fell into disappointment somehow to something I was looking forward too. Every year at this timing, the same problems happen. I hope it wouldn't happen two years later because it's a big day for me. I've decided that there is nothing to look forward too so I'm not expecting anything but well wishes. I've always known of not to have high expectation for things as the higher you go the harder you fall, but some people just don't learn - and I'm included. I know how horoscopes are to be taken with a pinch of salt but somehow, what they say really hits the spot sometimes. Like those from 'scoropioseason', 'zodiacfact' and 'xstrology'. :)

Anyway I have school tomorrow. Gotta head to sleep soon! BYE!~

It's a new start

2011-10-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

Two more hours before my short break is up.

For me, there is nothing to be sad. It's not because I'm a studious girl who wants to go to school. But it's because I've set a goal and aim to start again from this week onwards. It's a new beginning for me and I'll do whatever it takes to set in my determination to finish what I've started. I'll not give up half-way now. *determined* Remember my promises from the previous post? Well, two more hours and it'll all begin.

Before the start, I think it's appropriate to be packing and clearing stuff away - stuffs that'll distract myself from my goals and dreams. Stuffs that will bring disappointment. It's time to grow up. Even if I can't bear to throw them away, I believe that as long as I take one step, even if it's just a baby step, I'll get there someday. :) Let's do this!

Well. The bad news is that I wouldn't be able to constantly update about my life - and somehow keep track of my memories - any more since I did promise not to use my laptop till the weekends. (And Sundays to add on to that!) No more RM. No more WGM. No more WFP. No more RH. *sigh* I'll miss the old days. But if I don't change, I'll never be able to catch up with the others. These are called sacrifices.

No pain, no gain!

That's pretty much all. :) Till we meet again.

Enough is never enough

2011-10-28T19:18:00.001+08:00

There is no such things as being satisfied isn't it? Enough is never enough. :/

That's what I've learnt over the holidays.

We always look forwards to breaks and make a good plan to rest for perhaps one day and study for the rest. But in my case, I totally cannot follow my own study plans. I did plan. But it was never done. Four days have passed for my break and I haven't touched much of my assignments. *stressed* Somehow, I just can't comply to my own plans and go along with it. Not even once. And it's not like I haven't had enough of break time. I'm pretty much resting and relaxing every single day and yet it's still not enough!? Seriously. I'm quite angry with myself. I know I wanted to do a lot of things but there is time for everything! (And what the heck. I'm actually scolding myself here! *sigh*)

Maybe sacrifices are necessary after all....I was wrong. I though we should always keep things in balance. But it doesn't seem to work for my case because I'm always wanting more and more. It's like I'm barely satisfied with things and that's why I'm getting worse. That's settled. Next month would be November already and I've broken so much self-promises. Once written consider it as a promised! This time I shall be determined. :/ No more slacking. No more hesitating. No more compromising for others. If all else fails then I'm good as dead.

iPromise
1. Exercise as planned. (Twice a week unless sick or weather vary.)
2. Cut down on chit-chats and motivate self to put heart to studies.
3. Only use the computers on Sundays. (Omg. I think this would be the hardest part for me 'cause that means I don't get to watch videos.)
4. TVs only on Wednesdays and Weekends. (There is this one show on Channel U on Wednesday that I just can't give up so I'll have to compromise to myself.)
5. Eat healthy. (I'm like slacking in the self-discipline department already so...yeah.)
6. Activities cut down to once every one months. (That sounds kind of harsh, but no pain no gain. Oh! Unless it's a study date or family event! Compromise compromise.What? Family is important to me okay!)
7. Plan the freaking timetable for self! (I've been constantly nagging myself for a timetable but apparently my self-discipline department is falling apart somehow. Gotta get it back on track!)
I can't think of anything else right now so that'll be about it. My 19th birthday is coming up. Hopefully I'll be more mature and less playful than the younger me right now. *pray*

On the bright side, I had a great day (or date) with S yesterday. It was pretty fun although we didn't catch the movie we had wanted to see due to the rain. (Errr. It's kind of hard to explain why. Hahahahaha~) The good thing is that we ended up shopping for clothes! :D I haven't shopped for a while so it was kind of tiring for me. But awesome in a way too. I'm sort of turning into some 'cheapo' girl 'cause it took me a long time to decide for the purchase of clothes due to the price. (I wasn't like that in the past. Maybe it's because I've worked before so I know how hard it is to earn money. :/) We had dinner at DTF 'cause S had a craving for 'Xiao Long Bao'. It'll be long before I have another shopping with my friends so I guess I'm enjoying every moment out of it. Gotta go. I still have stuff to do instead of complaining over here everyday. Goodbye~ (That's not an abrupt ending right?)

Question of the day

2011-10-27T12:38:00.000+08:00

Question of the day: What the heck am I supposed to blog about? :/

Yeah, that right. I'm running out of stuffs to blog about. I've actually drafted two posts previously, only to be deleted before editing because the post was mostly written half way, so by the time I got back with the post, my inspiration was out. :/

I'm currently having my one week worth of break right now, but somehow one week isn't enough for me to relax AND study at the same time. :/ It really isn't enough! Three days have gone by in a flash and yet I haven't gotten anything done. *sigh* I've probably said this about a million times but seriously, I wish I can be more self-disciplined like my sister. When it comes to studies, they'll put in all their heart and soul into it and avoid distractions. It must have been painful somehow. Maybe it's time for me to grow up and stop being so distracted with things around. I'll..I'll try my best. *determined* (Tomorrow.)

Well. I had a great chat with N yesterday on Skype about what we can do with our free-time. It's kind of awesome just thinking about the stuffs we're planning to do! Right? Hahaha~ There is ice-skating, megazip, USS and more! :D I can't wait for these activities to become in reality! But firstly, we need to get our hands on money. ;/ I'm still deciding on whether I should take up tuition for part time or not. I'm kind of afraid that I can't cope with my studies if I take up on tuition. We shall see.

Okay. Now I'm really stumped on what else to type. The chalet? Nah~ The steamboat dinner? Nah~ Typing events that have happened is like wanting to repeat the past. We should just move on. (Actually it's not true. I'm just lazy to re-call what has happened 'cause I'm getting tired and bored of blogging. I'll probably be back only when I have some inspiration on what else to blog. :D)

We look up for inspiration, down in desperation, but never left and right for information. (That's what my teacher in secondary school always says when we have our test in trying to persuade us from cheating. :D)

All right-y. It's another abrupt ending to goodbye! ;)

What to do?

2011-10-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

A warm welcome to the dear spectators of my boring life! :)

Life has been a bore recently but that doesn't mean that I don't enjoy parts of my life. I enjoy the random companies with my friends and families. I enjoy the time I have alone to myself, where I'll spend (Or waste depending on how you see it.) my time staring into blank space, just thinking about life - somehow, that makes me sound like some old woman. :/ But I my spare time, I love to daydream the most. :D I can just waste an hour sitting down on my bed and just dream of things that probably will never happen in my current life. In daydreams, you and only you get to write the beginning, middle, and ending of the story with no one to stop you. You're the one with the power and you get to write, erase, and re-write all the parts when there is a mistake - unlike reality. And that it why I love to write stories when I'm feeling bored too. But my language have sort of drifted away from me, so I ain't that confident of story writing as before. Still, I'm quite happy that my friends had enjoyed my stories previously. :) That is pretty heart-warming somehow. Hahahaha~

I must be feeling pretty random today to be typing those stuffs above. Oh well. I ain't gonna edit or delete it this time. *shrug* Oh. I'm feeling quite accomplished right now for finishing a book today! :D I know that's like hardly something worthy to be proud of but, hey, for someone who hasn't been reading a lot this year, I think it's a great accomplishment. In the past, I could easily finish reading all my books within hours. But somehow, I can't bring myself to read these few months. And I'm not even talking about storybooks. Reading stuffs like a long question is like asking me to read a entire storybook in 5 minutes - my brain just can't absorb whatever I'm reading. I'm trying to improve myself for studies - customizing my brain to study-mode. :/ I really don't wanna disappoint my parents again okay. Although they have never said any of their expectation, I could tell that they do have quite high expectation of me. And that doesn't only applies to studies but to my character as well. All right, I know I shouldn't do things just for others, but rather for myself. However, I don't have any expectations for myself! Or perhaps I just didn't know I have. Omg. There goes the complex thinking of my brain again. Phew~

The other half of me is scolding myself though for spending today and yesterday on entertainment instead of studies like I promised. :/ I'm being scolded even now as I type. I guess I need to be more responsible and self-disciplined in my studies and less distracted. I realize I'm extremely easily distracted. I guess the studies about teenagers are true huh? What studies? Oh. In GP, I've read this report that says that children who watches more than 10 hours of TV per week has lower concentration span than those who watches less than 10 hours of TV. Hmmm. I think I watch more than 10 hours - and that doesn't even includes the online videos. :/ Bad habits are hard to kill as usual. I'm trying to reduce my TV time already but somehow I always end up being distracted. Come on. I can even wake up at 9am in the morning just to catch my favourite cartoon - and I'm not even a kid any more! So how do you expect me to give up on TVs? Besides, TV programmes are somehow useful in learning new knowledge! Especially with general knowledge. (Which I really lack of seeing how I don't read the newspaper everyday.) Ops~

Well, since I am able to identify my problems, it's considered a good start don't you think? (Excuses, excuses.) I have been trying to read more of the news though. However, I am still unwilling to pick up the newspapers because it's kind of dirty to me. :/ What? Your hand does become black after holding to the newspaper if you haven't noticed. Besides, I would always end up making a mess out of the pages of the newspapers because it isn't stapled together. The only reason I am reading more is because I downloaded the application of ST and Today on my phone. And the only time I do read it is when I'm travelling to school or back home 'cause it's frigging boring. Hmmm.

Anyway, latest updates on school:

It's damn boring! :( All my lectures are getting boring. I think it's mostly due to the heavy information given and not the fault of the lecturers. I have great lecturers who are really inspiring and entertaining. I think the best would be my economics tutor! :D That's pretty much all. Catch me on twitter. I'm 'dying' on FB and MSN. The only place where I'm still 'alive' is twitter. Bye~ (Omg. This is such an abrupt ending as usual.)

Forget-ful

2011-10-17T22:24:00.001+08:00

I'm little miss forgetful. :/

I've this feeling that my mind ain't concentration out here in the real world. I guess that's what too much daydreaming does to you. :/ Seriously! I've never been so forgetful in my life! Or perhaps it's my concentration span that's causing be to act this way. *sigh* I wish I can get back and be motivated in life again like before but seven months of rest must have been too long for this 'old' engine to start up again. Vroom~

It's Monday and I know I'm not supposed to be here but I'm downloading new OS for my iPhone, so that's a good enough excuse right? Maybe not. Okay okay. I know I'm not self-discipline enough and I ought to put in more effort. :( But sometimes, I really can't help but slack all right? I've tried sitting down diligently to do my work but it all ends the same - no work done. Come one Sarah! You gotta push yourself more!

Why isn't there more exciting people in my life? Maybe I should make more friends...That doesn't mean that I don't love my current friends of course! They're the best things that happen to me. It's just that I'm bored of the same routine and need some excitement in my life. Hahahaha~ It'll probably frighten my friends to know that there is actually such a daring spirit inside of me. But why not? We only live our lives once right? So make the best out of it. Try things you'll never imagine and enjoy each and every moments - be it the happiest days or the saddest days. :)

We only live once, so make the best out of it and live a life you'll never regret.

Anyway, here are some things that I would like to do probably before the year ends - hopefully. :) And that is why I want a T&C boyfriend. Hahahahaha. It's 'terms and conditions' and not 'tender and care'. :P

Activities which I wish to try out:

1. Ice skating

2. Flying Fox

3. Going overseas with my friends (Right N? ;D)

4. Having a birthday party (I doubt I can do it this year because... Well. Let's just say I can't have a party this year for several reasons.)

5. Have a Christmas Party with friends

6. Countdown for 2012

I can't think of anything else that has the possibility of finishing by the end of this year. :) Let's just hope I can do some of these at least. :/ Oh well. That's pretty much all? Goodnightz~

Shopping Therapy

2011-10-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

Lalalalala~

I was feeling a little stressed out this week because of Friday's PBF test. But I can relax now - at least for now because there are still other on-coming tests to worry about. :) Anyway, thank you to those who helped to comfort me for the test. It probably didn't reduce my stress but I really appreciate you guys. Spreading the love wave to you~ xD

Anyway, nothing can't be solve with a little jogging and shopping. :D
I was feeling down on Thursday so I decided to take a random detour into White Sands. Who knew my mum had the same intuition as me - she called me just at the moment when I was about to call her to join me! :) Great mother-daughter bond don't you think? ;) Actually, I just wanted to take a short walk around Popular and White Sands but we ended up spending quite some time inside because I suddenly decided to go into NTUC. Some times, I think I'm pretty weird because I like shopping in places like book-stores, VCD shops and places like NTUC etc instead of the usual clothes, shoes and jewellery shops. Hahahaha~ That's just me.

Friday was even better than Thursday! Why? Well, firstly, my PBF test was over - though I think I pretty much flunk the test. Kind of expected considering how much I knew before I got in the lecture - which isn't much 'cause I was too stressed out the night before to study the whole chapter. :/ Secondly, I got to eat Sushi Tei! :D Hahahaha~ I realized I'm always eating Suhi Tei whenever we meet at Tampines for dinner. Hmmm. I think I'll make some changes next time - perhaps going to Thai Express instead; or maybe even going to Soup Restaurant? Thirdly, I got my second shopping therapy! Heehee~ And I'm not even shopping for clothes! I was easily satisfied just by buying breads! We bought $8-worth of bread at the bakery! LOL! Talk about spoilt for choices. There was so many delicious looking bread that I just couldn't resist so I bought a lot for today's breakfast. (Or is it BREAD-fast? Teehee~) Ohoh! I managed to find the drama which I've been eyeing for some time too! :D The only thing that was keeping me from being entirely happy was my aching back, which was about to collapse into a pile of bones from carrying that heavy bag all day long. :( I'm getting old! *sad*

Today was a boring but relaxing Saturday. I was supposed to finish some work but I realized I've been relying too long on the answer key that I'm stumped with the assignment without an answer key. :/ What should I do? I'm really stuck! Maybe I should ask my friends in school? Hmm. All right-y~ I shall get cracking with the other exercises. (Exercises as in assignments and not work outs!) It's late. I'll probably procrastinate and finish it all tomorrow. (But I really hate doing work on Sundays. T.T)

*Hugs* Goodnightz~
(Every morning, when I wake up, there is this song that keeps playing in my head - it's 'What are words' by Chris Medina. Hmmm. I wonder...)

Stress-ss~

2011-10-12T18:05:00.000+08:00

Stress-ss~
That's what Gary-Oppa from RM would have said when he is being pressurized. :D

It my favourite day of the week: Wednesday! :)
Why is it my favourite day? Well. For one, I don't have school. Hahahaha. It's like a break in the middle of the stressed week, a time for me to get back all my sleep and catch up with my work - which I kind of need it. :P But sadly, today isn't really a productive day for me 'cause I haven't accomplished much. Hopefully things will turn around tonight, yeah?

Anyway, I'm just gonna cut things short for now. Nothing much to comment on anyway. See you next time~ ;D

Catch up

2011-10-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

Will there be a finish-line or is this a never ending race?

I often hear people saying this old phrase: 活到老,学到老 And I really hate it.
Why? That is because it means that there is never ending to studying. It's a continuous process and it doesn't stop until you die. :o That is almost equivalent to telling me that I'm running in a never ending marathon - you'll get tired and drained but there is no way out but moving on. I'm tired of studying. I'm tired of trying to catch up on everything. I'm tired of people telling me that I can do it when I know that I don't want to do it. :/ A part of me has already given up and I really don't know how to get my motivation back again. *Sigh* Sometimes I really wanna do my best and study hard. But distractions are always around. And there is this theory that yo accomplish something, you have to first give up something. But how can you give up this 'something' when it's things like family, friendship and life? If only I can be a little more detached. If only...

I know what you're thinking: Why am I back on a Monday night. Ops~
Well, that it because I just had to indulge in my favourite activity when I'm bored - surfing the net aimlessly. Hahahaha~ Really. Sometimes I don't get why I even bother coming online when there's nothing to do here. FB is getting boring for me since there is somehow lack of privacy for me, and I haven't have much photos to showcase on Tumblr either. Twitter can be easily access from my phone and so can Internet and YouTube. Gosh~ I guess the only reason I'm here is because of MSN and skype. That's the only thing that phones can't do -though they do have such an application called 'What's app' which is pretty useful if your friends have the same application too. :D However, the amount of people coming onto MSN is gradually getting smaller - almost none. Friends whom I've often talked too in the past are slowing disappearing 'cause they don't come online any more. I don't get the reason why though. Somehow, besides letters, I think MSN and skpye is one of the greatest invention too. But I guess people don't appreciate it any more with SMS and What's app.
Oh my gosh! What the heck am I doing here, arguing about MSN, skype, SMS and What's app? I should be getting ready for bed and preparing mentally for tomorrow's lessons! I guess I'm getting carried away because I really missed talking to a lot of my friends. We used to spam MSN when we're all together and now, everyone is drifting apart. Even friends who was once close to me are hardly catching up any more. *Sigh* I guess this is how life goes.

Why can't people who comes into our lives stay permanently in our lives? The only thing we can do now is hope that our path will cross someday. :)

It's really late and I'm getting tired - that's probably my bio-clock ringing and nagging for me to sleep. ;) Goodnightz~
Sometimes we wait for one another to make the first move. But no one wants to do it and so our relationship fades away and gradually, we become strangers again.

Memories

2011-10-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

What does it takes for you to tell your love ones that you love them?

I have so many things I wanted to type out, so many things I have to confess and yet it's so hard for me to say it out loud. I'm feeling pretty lousy right now because of many things in life that are happening. Don't get me wrong, 'cause I ain't complaining about my life right now - what do I have to complain when I have a loving family and awesome friends with me? Seriously. I'm actually referring to the things happening to others and yet you can't do anything but to watch helplessly on the side line, offering nothing but words of comfort. (That was what happened to me yesterday and I'm really sad over the fact that I can't do anything to help.)

This is probably not the first time I'm engaging with such thoughts but I think it's one of the most painful ones I have. There is this feeling inside you where you feel like crying but tears just can't flow. Maybe I should stop listening to sad songs...Right now, 'What are words' by Chris Medina is on constant replay on my playlist and it's really making me emotional. (Note to self: Never play this song when I'm down.) But seriously, this song is one of the most touching songs I've ever heard. It really tugs into the inner heart. Perhaps it's because of the story behind this song. In case you didn't know, this song was tribute to Chris Medina's finance, Juliana, who suffered a brain injury as a result of a car accident. :(

Enough about this. I'll just do a quick update and I'll go away.

Yesterday was an awkward day. Somehow, I don't think it's appropriate for me to be posting about it so I'll just leave it in my memory. I wished I could done more to help though. :/

After the event, we went to Harry's for chillax' session. That's my first ever time in C.H.I.J.M.E.S. Hahaha~ My 'first' self-ordered drink was Strawberry Margaritas. :) Anyway, I really had a good time chatting with my friends. It's really nice to catch up with one another once in a while - especially when we're all choir mates. :D Hoping to see them often!

My apologises for such abrupt ending but I'm really not in the greatest mood after missing today's Nike Run and all the sad stuffs that's happening in the world. (I really don't know why I'm getting so emotional today. :/) Goodbye and goodnight.

It's Sarah Weekends!

2011-10-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

It's the end of the week~ :D

Hello to people-who-are-actually-so-free-to-read-my-updates. :) I'm back again. I've been missing in action for this whole week till today that is. It's a good change isn't it? Not being so reliant on my blog. :) But then that wasn't the main reason. The main reason was that I fell sick over this week. *Cough*

I'm quite sad over the fact that I'm sick actually. That's because I might have to withdraw from this Sunday's Nike Run. :( I've been waiting for it for so long and now you're asking me to give up? *Sigh* I should haven't stayed over for the chalet when I knew that chalet could get me sick. :/ Someone, anyone, please pray for a miracle to happen and let me recover by tomorrow all right? (Not entirely impossible...right?) *Cough*

Oh gosh. I'm so sick that I've no idea what I'm supposed to type...Well, the night ain't young and I've to get up early tomorrow to finish off my assignments - partly because I've been neglecting them for quite some time. I didn't want to start and end with a short post but bare with this till I've officially recovered okay? I'll post when I've something more interesting to update about! :D *Promise* In the meantime, this will do, right?

Music is the beat of life

2011-10-02T21:49:00.001+08:00

Hey strangers.

I'm slowly trying to decrease my reliance on blogger and hence the decrease of updates. No worries. It doesn't mean that I'll stop blogging entirely someday. I'm just trying to reduce my computer time - and blogging usually takes up the most percentage of computer time. :) It really does takes a lot of effort and energy to maintain and update this site - and most of the time, there aren't anything interesting to post so it makes the whole post a little mundane. Anyway~

This is probably the fastest weekend I've ever had because tomorrow is Monday! :o
I haven't even had time to rest or do any assignment and it's school day again. I guess time does flies when you're having fun. :D This weekend was a fun-filled packed weekend - including an exercise training, a short shopping trip, a little meet-up lunch, and a crazy sleep-torturing but fun chalet. ;) I'll get to each one by one so no worries. (I might skim through some of the details though as it's too cumbersome to be filling each and every single piece of information. Besides, I'm suffering from post-chalet drowsiness. Zzzz~)

Saturday came and went as quickly as you can spell the word. :/ That's because my each and every single second was filled with something to do. Knowing that I couldn't jog on Sunday (And seeing how I didn't jog on Friday...) I decided to be a little hard-working than usual and wake up early for a morning jog. That was my first every morning jog I swear. And truthfully, morning jogs aren't the best for me 'cause my legs are asleep throughout the whole run. :o As usual, I made is through within twenty minutes - but it also means I fail to keep the promise of trying to run two rounds instead of one. This is so pathetic. I'm still wondering why the heck did I join the Nike Run when I couldn't even pass more that twenty minutes worth of run. *worried* Anyway, the exercise ended with a nice and funny cartoon - Doreamon. :D Lalalalala~
After the morning jogs (and cartoons), my friend called me with a bad news, and all of a sudden, I had to rushed my whole morning - she changed her tuition timing and thus we had to go down to Orchard a little earlier than planed. The problem was that it totally ruined my plans for that day, but ultimately, I had no choice but to comply since she was the only one who can accompany me down to collect my race pack. *sigh* Along the way we saw N and YS too. :D Omg. I'm so regretting for not changing the size of the shirt! I should have gotten a L instead of a M 'cause it's longer. :( I don't like short tees. Damn it. Argh~

Skip skip skip. (I'm skipping the shopping part 'cause I'm about to faint and fall down from my seat due to over-exhaustion already. :X)

After rushing down from Bugis, I headed straight to the chalet with my friends. We were like the first few to arrive. :o But then it was early so...Yeah. Lalalalala~ Having nothing much to do, we just cam-whored in the room till more people arrived. I think I pretty much had a good time there - we took over the kitchen for talking session at 4am in the morning. Hahahaha~ It was pretty interesting and I thought the OG got pretty much closer though there are still a few notch but it's not important. (At least for now?) To cut the long story short (Really as short as possible 'cause I'm about to K-O), we 'slept' over and had breakfast at old changi road etc. I really can't be bothered to type in any more. This is the most I can last until. :/ I shall head off to dreamland and meet N. ;P

Really sorry for the abrupt ending. Goodnightz~
Anyway, a little short message for the birthday girl of the chalet (Whose birthday is actually tomorrow, but somehow I doubt I'll be here tomorrow.):
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY VANA!~ :D

Things we can do!

2011-09-26T18:20:00.001+08:00

I'm losing touch on how to blog! :o

H-E-L-L-O! :D

I haven't blogged for a while - reasons being that I'm too lazy to type somehow after getting use to writing with pens and pencils. :D Nope. I'm not back to diaries - yet. I'll probably start when 2012 begins - starting it now seems so out of no where. Besides diary is time consuming. (So is blogging. :o)

Whatever~ Anyway.

I wasn't even coming to blog today but then I felt kind of bad for not doing any recording for the past events so here I am! :) Aren't you glad? (No. Don't answer. I know you're not. Updating means more rambles to read and analyse about right?! Hmph.) :P Just bear with me. I'm just gonna skim through all the events anyway - especially classes. Kekekekekeke~ ^^ HEY! I'm being considerate - unless you're really keen in knowing what's assets and liabilities; the method of differentiation and integration (Yeah. I'm learning that AGAIN. Pure maths! :D); PPF and price elasticity of demand (TTH would be so happy that we're learning more economics right now! Heehee~); and financial intermediaries. Which I would be happy to explain to you one by one, IF I had actually understand it. :/ Heehee~ So let's go!

The most recent event would be yesterday's OG dinner. It was an awkward dinner for me because I really don't know what to talk about. I feel kind of bad for 'ignoring' people but but but...I really don't know what to talk to them about! :( How do people even make friends?! :o Seriously! I realize I've been so lost that I don't know how to talk to people any more. That's kind of scary don't you think? So throughout the whole night, I was just what's app-ing MY. Maybe I should read more newspapers? Hahahaha~ That'll give me something to talk about! :P Nevertheless, the dinner was great - Eh. No offence, but I'm talking about the food! :X Ops~ Heehee~ Somehow, I wish can do other things instead of just eating dinners and playing games together. (Don't get me wrong, it's not that I didn't enjoy myself. But there are so many things we can do other then this right? No?)

Things like:

1. Watching movie (OMG. I'm dying to hit the cinemas and catch some random movies - it's long since I've been there with my friends!)

2. Ice Skating (This is new! Hahahaha~ I'm not good in sports but I really wanna try ice skating someday! It's a new experience - and new experiences are always welcome, no matter good or bad! :D)

3. Cycling (Okay. I'm still not very confident of getting up on a bike again after the two falls but I'm willing to give it another try - as long as there are people to take care of me when I fall! Ops!~)

4. Kayaking (I'm not a water sports kind of person - frankly speaking, I'm kind of afraid of the waters... But I think I've enjoyed Kayaking during OBS to try it again!)

5. Rock Climbing (OMG! It reminds me so much of secondary two's 'torture' camp and OBS! What's there to hesitate! Let's go!)

6. USS (I'm a Singaporean and have never been before to our own theme parks so I really wanna head out to USS someday and play like a kid! :D)

7. Picnic-ing (I missed having picnic with the girls!)

8. Sports (I don't care what kind of sports it is as long as there is a good workout involved! :D)

9. Camps! (I think I really miss the good old days of having camps with OBS and my secondary school - JC camps doesn't initiate stay-overs much in schools due to time constraints.)

10. BBQ and Chalet! (Hahahaha. That's like the BEST things I love to do with a group of friends - provided that I don't get sick, 'cause I always get sick after chalets and BBQ. :X)

And those are the things to consider! Anyone up for any event can just call me along! I'll be happy to come and join the fun! ;D

All right. That's about it for today? I don't have much to say anyway. Let's just post up my little schedule before I sign off.

28th September - TeoHeng with QB-Babes

30th September - Collection of race pack

1st October - Chalet (Don't know whether to stay over or not though...)

2nd October - (Depends on the previous decision.)

8th October - Memorial Service

9th October - NIKE Race (I've actually sort of forgotten all about this. :X)

I can't be bothered to plan ahead. :) Goodbye~

No post today either

2011-09-25T14:23:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, but I'm finding it cumbersome to blog somehow. :/ Maybe some other time?

Boring

2011-09-24T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm to bored to blog. :D Have a happy day everyone!

Trust & Friendships

2011-09-22T00:21:00.001+08:00

It's fascinating how the brain of one works. :)

I just did a test yesterday it totally woke me up into reality.
Let me ask you a question: Will a true friend bash you on the Internet? Will they criticise you without any rational reasons and not spare a thought for your feelings? And I don't get how people can criticise so much on someone when they don't even know half they things happening in their lives. Really. I'm really curious how the brain works. Should have studied psychology instead of accounting and finance.
Friendship is tough. When you thought you're being considerate to your friend by giving them space, they think that you're avoiding them and leaving them out. But when you're too close to them, they think you're 'sticky' and reliant on them. -.- Talk about contradicting. For me, it's difficult for people to break through into my barrier to become my friends. Don't ask me why. We all experience different things on our growth and I've seen how people can 'kill' their friends, especially the closer you get. But once you're my friend, I'll do everything to protect you. Trust is important for me. Once broken consider it sold and gone - expect a long time before you'll gain them back. Perhaps you'll think I'm being to introvert etc. Different people have different opinions and personality. Just know yourself and not be judgemental on others. You have your own opinions but please know so does others. But that doesn't give you the right to bash them and insult them. Respect yourself by respecting them.

Friendship, like happiness, is like a glass. It's visible and there but it's very fragile.

Talking about friendship, there are a few people who I really appreciate and cherish. (And that is why I give them space although sometimes there are adverse effects on myself - like I said, I'll do my best for those who have done so much just to be inside my circle.) And there are many things that I appreciate too. Even the little things. :) Let's thank these people for coming into my life. As for the haters, you can bash whatever you want but I wouldn't be bothered any more because it's just a waste of my energy. If criticising me is the best thing you can do with your life than go ahead - at least you're being somehow useful in life. :) And with every comment you make me more certain of myself and become stronger - and through that, I've found real, true friends, which I bet you don't have since you just love bashing others. If you have, you would be busy, rather than commenting on my oh-so-boring life wouldn't you? Hahahaha. Anyway, here are my appreciations with no particular order:
1. Having dinner every night with my family (I really love having dinners with my family that I'll rather sacrifice my time having fun just to rush home for dinner - that's because during my JC year, due to studying, I've already missed out a lot of dinners. I like being at home. It's like my comfort zone.)
2. Being QB with maos~ (Like that night at the void deck)
3. Joking around with GFG.
4. Studying & Chatting with M and N. (Hahahaha! Sounds like M&Ms. Kekekekeke~ ^^)
5. Enjoying life :D
Well. I'm pretty tired right now to think of anything else. Might have missed out one or two but it's really late and I have school tomorrow. Goodnightz~

(H)AVING
(A)NGER
(T)OWARDS
(E)VERYONE
(R)EACHING
(S)UCCESS
This is so true.

Blogging Therapy

2011-09-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

I miss my blog! (Even though it's only been like one or two days?)

Blogging have become one of my healing therapy - just like how some people like to listen to music or ignore the world, and I choose to blog! :) But seriously, writing down my thoughts is much better than keeping everything inside - which would result in mental breakdown. *Phew*

Anyway.
I had an awesome Sunday with my GFG (Good Food Gang) at Pomo. Lunch was fantastic and delicious! :D I simply love the steak and the soup! I wouldn't say the same about the desert though - their tiramisu was overly sweet and creamy. (I prefer those with a layer of sponge cake.) Oh! And the ice teas! Omg. SL's ice tea was the most disgusting tea I've ever tasted - it was mint I think. (Not that I have anything against mint but I think I prefer it on chocolates. :D Like the one TTH gave me when I was studying in school - so sweet!~) This lunch out was made possible with the recommendation and planning of JZ! Yay!~ Apparently they're starting to think of what to eat next. (For the next outing. :o) See you guys soon!~
After lunch, we just wandered aimlessly around Plaza Singapura. We sort of went separate ways afterwards - 'cause the guys wanted to game and we girls wanted to shop around. I think that place is getting boring, even there is two of my favourite shops - Paper Market and Made with Love. Ever since I've entered JC, I've been going there non-stop. :o Isn't there other places in Singapore for us to go to any more? *Sigh* In the end, SL and I decided to head towards Pasir Ris to find our 'Master'. The whole decision was damn epic! If my memory severs me correctly, I think it was SL who wanted to visit C, so we decided to call her - but for some reasons, she didn't believe we were at town and kept thinking that we're outside her house or trying to trick her. LOL. It was such a joke! Especially when we reached Pasir Ris! Hahahaha. I didn't think C would be so gullible to believe us. We're like playing mind games with one another! LOL! Long story short, we chatted and cam-whore (Where did this word actually come from?) at the void deck till dinner time. :D Overall: Awesome Sunday!

Well. But there are bad points to it - I didn't get to study or do my assignments at all. (I was out all day on Saturday and Sunday.) And suddenly, for the first time after four weeks, I'm having Monday Blues - something that I confidently told my friends that I'll never have with my schedule. :X I don't know why, but I really couldn't believe how fast the weekend gone by! To make matter worse, I had to stay back till the late hours to do some presentation slides! Talk about adding salt to the wound...But I couldn't just leave my team there to do all the work. (Although I was feeling anything but helpful to them - I feel like a flower vase there, just watching them do the work silent and not able to aid them due to the lack of information in my brain. *Sigh*) ~~And there was one part which got me quite irritated that I felt so desperate to blog - to let my steam off.~~ Now thinking back about it kind of made me irritated actually. *Bang head on the wall* Gak~ Skip. Skip. Skip. Thanks people like V, LT, N, C and SL who kind of cheered me up with their messages and HTHT. (Some may have indirectly lifted my mood but I appreciate it nevertheless.)

Hmm. I realise I always post something different from what I had initially planned to type. LOL. I hope tomorrow would somehow be a great day - PLEASE! I don't wanna get irritated again. :/ Oh. And it's so sweet of mao mao to SMS me just now! Awww~ Lots of love to you babe! I think I should stop blogging and finish what I'm supposed to do. Goodnightz~

Nina&YongSiong's Couple Celebration

2011-09-18T10:34:00.000+08:00

Celebration success! :D

Yesterday, I had a celebration with my friends at Fish & Co.

This is my third time having dinner there - can we stop going there? Anyway, the celebration was just the five of us. (It was supposed to be six but Panda couldn't make it.) It was funny somehow, seeing the couple having to stand on the chair and being surrounded by the waiters and waitresses of Fish & Co. for their birthday song! Hahahaha~ That was embarrassing - I'm so glad it's not me! (And forewarning to all: If you birthday is near, and your friends request to have dinner and Fish & Co, do watch out, because you'll be next! Kekekeke~ ^^)

Oh! I just remembered that before the dinner, I had lunch at Ikea with my dearest Dreamz Kisetsu babes! :D We finally meet up again! Hahahaha~ And it's all because of Yuki that we decided to meet - good job! But sadly, not everyone is present. :( Aana, Xiori and Izumi didn't come. Nevertheless, lunch was great - though I wouldn't say the same about the time we spent waiting for the bus! :o

It's finally a happy post today! All the previous posts are either engulf with guilt, stress, or sadness. (I wonder why. :X) Anyway, I've decided that last week is a rest week from running. (My week starts on Sundays.) And this week is where the real training begins. I really can't stand it when I don't run. (Somehow, I seemed addicted to running this year.) Besides there is the Nike Race coming up so I should at least get my stamina back up!

I gave myself a limit timing to use the computer so I'm gonna go off now. Gotta finish some assignments because heading out to my GFG. (GFG = Good Food Gang. xD) Have a great day peeps!~

It's time to chiilax'

2011-09-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

Phew~ It's finally the weekends again!

This week has been one of the toughest week I've been through. It's already the fourth week through lectures and I'm still unable to get into my study-mode. :( And thus, I had a hard time yesterday, trying to study for my PBF test. It was really pathetic - getting so exhausted just by studying merely a few pages off the subject guide. It was extremely disappointing for myself. But I had a great headache at night just re-capping what I've studied in the day - and it wasn't even the whole chapter! *Sigh* And that was only a simple test - what'll happen if examination comes up?

But through this, I found great friends. I'm really grateful to my friends, for encouraging and helping me through. Thank you guys for cheering me up and trying to ask me to lighten up! I really appreciate friends like that. *Hugs* :D

Anyway, one hurdle over and there comes another - I'm talking about the economics test I have next Tuesday. I am so not prepared! :( Not to mention the PBF presentation I have next week! This is insane. I barely have enough time just by travelling to-and-forth from school to my house! How the heck am I supposed to do everything? Maybe I should just camp in school after all... Anyone interested to join in? Lol. :( I'm so glad I'm not in any CCAs right now, because it might just drive me crazy. I don't like to be too free but I don't want my schedules to be packed up either. Can't a girl just have a normal timetable? *Sigh* I shlal head off for now. I don't have the energy to fill up this post. Zzzz.

Just some to-do list for myself:

1. Plan a timetable (daily)

2. Do POA (Exercise 2 to 4)

3. Do Maths 1 (Discussion 2 & 3)

4. Do Economics Tutorial (Tutorial 1 & 2)

5. Do PBF presentation slides for question 4

I have just one question: Where the heck do I find time to do these? I'm gonna be busy on both Saturdays and Sundays! Omg. After this week, I'm so cutting down on the days I go out with my friends. (Then again, I really don't go out much, so why must my schedule be so packed on the busiest week! Talk about bad timing!)

Abrupt ending but BYE!~

Study Disaster!

2011-09-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesdays were supposed to be my study days! :(

Omg. My guilt level have just increased by a level today! I am totally stressed! *Panic* Gosh. This is harder than JC life. :( I've this feeling of breaking down every moment. I think I need to be harsher with myself - strict is the key! Self-motivation! Self-discipline! Pro-activeness! I hope all this values comes back to me soon! Gosh. And I haven't ran at all today! *Panic* Stress level is at the highest peak right now - I just hope no one else pressurize me because I'm on the edge of collapsing already. :X I shall take this week to be a break and start of strong next week. For now, let me be a little weaker. I'll be up on my feet next week, I promise.

Anyway, today was supposed to be my studying week, as said from above, but I ended up going shopping with my mum. LOL. Talk about bad discipline! :(
Actually, it started out with an innocent request for a hair cut - from me. So mummy accompanied me to the salon to get my hair cut. But the day got longer and longer as we walked around from shops to shops. And poof - it became Coco Crunch - my whole day just disappeared like that. Gak!~ The good part is that I got to buy lots of things. And the bad part? It comes plenty. 1. My homework time just disappeared like that, which means I have to sleep late tonight. (Thank god, I only have an hour of tutorial tomorrow!) 2. I spent quite a lot today on hair cuts, VCDs and whatever nots. :X (And I was supposed to be saving for dinner-outings with my friends. Not to mention that camera I've been eyeing on for some time. I guess it's back to the drawing board for that.) 3. I didn't run today - which means my stress level isn't reduced. (Not to mention my health level. :X) This is depressing. A good day just got ruined by the after-effects. T.T

That's pretty much for today. I'm a little busy to continue updating right now. Probably more news on Saturday! :D Goodnightz!~ If you see someone burning midnight oil, it'll be me!

Guilty to the Max!

2011-09-14T00:18:00.001+08:00

Oh gosh. I'm feeling so guilty today! :(

I hate the feeling of guilt! It's like some bad aura trapped within me, bringing my mood down - even though it was a happy day. :X Right now, my guilt is towards running - who used to me my mortal enemy. When I first got back to running, I was satisfied with just jogging twice a week. But now, I have the urge of running everyday. I'm like some idiot, trying to reason with myself on how I can't run everyday due to my school schedules! *Shudder* When have I become like that? :( This is saddening. Usually, the only time I have the urge to run is when I'm under tremendous amount of stress and pressure. Does that mean I'm stressed everyday, and even right now? *Sigh* Hopefully, I'll be able to run tomorrow evening. (And at least I have a good excuse today - it was raining; and I managed to persuade my friend to be my accomplice. Although I'm still having that guilt feeling in me right now!) I'm like some drug addicted who can't stay away from running because without it, I wouldn't feel good.

I'm having a sudden headache right now, so I ought to end this post fast and head to dream land as soon as possible!

Economics is the most boring subjects out of my five units! (I've probably said this many times - but it doesn't hurts to repeat. :X) Seriously. I'm counting down every minute inside to get out! :( I just can't concentrate even though I am trying my best to. Gotta' stay focus! I'll try harder next lecture. *Sigh*
Sorry for the abrupt ending. However, as much as I want to update about today's event, I am too exhausted to continue on. My eyes is half open and my head is spinning. It's a tell-sign that I should go to bed! Goodnightz!~ Have a sweet dream! (This post is so confusing - I don't even know what I've actually typed here. I shall make some edits or re-update some other time.)

The Z-monster finally caught up with me. ZZzzzz.

Mid-Autumn Festival

2011-09-12T23:11:00.001+08:00

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to all my families and friends!~

Yeah. It's that time of the year again! :D Hope everyone is able to be with their families and enjoy this day together, eating mooncakes and gazing at the beautiful moon. But if you really aren't able to be with your family at this time, just look up to the moon and think that somewhere across the world, your family is under the same moon too. :) (That totally reminds me of the America Tails - Somewhere out there.)
Somewhere out there, beneath the pale moonlight. Someone's thinking of me, and loving me tonight. Somewhere out there, someone's saying a pray. That we'll find one another, in that big somewhere out there. And even though I know how very far apart we are, it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star. And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky~
Hahaha. Isn't that just sweet? :D Enough of the lyrics, just go and listen to the song. I think that is one of the most romantic and sweetest songs I've ever heard, although it's sung by children - talented children. Anyway, I wish for a more special Mid-Autumn Festival next year - playing lanterns and sparklers with friends or families. :D Of course I'm not saying that this year isn't good enough!

This year, I had my first mooncake for a very long time - yeah, I don't like mooncakes 'cause it's either too sweet (The lotus paste.) or there is eggs inside (The yolk kind.). Hahaha. So I'm not the kind who enjoys mooncakes. But this year is different. Mummy bought this mooncake from Goodwood Park: Mango and pomelo with snow skin mooncake! :D Overall, I think it's quite nice but I wanted to try the other new flavour too: Lychee, lime and marshmallow with snow skin mooncake! Sounds delicious right? Sadly, the promotion ended yesterday so we didn't get to buy. That means we'll have to wait one year! O.o That's totally sad. (I really didn't know that they only produce mooncake until today - I kind of though it was for the whole year round. :X)

Like I said, even though I didn't get to play the lanterns and sparklers, I still had a good dinner with my family. :D It's all good. Besides, I had quite a funny day today! LOL. ;) Lots of entertainment and good fun! The only regret is that I didn't run any rounds today. Well. Tomorrow is a busy day for me! Buzz~ Gotta go. I have classes tomorrow and I don't wanna be tired for it! BYE~

P.S I have to end my post abruptly because my friend spread her inability to multi-task to me. So I can't concentrate right now as I talk to my friend. :X

Lazier and Lazier

2011-09-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Oh man. I'm to lazy to update right now. Maybe next time. Bye~

It's Friday! Everyone celebrate!

2011-09-09T19:14:00.117+08:00

It's Friday! Friday! :D
(Yeah. If you've noticed, I've change and deleted the previous post. That's because I don't like split postings - half before dinner, and the other one after.)

As you can tell from my headings: It's Friday! (Technically, it's Saturday right now - the time and date have being changed. It's just a difference by a few hours anyway. Besides, according to some of my friends, as long as you haven't slept, it's still the same day as it started out in the morning. LOL. What a theory. :P) Whatever~ Anyway, today has been an awfully tiring day for me - both physically and mentally. (Though I would think it's more of the mind than body since I didn't exercise today...) I don't know what made me so tired today but I could feel my body collapsing down from exhaustion after class today. But instead of listening to my body speak, I let my competitive mind ruled over and made myself to study for another 2-3 hours in the library with my friends. I think I was a little delirious by the time I reached home. :( It's not hard to see why though - after 3 hours of lectures; 2 hours of additional studying; plus 2 hours of travel time home. The travelling back was insane! I was about to fall over - partly because of the things I was carrying - and there wasn't a seat at all until Tanah Merah, which was onlt three stops away from Pasir Ris. Seriously? Hahaha. I spent all my travelling time complaining to my friend about it while she complains about her maths lecture. :D Thank god for entertainment of my friends.

On the bright side, I met a friend at the MRT station. :) It's always good to see familiar faces - and even better when they talk to you to catch up, even for the most random stuffs. This friend of mine is currently studying Banking and Finance. What's with my luck these days for Banking and Finance students? This is like the second guy out of three weeks - and apparently they have the same thinking because the first thing these guys did when I told them I was taking Accounting and Finance was to laugh at me. Seriously? 'Thanks guys' Well. At least they offered to teach and tutor me whenever I had any problems regarding the units. :D Thanks! It was sweet of you guys~ I really appreciate it. Oh! And I'm getting a free lunch/dinner because he owes me one! Yay!~ Catch up soon!

Speaking of studies, my friends are literally killing me here. I'm only in my third week in university and they're already talking about staying back in school to study and whatever not. O.o This is serious. I'm feeling so pressurized because of them. And I totally crumble like a cookie when I'm stressed! :( All my optimism are gone in a flash. I make the worse decisions when I panic! Argh~ *Bangs head on the wall* And this is when I can feel all the invisible strings fading away. It's back to how it is in the old JC days of hardcore studying. I really hate it. Besides, unlike JC days, I have no one to study with now. Maybe I shouldn't be so reliant on friends any more and start studying by myself... Or maybe not. I know I would totally hate that feeling of being surrounded by complete strangers in school - especially during lunches and dinners. Gak~ I'm such a contradiction! I don't like to be alone for studying but I don't like to study with people either. :X Perhaps it's only the dinners and lunches part which I can't stand being alone. *Sigh* Such a troublesome girl I am. Please let me find a good study buddy!~
People always have this typical mindset to study with my best/close friends. But they have their own lives and friends too - you can't always rely on them. And I have theory of my own that if they had wanted to study with you, they would have asked. (Or maybe I'm supposed to ask them. But I don't want them to feel obligated to study with me. They make their own choices - though not all the choices they make be the one you expect them to choose. And without expectations, there will be no disappointment. Thus, I always have this thinking that they don't want to study with me.) Whatever~ Anyone who wants to study, but you've missing a partner just text/call/what's app me/tweet! (And by that, I'm referring to my friends, not some random strangers - if there is actually any reading. :X)

It's getting late. As I said earlier, I'm exhausted from today's lessons and studying session. I shall get some rest and start studying tomorrow. Probably. Maybe. (I really don't like studying on the weekends. Totally ruins my weekends.) Check out my up-coming schedules:
September
12th - Mid-Autumn Festival (Mooncakes!)
16th - Principle of Banking and Finance Test (Chapter 2)
17th - Lunch-Out with Dreamz Kisetsu; Night-out to celebrate Mermaid's birthday
20th - Introductions to Economics Test (Chapter 1 - PPF)
24th - Val's homecoming!
28th - TeoHeng with the QB-Babes (Yet to confirm because we haven't book the place.)
October
1st to 2nd - Chalet (I've still yet to decided whether I should attend or not.)
8th - Memorial Service
9th - NIKE Race
This is my schedule so far. I'm hoping I have holidays on November at least but so far it's not possible. :( I even have make-up lessons on my birthday! And to add on to that, it's on nightfall from 7:00 to 10:00. Thanks POA...Thanks. *Sigh*)

Gak~ I shall wash up and sleep! Shall not dwell on it any more. I can always celebrate before or after. It's a good day, so I shall wish you a goodnight~ and say goodbye!~

Brain Exhausted

2011-09-08T17:18:00.001+08:00

My brain is exhausted from reading PBF right now - even though I've only read like 2 pages...

I am so tired right now that I wish I can jump right onto my bed and sleep. Zzzz. But I know I can't do that - 'cause if I did, I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight again. *Sigh*
I'm supposed to be studying my PBF subject guide right now, but as you can see from my title of the day, my brain is fried. :( I'm so stressed with everyone rushing to study every second. Is this how university life is supposed to be? Maybe I'm not used studying everyday. I'm such a slacker. I'm so gonna run later. Run away from my problems; tiredness; everything. Hopefully I'll be able to complete my assignments later tonight. *Pray* It's lucky Thursday is not like Wednesday - because Wednesday is the day where there are many nice television shows being broadcast. Oh. But Glee has ended. Good thing for season 3 - though I'll probably not be able to watch till next year.

Anyway, I've made up my mind regarding the night cycling - that I'm definitely not going. Perhaps other time, but right now, I'm still a little hesitant for cycling. I don't want to end up with another scar. Besides, the cycling event is about a week to Nike Race. I don't want anything to happen because I'm quite determined to run at the race. :D I'm all hyped up for Nike! Whee~ Omg...I did something stupid again. The last time, when I set my alarm, I set it at 8pm when I actually wanted to wake up at 8am in the morning. So this time, I was thinking about the previous mistake and so I happily set my time to 5.10am. Then I realised right now is the afternoon! Not morning! So it should be 5.10pm instead. No wonder my alarm didn't ring again. *Sigh* Blur~ Feel like punching myself. Hahaha~

Oh! Oh! And I bring along a good news! Dearest QB-Valerie is coming home!
She's coming home, coming home. Tell the world she's coming home~
I'm so excited about it! Hahahaha~ Our first meeting is already arranged! :D Definitely singing sessions. I can't wait! That's like something to look forward to this month! ;)

I have a question to ask the readers: Who the heck is reading?
'Cause the counter number keeps shooting up everyday but I didn't think that there was anyone else reading besides me. Hmmm. That's all for now. (I was so determined not to switch on my computer before I came home, but my tiredness totally killed my determination.) Goodbye~

P.S Should I run? It's late but I still feel like going for a round.

Dilemma once again

2011-09-06T15:41:00.001+08:00

Once again, I'm in dilemma over something. I really wish I can make up my mind fast some times! :O

According to my friend, the Odac is having an event - Night cycling - and she asked me to join them. Should I participate? I've wanted to join SRC and Odac from the start. But ever since I've withdraw from SRC, I've been thinking that perhaps I shouldn't join any CCAs this year. However, I realised that not joining CCAs is making me inactive for a lot of things. I've said before that I wanted to make more friends this year and be more out-going but cycling is not one of my best points. :( I think I've a fear in cycling right now because of the two accidents I got into.
The first accident was the more serious case - where I totally flipped the bike. I can't remember what happened exactly but I can recall what was the problem. It was because I suddenly pulled my bike to a complete stop - but at that time, my bike was going quite fast - so as you can imagine, inertia happens. I think that's why my spine hurts now and then. Haven't really went for any check up but I think I probably should, don't you think? :X I was quite afraid to cycle after the first incident but I got my courage back up for another time which was during the CIP at some water or recycling group. (I don't really know the specific name for it because that was my first and last time there.) We were supposed to cycle one round, all the way to Clarke Quay, and back again to pick up litters. I guess I got scared again when I cycled between some poles so I kind of lost my balance and fell. Although I didn't flip forward like the first time, I got three serious bruises on my arm and knee. (I still remember what my interviewee said to me! He asked if I got into a fight because my bruises was really big, black and blue! LOL.) And I also got a scar on my knees - and it's still there up till today.
And that is why I'm in a dilemma for whether I should go for the cycling event or not. :( Someone please enlighten me!~

Enough about my confused mind.
Today is a tired Tuesday 'cause I am so exhausted right now after the long journey home. This is the first time I needed more than 2 hours to reach home from school! Seriously!
Firstly, I was lost in Nee Ann Polytechnic 'cause I couldn't find my way to the bus stop. Oh man. I really though I remembered the path but it turns out, I'm extremely bad at directions. :( *Sigh* Luckily for me, my good friends are students of the poly so I called them I managed to find my way out. The journey out was quite long! I should have gone back to SIM(HQ) instead. I'm so stubborn~ Anyway, I waited quite long for the bus. But it wasn't as long as the time needed to go from school to the MRT station! It took 10 minutes for the bust to move from one bus stop to the next because of some traffic jam! Apparently some bus broke down in the middle of the road near the stop at the MRT station. -.- I am so 'lucky'. Gak!~ I'm too tired out to type one-for-one my journey home. Let's just sum up and say that it's been a really 'lucky' journey home. :( Wished I had at least some one to accompany me home... *Sigh*

I feel like I'm missing out on so many stuffs right now. I imagined university life a little different from now but I guess when cliques form there is nothing you can do. I'm like a frog in a well - not knowing what is going on. Somehow, I think it's my own fault because I don't try hard enough to make friends. But then there is really nothing much to talk about you know. Maybe I shouldn't try to maintain my image too much. Hahaha~ I'm not so serious as people know me. :) But since you don't try to know me, you wouldn't know it, wouldn't you? ;) Why in the world am I even typing this here... -.- Enough about me. Just know that I'll always be observing. Kekekeke~ ^^
I like to observe what people do to know them. Hahaha. Oh! Which reminds me! Just now on the bus, there was this two boys whom I assumed to be about the age of 14 to 18? Anyway, I just wanna say that it was very sweet of them to give up their seats for the two old couples. :) That totally brought a smile on my face. Aww~ I think there are many people, including me, who forgets our manners and courtesy for others in the public. Fess up and change people. I'm not saying you shouldn't sit down on public transport or anything just for the needy. Just be gracious. Know the good, Do the good, and Love the good~

I'm so sleepy right now I can just jump into bed and sleep till dinner time! But I wouldn't do it because I have homework to do - even though I can just do it tomorrow since there isn't class but I want to get it over and done with. :D

P.S I totally need a study buddy who is smart and helpful, if not I'm just gonna die for my exams!

Nike Human Race Registration

2011-09-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

Today marks the day of registration of the Nike Race. :D
Which means there is one month and three days to train myself. I hope I can do it.

I know I sort of promised myself that I wouldn't come back here so often but who am I kidding. I just can't help it! :D It's a habit of mine to come here and write about my days - but not because I want people to read about it but rather, I want to record down what have happened in my life. :) So if it's boring or anything feel free to exit from here. I'm totally fine with it since I don't know you anyway~

Today is a rather sleepy day for me. It's the first time ever that I fell asleep immediately after I got home. I should probably stop sleeping at 12am when I know I would only have 5 hours of sleep for that day. :X *Sigh*
Anyway, today's lecture was quite interested as usual. POA (Principle of Accountings) is super interesting I swear. :D I'm learning how to do trial balances, statement of financial statement and income statement. :D It's been have heavy load of new information. After POA, as usual, we rush to the food place to have lunch so as to make it to the next lecture at 12pm - Maths 1.
I think Maths 1 is the BEST class out of all! The lecture is super hilarious and entertaining. We kept laughing throughout the lecture. :) Although there are some parts which gets pretty boring - like when he teaches about quadratic equations and differentiation as we've learnt before in both secondary and JC - but I understand that he is required to teach the class because not everyone has pure maths background etc. (Actually I only realised that when my friend explained to me. :X) I had fun during break time talking and playing around with my friends - playing hangman and taking random shots. :D

After all have ended, I went to give my surprise gift to Sok. Aww~ She was so happy to receive the 'No gap please' picture. I hope you'll love and treasure it - and I'm so glad you liked it! ;)

Well. I have nothing much to type right now. I'll probably wash up (Meaning to brush my teeth - in case you don't know.) and sleep! Or maybe do some tutorials and sleep. But then again I'm not that hard working. I'll see how things go. Heehee~ That's pretty much for today. I'll run tomorrow or on Wednesday! See ya~

Oh yeah. I almost forgot something. This is damn joke. I was happily registering for the Nike Race when my mum came it. I was talking to her, being distracted when I saw the age on the confirmation slip - it wrote there 18 years old. I was super shock and immediately asked my mum: Eh! There is something wrong with the slip! I am 19 this year not 18! But she just said, you are. So I was confused. Then I realised it wrote that 18 BEFORE the race date. :X I'm such a blur sotong!~

Back again

2011-09-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

Hey all, I'm back again. :X

Yup! As you can see from my headlines - I'm back again for more typing and venting.

*Sigh* I don't know why I keep coming back here these few months. Maybe it's 'cause I have something to say but I'm not to sure who to tell, so this 'Angelztearz' is kind of like my imaginary friend whom I vent all my problems and frustrations to. It does seem that way doesn't it. Hahaha. Maybe I'm schizophrenic somehow. :X Nah~ Just kidding.

You know, I had actually planned what to type in way before doing so yesterday but I guess all is forgotten, because what I really wanted to type was my lessons! Hahahaha. No, I'm being serious. On Saturday, I had this PBF (For your information, PBF stands for Principles of Banking and Finance. Yeah~) make-up class. And through this class, I was kind of inspired and learnt some new stuffs which I never knew - please don't laugh when you realise how much common sense I lack there. :(

Anyway, it's actually about banks. I used to think banks are these cool places where you save your money and somehow, magically, they increase just because you keep them in there! LOL. Yeah. I am that naive. :X That was until yesterday that I realised banks are like companies, whose motive is to maximise their assets - in another word, to increase their wealth. The only reason why we get interest is because we're sort of lenders who lends the bank money to be loan out to finance companies or household who needs the cash flow. They're the financial intermediates. And through loans, they earn their assets, and thus they're able to offer interests to the savers, or rather the depositors, and therefore attracting these depositors. Or vice versa. I'm quite awed by how smart the owners of banks are because of this! I mean, usually in business, people would mostly think of opening from retails to services. Whoever came up with this banking system sure changed the world. Of course there are risk involved. Now, I think I can understand the financial world better. It's like I've up on a whole new level - it's totally cool! :D Now I know why people shouldn't withdraw their savings all at once, together, because it'll just 'cause the bank to crumble, since these pool of money deposited is used in long term investments - like loans.

Right now, I think banking and finance is quite a nice subject to study - though there is the doing part which I don't like. :X I think I'm sounding like some nerd here! Ops!~ Sorry! I was just fascinated with the stuffs I learnt so I though I could share it with everyone. And I think everyone reading this must be thinking that this girl here lacks of common sense in the past to find such thing interesting. Heehee~ I'm just not really into the financial world in the past. Never realising how important it is to us. Hopefully I'll manage to pick up all my 'missing' common sense and score for my studies. :)

This week is gonna be a heavy week, with tons of schedules to follow. I wonder if I can survive it. I'm pretty guilty for not accomplishing my goals for the months already - that is: not running twice a week and some other personal stuffs. *Sigh* Come on girl! You can do it! Or as NIKE says:

JUST DO IT! ;)

(No. No. The smiley sign at the back is not inclusive!)

Speaking of NIKE, I'm still considering about the race. I know I've agreed to join but there is still some hesitations within me - and as I always said, if I've any hesitations, it would only mean that my heart is not into it. There are just some things I'm worrying about. But if things turn out well, I'll definitely join the race. :D I think that is probably the one and only race I would join - besides SRJC's WILLRun of course! ;)

"You can go wherever you want, see whatever you want to. But a place is only as good as the people you know are in."

This line totally caught on me as I was watching 'I am Number Four' just now. This is so true. The best place you can go is a place where your love ones are at. Out of all my years of education, I think University now is the most distant and unfamiliar place for me. Maybe things will change but it's gives me the feeling of loneliness there. Perhaps that's because I'm hardly making any friends there. Everyone is like mingling around and I'm still at the starting line, so afraid to move and walk forward. I know that there are not such thing as an endless banquet. All good things come to an end right - even friendships. Or maybe it wouldn't come to an end, but it'll definitely fade out. It's a good thing I'm always so optimistic about things and that's why I don't usual dwell on things for a long time.

Well. It's time for dinner! And I think I'm done here anyway. I shall try my best to decrease my visit here to my 'friend' and make more real friends outside. :) Have a great dinner everyone!~

Second Week

2011-09-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

The second week of school have passed.

I wonder how I'm keeping this up. I've been in school for two weeks now and am trying to settle in the place - like remembering my lecture theatres and getting used to the schedule. But there is some instability in the first two week schedule - 'cause some lessons have yet to start, so it doesn't feel like I'm actually studying at all. Next week is where the real timetable begins. You can do it! ;)

Anyway, according to my JC friends, the NIKE Race is officially here - it's on the 9th of October - and I'm so excited about it! :D That said, I'm not even a hardcore runner like my friends! LOL. Perhaps the excitement will die down soon, but right now, I can't wait to register for it! Maybe we can get to see SRJC winning again! Awww~ That'll be so great! (But I'm not sure whether the school is gonna participate this year due to the change of principal.)
My first ever 10km run was the NIKE Human Race 2009! It was my first longest run - I know that most people would probably have WILLRun as their first longest run but I couldn't join WILLRun for the first year due to my old conditions, and so I didn't participate in the first year. Anyway, it was an interesting experience for me - having to wake up early in the morning to catch the first few trains to City Hall and gather at the starting point. :D The run was tough and enjoyable at the same time. I think I was constantly looking at the view most of the time, thus enabling me to keep going on. The back of my feet was bleeding by the end of the run - I can still remember 'cause my shoes and socks had blood stain from that. LOL. But it was a pretty interesting experience. I think everyone should join a marathon at least once in their life time. It's like a must have in a Diem Carpe list. Yes, 10km probably seem a lot, but it's manageable. Look at me for example! For 16 years of my life, I loath running the most. But when I first enter SRJC, it totally changed my life. It's tough for me to just pass my 2.4km and yet I managed to finish the whole 10km below 1hour and 45minutes! It goes to show, if you want to do it, and you put your heart and soul to it, you'll make it. :D Gosh~ I'm totally reminiscing the past. All those days in SRJC~ It's not all happy memories, but why bother remembering the sad ones? It's just a waste of your memory space. Just forgive and forget. ;)

My gosh. I just recalled how I said I would only be posting once a week and look at how many times I've posted for this one week! LOL. I'm such a failure. :( I guess I'm just not determined enough about this. But then without blog, where am I supposed to vent and record all my memories? I want to keep all the precious memories somewhere so I wouldn't forget and I have a place to look at when I'm older. Looking at all the crazy things I did; how immature I was before; and how much my thinking changed - how much I changed. All this talking about memories reminded me of WongFu Production's latest video - Shells. It's something about memory, asking yourself what memory would you keep if you were able to. And challenging about reality and dreams.
Actually memories are one of the...best & worse gift we're given. Why? We're given the ability to remember - remember the past. But do we want to remember them? Not all of them. I bet nine out of ten people would have a painful memory they'll like to forget but it's forever engrave in their mind. The working of the brain is a real mystery and wonders. The best and happiness memories are tend to be forgotten easily. But despite that, I still have to say this:
Memories may not be all beautiful, but it's what make us, us. Without it, we're nothing but an empty shell.
I realised I'm getting less attached to people lately that I don't know what to say to them any more. They tend to not listen, and so I'll not tell them. Because it just doesn't make much difference. And from there...everything just fades away. I'm not being emotional now I swear. Just probing my mind here and there. Sometimes I find myself asking: Is it less painful to have friends or be without friends? What is life without emotions? Maybe I should be studying psychology instead of business. Hahaha~ Wouldn't I love to find out the wonder works of the human brain and humans thinking! :D

Okay...I'm digressing much. I should buck up and start to be more hard working than usual instead of sitting in front of the laptop and typing away (Like what I'm doing now! :X). I'm going into my study mode - soon. :D Right now, it's just time to sleep. I just had a late afternoon class today so I'm pretty tired now. My Saturday is just gone like that. *Sigh* University life ain't easy - so much sacrifices to make. :( Hopefully these sacrifices are worth it. I'm going. Goodnightz~

Mizuki's Music Station: Introducing the current top hits in MY life. ;D
1. Need You Now by Lady Antebellum
2. Somewhere Only We Know by Keane
3. Rock Party Anthem by Lmfao
4. Dynamite by Taio Cuz
5. Back to December by Taylor Swift
Let's dance and party!~

Everybody Shuffling!~

2011-09-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

Everybody Shuffling!~

Yay!~ Thumbs up for the organisers of the FOB held at Zouk yesterday! :D And of course thumbs up to those who didn't mind dying the next day (especially those with early classes like mine - 8.30am in the morning mind you.) and came down to party with us!

I had a great time yesterday - although I think I had a way better time today with the old gang! :X
I learn my lessons for OG10, and that is if you're late don't worry, there'll always be someone later - unless you're coming directly to the restaurant then it's a different story! Hahaha!~ Seriously though! I thought I was already running late 'cause we were supposed to meet at 5pm at Douby Ghout, and I was still at Pasir Ris at 4.40pm. (It takes about 30 minutes or more to reach.) But when I reached there, there was only like three or four person? LOL. Damn joke. Anyway, we shall skip the waiting part and off to dinner. During dinner, the girls and guys were like secretly going off to the toilet - but in actual fact, we were going to prepare our friend's birthday present. Kekekeke~ To cut the story short, the whole celebration was funny and funnier. Check out the videos and photographs on FB! ;D
(I realised I always like to cut the story 'cause I'm too lazy to fill in every single details - besides it's quite late and I only had 3 hours of sleep...Not to mention that homework I have to do for tomorrow's lecture. *Sigh*)

It was off to Zouk after dinner.
If you were to ask me the directions to Zouk, I'll have to say...I have no clue! Hahaha. Why is that so? It's because we got a free ride to Zouk from one of our OF mate! :D (I'm not sure I should name the names 'cause...Well. I'm not sure. Didn't you realise I didn't say who's birthday it was or anything else for that matter? :X) Whatever~ The car ride to Zouk was a little dangerous! (Nah. No harm done. It's just that my friend was playing with the wheels. LOL.) We sat outside and drank first before going in to party. I have to say it wasn't much of my place 'cause I think I'm half deafen inside. And not to mentioned I was half blinded by the lightings? :X Love my Daddy and Mummy so much for fetching me even though it was so late 'cause they know that I hate taking taxis alone, especially at night time. (Past midnight to add on to that!) *Hugs & Kisses*
Gak~ I really wanna blog about everything that happened that day but I'm seriously tired to the core!
1. I drank - Not much but my liquor strength wasn't good to began with.
2. I only have 3 hours of sleep!
3. I just had a 5 hours of karaoke session with my secondary school mates who got me high without any alcohol involved, despite having lack of sleep.
4. My left ankle is freaking sore!
5. I have PBF to finish for tomorrow's afternoon lecture.
6. I'm dying to sleep right now!
That said means I wouldn't be posting much about Zouk. Just know that we drank, dance, and I fell - due to lack of balance. (I am so NOT drunk okay.) Anyway, seriously speaking, I think alcohol makes me emo. :(

For today's K session, I'll just sum up with one word - AWESOME!
That's craziness in us is still there even though we haven't met for some time. As I said, we were high without alcohol! Hahaha!~ No dancing though. But it was almost as if we were at a club with the disco ball. (Which totally reminds me of my old secondary school classroom!) I just wished I didn't have to go back for dinner so I could join them for dinner and maybe some drinking and chit-chat sessions 'cause I wanna catch up with them. Hopefully we'll have another meet up like this! Miss you guys!
The guys are damn joke I swear: Saying that they'll tremble when using the Instax camera 'cause one shot is like one dollar! HAHA! Epic~

My head is spinning now. That's all folks! I'm out of here!~
P.S Oh yeah. Didn't have time to type so I'll just type a fine print here:
Happy Birthday to the Emo-Kid. (I think you'll know who you are. :D)

Homework Day

2011-08-31T15:48:00.000+08:00

Today's schedule: ~~Homework~~, Exercise & Rest. :D

Yeah. I'm supposed to be at the homework part right now before I head down for a jog at 5.30pm later but I can't seem to do it. Don't get me wrong. I am doing my homework now, it's just that it's kind of difficult for me to do 'cause I haven't touched assignments for quite some time. All my mathematics have been returned to my teachers - sadly. *Sigh* I really hope I get it back soon. I used to love maths so much that it's the only subject I could afford not to study. But ever since JC, my maths have been falling straight to the ground. It's tough to get back up but I know I just have to do it - give in my best and love my maths. *Determined* But for now, I think I'll have to struggle with curves for a while - I really hate drawing curves and graphs. *Sad*

Anyway, I'm just here to stop my itch fingers from spamming my twitter - 'cause it seems I love to type as compared to writing. :) Actually, I think I'm beginning to love writing again. :D I'm so glad that a part of me - the studying part - has returned. *Phew* That is one less thing to worry about.

Yesterday I had a great talk with Sok on Skype. Pretty fun to be reading horoscopes together. Hahaha. Some times, those horoscope lines seem so true. :X I'm a Scorpio by the way. And if you know about Scorpio, you'll know that they're not someone you should mess with. Kekekeke~ ^^ Whatever~ I'm not sure what more to add on. My elder sister is being so nice - helping me to prepare what to wear for tomorrow and preparing my brother's birthday party together. It's been long since we did things together. Not bad. :)

You know, I was just self-celebrating the fact that I only have two weeks of school-day this week when I realised I have to go to school on Saturday too for some make-up classes... I guess that's life. *Sigh*
I'm so not looking forward to Thursday, unlike everyone else, 'cause I'm still wondering how the heck I'm supposed to go home from there. Any ideas? Cab? But I don't have much budget. I think I can't head out much this month 'cause I still owe lots of people money from last month since I over-spent. Besides, I'm still saving for a instant camera! When can I buy my polariod! Hopefully I can afford more clothes and my camera next month. *Pray*

All right. That's about it. I gotta finish up my Maths 1 homework 'cause there is still POA. Bye~

Happy 21st Birthday to Nigel

2011-08-30T18:39:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to dearest Nigel! ;D
I wish you the best of health and hope you'll have a great life ahead in your adulthood. Love~

I'm back as promised for details about his party which happened yesterday. :D
Well. I had classes in the morning till the afternoon so I couldn't help out much with the decoration but my sister did a great job anyway so it was fine. :) We blew balloons and prepared his present. Anyway, to cut the story short, there were a lots of people who came! LOL. Especially his friends! It's almost as if his whole company cames - and mind you, all of them were guys... My home doesn't feel like my own any more with them crowding around everywhere. :X But it was good fun. The only sad thing is that I didn't get to take much photographs for him since he is always surrounded by his friends and his friends brought a camera too - which was way better than mine. I'm so jealous! Hahahaha. The birthday song was classic 'cause his friend played the guitar as we sang for him. So cool! *Envy* It was a good party with tired ending as I helped to clean the house afterwards. *Phew* Talk about hard work! That's pretty much it. I'm too lazy to add in the minor details.

Anyway, today is not only his important 21st, but it's also Hari Raya! :) Selamat Hari Raya! (I hope I said that right.) ;)
It's a good thing 'cause if not I wouldn't be able to rest today. And after sleeping at 3am yesterday - again - I think I would need that rest. :) But because of that I'm having THREE days off from school instead of just one! ;D Why? Today, being a public holiday gives me the excuse of not having to attend school. Wednesday is always my off day from classes and Thursday classes have yet to start! If only Friday was a school holiday too... :( Oh. I'm thinking about going back to school on Thursday for Teachers' Day celebration. Any SRJC souls wanna join? Especially 2S17 peeps. I haven't seen a lot of people nowadays. (Or should I head back to the primary school or secondary? Hmmm...) I'll have to think about it. Decisions later.

This brings me to another point - friends. *Sigh* But then I don't wish to offend anyone here so I think I'll skip this topic for now. Whatever~ Sometimes I wish people don't need friends in live. But that kind of wish don't come true any more 'cause it is a fact that everyone needs friends. Just sometimes, it's just to troublesome. Oh well.

Mummy is nagging at me to bathe so I shall log off now! Peace out!~

Boring Sunday

2011-08-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

Sunday aren't the best time of the week - it flies pass in a flash and ~~tomorrow is Monday~~! :(

It's a boring Sunday as usual. I really don't get how I spend my weekends. Time always flies pass fast - and I never know where did the time goes. It's like a flash. :( And I was supposed to get things done today and yet, I'm not anywhere closer to being done with my stuffs - binding of the notes; the decorations etc. I am such a procrastinator. Where did my motivation gone to?

Whatever. Anyway, today marks the end of the first week of my school. (Or rather yesterday, since I prefer to count Sundays as the first day of the week instead of Mondays - and that is why I don't have Monday Blues. :D) This week was fine I guess - passable. I had a lot of things points about many stuffs - but I wouldn't post here since most of it are kind of private I guess. But I decided not to dwell about it 'cause it's wasting my energy and time to do so. I'll just let nature take it's course and flow along with it. :)

Oh. Tomorrow is the party! :D But it'll be a busy day for me. :( Fortunately, Tuesday is a public holiday - Hari Raya as I was told by my friends. *Phew* I'm gonna have to rush home tomorrow to decorate the house. Not to mention I'm not exactly done with the decoration. Better get the captions done later - along with packing my bags and choosing my outfit. Which brings me to another point... I wish we had uniforms instead of being able to wear home clothes! :( Choosing clothes to wear is such a chore! I rather just have uniforms. Then you don't have to think about what to wear all the time. Heeehee~ I'm just lazy.

As for school, I think I'll start my studying sessions after this week - after buying the textbooks required and binding all the notes. :) I'm pretty motivated for school - such a nerd. LOL. I'm considering of returning to SRJC on Wednesday 'cause it's teachers' day. I wonder is anyone interested to go back. Hmmm. Any 2S17 up for it? All right. I don't wanna end up sleeping at 12am when I'm supposed to wake up at 6am tomorrow! I shall diligently head to pack my things and finish of the captions while he's not around. :D

Oh man. I totally forgotten about the bash on Thursday. Crap... *Sigh* I'll just cross the bridge when I get there. I can't be bothered to think right now - besides it's not so important to me 'cause I don't really like those kind of places. I'll trade it with the library any time! ;) That's about it! Goodnightz~
Tomorrow's post would probably be about the party! Updates! *Wink*

Realization

2011-08-26T21:13:00.003+08:00

Rain, rain go away, you're just gonna get me ~~sick~~! :(

There was heavy rain this morning. :(

Not a very good weather to start school. Why? Firstly, raining days are one of the best days to sleep! Though it doesn't makes much of a difference to me 'cause my air-condition was switched on but still... Secondly, it's not nice to go out on raining days! You'll get wet even if you're under the shelter or just trying to get on the bus. And to add on to that, you'll feel extremely cold on the bus after being drenched! I was trembling! :( Not a good start. It's lucky that I chose to wear my jeans today. At least it wouldn't be so cold during lectures. But then again, it wasn't even cold during lecture. Hmm. Must be the difference of air-condition temperature in the different lecture theatres. Anyway, thirdly is that you'll probably get sick after being under the rain - which is probably why I'm having this 'light-headed' feeling right now. Or is that because I only had 5 hours of sleep...? *Sigh* And this is only the first week of school.... Oh! Lastly! The chances of you being late for school is high! Good thing that the lecturers are understanding - not that I was late or anything. :D

Anyway, I swear I'm such a scatterbrain as my mum said! LOL. Today I carried two bags instead of one. And so she said I'll definitely forget to bring back one of the bags - and I did exactly what she said even though I promised her I wouldn't! :X I just happily left the lecture theatre with my bag pack and head for lunch. It's a good thing we had lunch in school! If not I'll probably not realize it till it's too late! *Phew* It's a good/bad thing that my wallet is inside - the good part: I realized the bag wasn't with me because I couldn't pay for lunch; the bad part: The is my whole month worth of allowance inside... If I lose it I'm gonna bang my head on the wall and die. :( Well. It isn't so there's nothing to worry. But if you know me, you'll know that I really hate misplacing or losing my stuffs. It's all sentimental and precious to me! ;)

I can't stand watching people study in front of me - especially my friends. :X Sorry. Hope no one would be offended. I just don't like them giving me pressure and stressing me to start studying - when it's like the first week or school! I barely have enough things to read through. What the heck do you want me to study?! Maybe there are all the study guides and textbooks but...it's only the first week. I'll study myself thank you very much. I prefer self-motivations.

That brings me to another topic. Although I can motivate myself and my friends to study, I can't motivate myself not to switch off this laptop I'm currently using now and discipline myself not to use it on weekdays - I just realized it minutes before I start to blog. (Actually, that is the very reason why I wanna blog about. LOL.) Seriously, I should stop. But I just can't help. Well. At least I'm using it less as compared to before. Maybe it takes time. :D I shall believe in that for now. But if I can't use the computer on weekdays, where the heck am I gonna vent my troubles, problems and lock my memories? :( I'm considering on going back to diaries but it is so troublesome sometimes. *Sigh* What should I do? Sometimes I wish we can live like Harry Potter - just taking out parts of our memories to keep. LOL. That would have been ten times easier than keeping a blog or a diary. xD Just kidding. I'll think about it. In the meantime, I'll probably be back after Monday's party. Ohh. Speaking of Harry Potter reminds me of a private joke between Mermaid and I! Hahaha. We were talking about the muggers in front of us (It's actually Ly and Mango.) Anyway, we were saying how we aren't muggers like them 'cause we're pure blood. Get it? Muggers? Pure blood? :X Sorry for the tasteless joke - but it was funny between us! :) Heehee~

All right! I'm about done here. I got lots of things to finish up this weekend: Like the special present for the boy who is turning 21st on Tuesday & also a present which I owed my friend for a month. :X I'm slow. *Sigh* I wish I can work faster! But my determination hasn't reached the nerves of my body yet so my body is kind of procrastinating. :( Argh! I missed my running schedule. I doubt I can do much of running with my school schedule. *Sad* I'm beginning to fall in love with running. It clears the mind and body! I hope my records and stamina doesn't fall - hopefully the opposite effect to my weight! Kekekeke~ ^^ That's about it. I shall go off and... Well. I don't have much to do but it beats typing on and on and on and on and on... You get the picture. Peace!~

So much thoughts

2011-08-25T14:41:00.000+08:00

So much thoughts, so little place to vent.

I had wanted to post yesterday but was in a rush to go out with my sister so I decided against it. But now, I just can't remember what I wanted to talk about. *Sigh* I have such poor memories.

Whatever~
I know I said I wouldn't be posting much and yet, I'm almost posting every single day. It'll stop I promise - I need time to study too 'cause all my friends seem to be the hardcore muggers and it's really scary somehow... Right now, I've been to almost all the lectures - except for Principle of Banking and Finance, which is tomorrow. They give out notes at the start of the lectures but the notes are not stapled together. :( This makes me miss SRJC for the wonderful bookshop we have - Uncle Henry. *Sigh* I wish I can just pop over and ask him to bind my notes...I was planning to head back to bind my notes but I'm not a student there any more so I doubt he would bind for me - even I have to pay for it. :( My friends told me it's much more expensive to bind outside. Still... It's not like I have any choice right unless I can ask a favour of my juniors.

Yesterday was a tiring day for me and my sister! We walked all around Bugis trying to find party stuffs for my brother - who couldn't care less about his own 21st birthday. LOL. We had a hard time finding the decorations as it was either too expensive or too limited - we didn't know much places which sells party decorations you see. Anyway, I hope he'll like what we bought for him. :D Party will be up on Monday! I'm kind of excited for him. Heehee~ Hopefully he'll like the present my sister and I made for him! (We found this totally cool art shop - which I am totally in love with right now for they sell ALL sorts of items from board to paints to everything! Sort of like Spotlight but better? Hahaha.) We suffered till 3am in the morning so really hope he'll love it! Oh! My sister and I had a great idea birthdays! To have each friends take a poloriod photo with the birthday boy/girl. Oh man. That totally makes me sad for not having a poloriod camera! :( I'm gonna save enough money this year and the next to afford a DSLR and an instanx camera! *Pray*

I sort of promised myself that I would study today so I guess I'll end here. (My day is to boring to be updated anyway. :D) See ya~

Left alone

2011-08-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

In the end I'm backing out as usual.

I realised I always tell myself to go for something and don't let go halfway, but I can't do it - friendships, studies, families etc. Even simple things like 'not using the computer till week ends'. It always ends up the same way. Gak~ I'm feeling so emotional today. Probably not a good day for a post. Maybe I should be left alone from the world. At least I don't have to care about so many things. And seriously, night time is the worse time to listen to emotional songs like my playlist. I'm at the edge of breaking down and cry but I don't even know why...

Please let tomorrow be a better day as I prepare for my brother's 21st birthday! (I feel so guilty that I totally forgotten that his party is next week. I'm such a bad sister.) And sometimes, I'm really such a bad friend. I just let things get the better of me.

There is this huge emotion inside me and it ain't going away! I'm going away from here first! :( Goodbye.
Today is a rainy day for me...

First day of school

2011-08-22T19:27:00.003+08:00

I survived my 6 hours of lectures today! Yay!~

Yeah, you guessed it. Today is my first day in University. I know what you're thinking: Why do I only start my lessons now when the others have already started. Well. In case you didn't notice the bar on the left, I am in SIM-UOL which is a private University so it doesn't starts like the rest of the local Universities.

This is truly my first ever MRT ride to school and I wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. (Sorry. I sound pathetic but I don't really like to take transportation by myself. I like some company - even if I don't talk to the person. :X) I brought a book along to read on the train but my eyes couldn't take it even though the book seemed awesome - it was just too much for the early morning. It wasn't early by the time I reached Clementi Station, and I really hate the bus stop there! It's super crowded! You can miss like tons of buses before you actually bought one! Luckily for me, I managed to bought the second bus! :D Met up with my friends before entering the lecture hall. *Phew* I'm so glad that there was actually break in between classes! If not, I think I would probably faint from hunger 'cause I was planning to have breakfast before lecture. (But didn't cause we went in early.) I saw so many people today too - even a primary school classmate! How cool is that? I saw pretty much a lot of people but I don't really recognise some of their faces/names. I'm so sorry! Must be due to the early mornings! :(

I doubt I'll be posting much from now onwards - although I sincerely hope I can come down often 'cause I want to 'record' down my things and memories - especially those good ones which I'm afraid I'll just forget. :) It's time for dinner! And it's also time to watch 'Shinning Inheritance'. BYE~

P.S Dear brain, please STOP making me space out every single minutes! :( I must be going crazy to be thinking about the possibilities. No. No. No. But I think I'm starting to care a little and that's what I'm afraid of.
I just saw this and realised how true it is: As a Scorpio, Love is both tempting and frightening to you. Deep down, you long to give yourself fully to that perfect soul mate.

D-day!

2011-08-21T19:17:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is THE day.

22nd August marks the start of school and classes. *Sigh* I think I've been complaining about the start of school for quite a few posts already so I shall bare you the torture again. The best thing to do now is to quickly get over the Monday blues and get into schedules. Just keep moving forward! Yeah~

Before I forget,

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY to my pretty sister, EVELYN!

We had our difference - in terms of our point of views and our actions - but we're sisters and that is the very fact so I think in between all, blood is really thicker than water! ;D Love~ *Hugs*

I'm quite exhausted right now but I didn't allow myself to sleep or take a short nap. Why? That is simply because tomorrow is the start of school and I have to wake up early. For that, I have to sleep early. Seeing how I've been sleeping late almost EVERY single day, I have to try to get myself to sleep earlier today and hence...You'll get the picture. Oh gosh. My headache is back...

I couldn't fall asleep yesterday although I got into bed at 12am. :( There are two reasons why I couldn't sleep - I could hear the TV outside loud and clear; and well...I was sorting out some things so my 'dearest' brain 'didn't' allow me to fall asleep. And so for an hour, I just closed my eyes and toss and turned. *Sigh* Please don't do this to me tonight! *Pray*

As much as I love all the sad and emotional songs, I think it's better for me to stay clear of them unless I'm in a good mood. These few days...Not so good. :( All the sad songs are getting into me and my mood are drained. Emo-elmo symptoms I would call. Oh! A little warning to those on my blog: Pause the songs if you can't take sad and emotional songs - 'cause 90% of them are of that genre. Sorry! But clubbing songs just gives me headaches...

Which reminds me...I still haven't told my parents about the Freshman-Orientation-Bash (FOB) at Zouk. :( I don't know how to tell them without making them disappointed. It's not like I'm gonna fall in love with clubbing - actually I'll probably never like clubbing because of all the kind of scenes in there. I know everything said about clubs are just glamorized by the people. (No offence.) I don't like loud musics nor dancing nor drinking. But I just wanna try everything out once. I've never been to a club and would like to see it first-hand. I'm always curious to new things. :D But then again, I know how much they don't like me and my siblings going - especially me since I'm the youngest - and I do understand why. *Sigh* I'll get to there when it's time I guess.

Skip. Skip. Skip.

Okay. I'm tired. I just came back from outside actually. Zzzz. Good day! Goodbye!~

Games+Dinner+Move = BROKE

2011-08-20T16:59:00.004+08:00

I'm officially broke for this month - even before ~~school starts!~~ :(

Oh man. I'm so disappointed in myself in the way I handle money. :( It was never this way. But I guess I got over-excited about the increase that I overspent way too much! How am I gonna survive school? Travelling is one thing, and the other is lunch expenses. I guess I have to scrimp and save as much as I can till this month ends. No more going out for expensive dinners/lunches, nor other exciting and fun-filled events. I have to say 'No". *Sad*

Speaking of fun-filled event, I just had one with my OG10! :D The starting always starts of awkwardly but I think it got better. (For me at least.) We meet up at Somerset MRT station and headed of to Cineleisure to the game room - I'm sorry but I don't know what it's called though my brother just told me like minutes ago. :X Anyway, I think it's really fun to play games like PS3 and Wii with friends! Hahaha. You can just totally get high with no alcohol involved! I had a blast playing games. (Though I wouldn't say the same thing about the after effects cause my arms are sore now after the sports game yesterday - baseball, tennis and whatever not.) I didn't play much of the PS3 though 'cause fighting-without-knowing-the-controllers is really not my type of games - I was just randomly pressing for the first round. Heehee~ Watching my friends play was fun and hilarious - especially for boxing! Hahaha! That was totally epic~!
After the long gaming in the room, we had MORE games at the arcade - of course that is because we've decided to watch some random movie together and hence there is time to waste in the arcade! :) I haven't been to the arcade for years - the last time I was there I was probably secondary three or two? My dears gang was arcade crazy that time so I didn't have a choice then. :) After graduating, I haven't had much chance to go back to the arcade days - till yesterday that is. I played things like ParaPara, which was totally embarrassing 'cause I didn't realise they were all watching! Sorry but my hands position are awkward! Hahahaha. ~~Some things happened during dinner time and I rather not talk about it~~. Whatever~ The dinner didn't suit me though. I know I was craving for sushi some days before but somehow that restaurant doesn't really suits my taste. :X It was expensive too - and I was broke...*Sigh* The dinner ended with ice-creams, which made me feel so disgusted 'cause I was already full and somehow I don't really liked ice-creams as much as I do before. Of course it's nice having it once in a while - Ben & Jerry's ice-creams. We were late for the movie so we quickly got to our seats and settled down. I don't know what's the movie was about but I think overall, it was not bad. It's quite comical and touching. :D (Please don't ask me what's the movie title 'cause I have no idea...) Lots of pictures were taken so feel free to check them out on FB - if you're my friend. ('Cause if you're not then you wouldn't see it.)

Whoa~ I'm finally done with typing the whole event! *Phew*
School is starting in TWO more days and I'm still not prepared - there are tons of thing which I need for school that aren't prepared. Pen inks; Notebooks etc. Plus, how the heck am I supposed to wake up on Monday morning!? Damn it. I'm really worried for myself. I haven't woke up at 6.00am since the last day of junior college life. I'm totally unprepared for this! *Pray* Please don't let me be late for school - 'cause that is one thing I really hate. :S
Anyway I guess I wouldn't be posting much as school starts. Probably on the days I have 'offs' or something exciting to post about. If not this post would be just hanging around here for weeks and days - might be even month but I doubt it. xD Well. That's all I have for today. Peace out~

P.S My arm hurts! :( My friend was playing Wii and accidentally whacked me with the controller... Right now my arm can't be straighten. OMG. It's my right arm! *Worried*

The start of something new

2011-08-18T21:16:00.001+08:00

It's THREE more days before ~~school~~ starts.

I wouldn't lie and tell you that I can't be bothered about school. In fact, as I've said previously, I'm pretty nervous about it. But I'm actually quite excited about it as well. The only thing I can't stand is that I still have this feeling of being trapped in the past and not moving forward like the others. Somehow, I wish things were different and...Well, just different. When can I stop relying on people and start being more out-going and myself. I know I'm not the kind of girl who would get shy about things...Okay. Maybe I am. But still. I imagined myself to be more playful and friendly to others but I guess I just can't get out of that circle and wall I'm currently trapped in. As usual, I'm always inside looking out...All right. Enough of such mood draining stuffs. I realize I keep starting my posts with a sad tone when I'm actually not sad at all. It's just my brain working and trying to figure life out, probing into the deepest tissues and question it. But that's the way Scorpio works I guess - and yeah I am a true blue Scorpio if you didn't know.

Anyway, I've been just hanging around at home with pretty much nothing to do. Just entertaining myself with movies and videos and exercises. Oh. On a happy note, I managed to cleared one whole round without stopping for the past two days! (It was yesterday and today.) Perhaps it may seem like a small accomplishment to you but it really means a lot to me! Why? Do you know I used to hate running? Okay. 'Hate' would be too strong of a word. 'Loath' or 'Dislike' would be better. In secondary school, 2.4km run/walk was the most torturing stations I have to do. (Besides incline-pull up 'cause my arm is like totally strength-less. LOL.) I had a hard time trying to pass it and I really can't stand it. But when I came to junior college, I started to enjoy running more. Still, it wasn't enough to get me to run on a daily basis - not even P.E. My stamina did improve during the junior college days but after long duration of slacking, my stamina is probably in the worse state when 2011 begin. (Since I didn't do much running during the A levels year.) But now, I can actually run a whole round without stopping! It shows such an improvement for me! It's totally an accomplishment and I think I deserve to feel proud about myself for that after all the hard work and effort I've put into training. :) Also, it makes me feels like I'm moving away from the reliance and dependence on my friends and family. Why is that? Well...In the past, I couldn't run without someone accompanying me - like my Dad or my sisters - but now, things changed. I enjoy running by myself 'cause it gives me time to clear my thoughts and problems. It's an activity for venting frustrations and not to cope all the emotions in yourself. :D I didn't tell you the best part of running! It keeps you slim and healthy! So stay healthy guys and run for as long as you live~

But then after school starts my running schedule would be in a mess. Hopefully, I can fulfil my own promises and run every week. *Fingers crossed*

When school starts, I hope I can be a good student who wouldn't be late for any lessons and lectures. (Not that I've been late for school before - maybe once because I overslept and there was a traffic jam.) When school starts, I hope I'll be a good student and study hard, not only for my parents but for myself as well. When school starts, I hope I can still stay in contact with my friends and meet up once in a while so that we'll not drift away although...Never mind. When school starts, I hope I can be more active and join CCAs and clubs and make more new friends and also learn about about myself and my skills. :) Somehow I really want to be in SRC, not because my friends are joining, but rather I love the thought of doing projects and events for others. I think I kind of like doing that kind of stuffs - of course the participants must co-operate well unlike..Never mind. As for Odac...Well, I think people sees me as those dainty girl who wouldn't do all the things like camping and outdoor activities. Well. You're right. I don't really like getting tan. But I do love doing fun stuffs. As for camping, I've been through worse so I don't think that's much of a problem. :) Besides I've been meaning to do crazy stuffs like bungee jumps etc! Hahaha. Can't imagine me doing so right? But I think we should try everything once 'cause we only live once.
As I always say:
We should live life to the fullest and never regret our decision no matter how bad things may be because throughout everything, there is always something you gain - memories, lessons etc.

Oh my. I've been typing and typing for so long that I didn't realise it's such a handful of words already. I wish I can just simply type all my thoughts out instead of having everything stuck in my head. Someday, these thoughts are gonna drive me insane. :( But for now, it'll do. I'll live. *Sigh* I don't really have the mood to go out with the OG tomorrow...Should I just skip it? There are others joining in so it wouldn't be bad for me to skip right? :X I'll sleep on it and decided again later. Just not in the socialising mood right now...Maybe it's not such a good idea to listen to sad songs when in such a mood...*Sigh* I think this post is dragging my mood down. :( I shall watch WongFu productions or something to cheer myself up. Hwaiting!~

Goodbye and Goodnightz~
P.S I'm not sad. I'm not being an emo. I'm just feeling empty. Okay. I know what you're thinking: "They're the same thing!" Well. Let's just assume for the minute that they aren't so as not to argue okay? And if you can't agree on that...Well...That's just too bad. Peace out~

A new beginning

2011-08-16T19:01:00.003+08:00

A new chapter of our lives, or rather mine, is about to unfold. (/Edited)

I don't know why should I be nervous about school starting. We've been through a new chapter for so many times already - primary, secondary, and even junior college (also know as pre-university) - so what's to be nervous about. But I am worried nevertheless. How can I not be? It's not just only a new chapter but also a whole new level of life. And there is nothing I loath more than meeting new people and making new friends. I'm so glad to have my friends accompanying me through orientations, allowing me to be more of myself in front of others. I'm not saying that I'm two-sided or anything. It's just that I tend to be quieter and shy in a new environment - if you don't believe it ask all my friends. That's just the way I am. Although I am trying to be more friendly and out-going but it doesn't seem be working 'cause I can't seem to find common topics to talk to one another. And that is when awkwardness comes in. Oh. I'm digressing...as usual. Let's skip.

Anyway, I'm still worried about school - about being late; about coping with studies and not wanting to disappoint my parents (Although I know they just want me to do my best in school, I can't help but be a little competitive in wanting to give them the best rewards - a good grade in studies.) Besides that, there is also the projects and CCAs. I'm really considering in joining SRC and ODAC but am I worthy enough to join? I haven't had any experience about handling people, although I do love to organise events...but... In addition to that, ODAC is an outdoor CCA. I'm not sure how much my body stamina can cope it. It's true I've been running and exercising and I have been to many outdoor events like camps and OBS but...I still don't think I'm active enough for them. I mean, I can't even swim! I'm scared of heights etc. *Sigh* University is gonna be a tough journey with lots of important decisions to make. I guess I just have to trust myself and my heart.

It'll be all right. Even the darkest days will pass. (~~Hopefully~~)

Enough about such mood draining topics. It's taboo. Let's add some cheerful memories to turn all our frowns upside down! :)
On Sunday, there was this dinner with my OG10. I kind of had problem finding them - lucky for my friend. :) Anyway, we had dinner at Fish & Co. and while seated, we we talking about how we should have gone to Manhattan Fish Market instead. Ops. :X Talk about competitions between restaurant. Of course we aren't that mean to do that. I mean, we've reserved about nearly 20 seats from them so it wouldn't be nice anyway. We settled down and started to order. I think the in-between wait for the food was the most awkward time for some of us 'cause we didn't know what to talk about. (I don't even remember seeing some of them, let alone knowing their names - really sorry!) But at least I made friends, which I'm quite happy about it! :D Yay~ I'm accomplishing my goals for the month. (I'm not saying that I make friends merely for the sake of hitting my goals of course. My goals is just a set of motivation for myself to move forward and not to look back and regret.)
After the [awkward] dinner, we heading down to some game shop only to find it to expensive for a small allowance of time. It's quite sad 'cause I was quite looking forward to play X-Box and Wii and some random board games actually. (Don't look down on me. I do play games like Halo & Counter-strike - perhaps not as well as the guys though 'cause I panic easily. :D) In the end we settled at Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Wasn't really in the mood for ice-cream at such a late hour but it was a sweet treat from all the guys there so I guess it's all right to consume a little. :) I think we must have sat there for a long time because the girls working at the shop had to 'chase' us away as they were closing up. I got home pretty late that day - about 12am I would say? Luckily my last bus is at 1am! *Phew* But I've been home later than that so...(Of course that comes with a free ride home. xD)
From awkwardness, the whole outing ending pretty nicely. :) Except that I lost my favourite bracelet. *Sigh* I'm never gonna get it back. And that brings me again to how much I really hate losing my stuffs! Hahaha. (FYI, I've been losing a lot of my things lately - okay...it's not a lot, it's only two.) This is a note to people: Not to buy bracelets or necklaces for me 'cause I'll lose it somehow. :X

Monday came with an early start and late ending. What do I mean?
For the first time, I was going to be early to meet my JC friends. (Yeah, I'm always late when it comes to meeting my JC friends. Probably 'cause I always under-estimate the time I need to get there.) But then I don't really like waiting so I decided to tag along with my family to Clarke Quay for lunch. (My friends and I was meeting at 1pm, which I have to get out of the house at 11pm to reach on time so I didn't have time for lunch....) Anyway, to cut the story short, I ended up being late for an hour instead of being early for an hour. How cool is that? :X Sorry! I didn't know it takes so long to drive from Clarke Quay to SIM(HQ). *Hugs*
I guess their mood got better when we reached Orchard for some more shopping - round 2! (Round 1 just happened on Friday...) I think there isn't anything much to elaborate about shopping 'cause shopping is just...well, just shopping. There is no other ways to say or show it unless you're there to experience it! :D Oh. We did chat about lots of things (which I will never expose here xP) that happened recently. Let's just say I got bullied by them. :( I still didn't get to eat sushi which I have been craving for ages, but that's okay 'cause I was too full to eat anyway. Well. There's nothing interesting to type so I shall end off here. Goodday~

P.S. Oh man. I'm hungry right now. Luckily it's gonna be dinner soon! Yay~ Dong Yi is previewing now, I shall go! Hugs~

Sarah's last-minute shopping list: (Just in case I forget, seeming that I have a poor memory. :X)
1. The Confession (Not important but I really want it so...it's here. :D)
2. Pencil leads (I'm not even sure we need pencils but no harm buying right?)
3. Colour pens (If I want it - not important.)
4. Notebooks (I already have three but I don't know how many I need. Anyway, it's always good to be prepared!)
5. Cardigan (I'm tempted to buy it online but I'm I'm a little tight this month.)
That's pretty much all. It's an add on so read it, don't read it, I don't care. :) Bye~

Eating Festival!

2011-08-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

It's kind of scary that when you wish to eat good food for a day, the wish extends too much.

A weird but true start! That is what it's happening to me!

It all started innocently when I requested to have a home-made Korean dinner together. So a great dinner was cooked for the five of us. Pancakes, ginseng chicken soup and grilled pork. What a delicious dinner we had! Then I have this dinner date with my grandma and aunts at the Imperial Palace. Okay. So it wasn't the food that I was craving for most - and that is Japanese sushi, along with soft shell crabs *gulps* - but there was really a load of dish for just six of us! Both rice and noodles. We even had to take-away the leftover noodles - 'cause it was simply too much for us who are small eaters. And now for today's dinner: Chomp Chomp. It's nice and all but I'm kind of guilty enough for the lack of exercise the past two weeks - one whereby I didn't exercise at all because I injured my tights; and the other week with only two runs out of three. Talk about guilt overdrive! Then tomorrow, I have this dinner at Fish & Co. with my OG10 peeps. :( I'm gonna have to exercise everyday for the whole of next week while my friends are busy at camp to get bad in shape! *Sigh*

I think I really love running - but it's the company that I enjoy the most out of it. Simply running and jogging do take my mind of things - and I can relax too (Quite a contradiction there don't you think? 'Cause running kills your energy literally and yet it's relaxing...you know? :D). But I like it better when people run with me! Like my dad - so I know how to pace myself too. *Sigh* What happened to becoming less dependent and more independent? :( All my values back to square one! Hmph.

Sorry mao~ That's why I didn't wanna run the Adidas marathon with you - 'cause you're gonna run yourself and not with me so what's the point of running and joining with you? Oh! That reminds me of someone who can join me! Omg! I haven't thought about her for quite some time! Hahaha. A good time, and not to mention a good reason, to drag her out for a meet-up! Points up! ;)

Anyway, just really wanna point to myself to stick to my goals and aims for the year! Keep it up! You're getting there! Hahaha. I changed my mind for the goals of the month for August:

1. Keep running in your own schedules - even when school starts (You can make-up on weekends - running should be a least thrice per week!)

2. Running at least one and a half round each time (And increasing speed, not to mention time.)

3. Not to indulge yourself in good dinners or lunches (Just eat moderately and NEVER over - hopefully.)

4. Don't get yourself into the scene of clubs and drinking! This is a MUST. (Good thing I never liked alcohol and loud noises! xP)

Sign and stamped by yours truly, Sarah~

That's about it for today! Ohhh. My brother's 21st is coming - that means a party with good food is coming to me AGAIN. Gosh. Why do my family enjoy food so much? Hahahaha~ It's so true when people say things like: Animals eat to live while we people live to eat! ;P Don't you think so too? Kekekeke~ ^^

Peace out!~

When in need of a place to ramble, just come down to Blogger

2011-08-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

When in need of a place to ramble, just come down to Blogger! :)

I think I'm those people who just loves to write or type my thoughts somewhere. Maybe when school starts, just maybe, I'll transfer back to diaries writing again. But then again, I haven't held a pen for ages. Perhaps not.

All right. I know I've already posted for today about my good luck - whereby Hotmail finally returns my precious e-mail account to me - but I just wanna add some rambles in here so here I am again! ;D Don't worry, it wouldn't be a long post...At least I hope so since I have to head to bed soon if I wanna wake up on time tomorrow. Hopefully I wouldn't be late as usual. :X

Well. I just wanna type down things I wanna do. Yeah, yeah. I've probably typed or written it for millions of times. Okay. Maybe not millions. But still...It's uncountable. But that is just because I want to see it every time so I'll remember my own promises and do it.
I always tell myself never to regret any decisions in life.
However, it's really hard to practice what you preach. This year, I've made so many decisions I've regretted - like being afraid of joining camps and clubs without my friends. I guess I'm the one who have not grown up yet. I'm still being clinging as before, not able to let go and move on. I really don't like myself being so reliance on my friends and family. That's why there are so many times where I just feel like packing up and leaving this country, going somewhere by myself where I can be responsible for who I am and see what my own abilities can take me to. Right now, it really feels as though I'm truly trapped inside looking out. *Sigh* Is this all part of growing up?

One step. All it takes is for me to take up one step. To move forward on my own. And yet I'm not able to do that simple yet difficult step. I think I know what are my new goals for this month already. (If you didn't know, every month - starting from the month of July 2011 - I would make goals & promises for myself to reach. To know my own limits and boundaries.)
Goals for the month of August 211:
1. Keep my promise of running every week (At least one round.)
2. Study hard & Work hard - Not to disappoint my parents.
3. Make new friends & Join new CCA and events and even camps.
4. Make plans to meet up with old friends

*Yawn* I'm retreating for the night. It's late and I have a shopping date tomorrow that's gonna burn all my energy. (Not to mention my money...) :( Goodnightz~

Awesome mail returned to me!

2011-08-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

Awesome! I am now beyond happiness! :D

After many long weeks of verbal accusing of Hotmail, they finally verified me as the real owner of the account! Finally! I got back my account! :D I was so happy just now that I just screamed and jumped for joy there and then! Then again, I was really in need of my e-mail account so I guess it is something worth celebrating for! YAY!

Yesterday, I had the best meal. Okay. So it wasn't the best meal - 'cause there are still room for improvement for all the dishes - but my family had our first home-made Korean dinner! ;) Awesome or what! Hahaha. We had ginseng chicken soup (samgyetang) , grilled pork (also known as samgyeopsal) and also my very own kimchi pancake (or kimchijeon as they call it). I wish I can eat like that everyday! But that would also mean I have to exercise everyday since I would be eating a lot. Teehee~

I'm so tired right now but I promised myself that I would run later today so...Gotta freshen up a little. Overall I'm just glad to get back my Hotmail account! Daebak!

Thanks for Giving me!

2011-08-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

Thanks for Giving me! That's what Thanksgiving in SRJC all about! :D

On 5th August, Friday, I went back to SRJC with my friends for the best night of every year - Thanksgiving. Now. Most people must be thinking: What the heck? Isn't thanksgiving supposed to be near Christmas or something?!

Well ours is different. Thanksgiving is one of SRJC's traditions, besides WILLRun of course. Actually, Thanksgiving and WILLRun sort of comes together. For those who doesn't know, WILLRun is not all about running, but rather there is work of donation included too. Donations to those in need of help and suuport. Though this event we collect donations and pledges from those kind-hearted souls and give it all to the supporting groups. It's a charity event and it's real.

Coming back to Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving, is a concert performed by our one-and-only teachers - the best in the world (In my opinion anyway.) - in return for our hard work and effort for the charity event. Somehow, I don't think they should do the performance 'cause they work as hard as us too - even doubly harder than us! But overall I really loved how bonded the school is with the teachers for the teachers to put on such a concert - from commercials to korean pop dancing! I have to say that they are VERY cool. :D Good job teachers! Good job to SRJC!

After the awesome concert night, my friends and I headed to Serangoon Gardens for supper - Chomp Chomp. It was my first time there. Their food was nice, especially the 'Kang Kong', though I can't say the same about the attitude of the stall owners. Whatever~ The most important thing is that I had a great time with my friends - and teacher (Who came with us for supper - now ain't that cool or what!)

But that day was also they first time I reached home at 1am plus...Okay. Probably not the first time but I haven't been that late since secondary school days. And I foresee that there would be a lot of the same thing happening in the near future - with all the Zouk and Timbre bash etc. I'm gonna have to save up for cab fees. *Sigh* Oh well. I'll just try not to make it frequent. I don't want my parents to worry that I'll go astray and indulge in alcohol or clubbing. (But as I have said many times before, I don't like to club. Too noisy. :P) As for drinking...I probably don't like it either 'cause drinking gives me headache - even a little. I'm probably every party-er's nightmare. Hahahahaha~

All right. My nose is itching. Again. :( Shall sign off now. Aidos!~

SIM Orientation

2011-08-02T01:04:00.000+08:00

I just wanna blog while everything is still fresh in my mind.

Today I had to wake up at 6am in the morning again so as to reach SIM(HQ) for Orientation Talk. That makes me wonder: What time do I have to wake up to reach school at 8.30am in the morning!? The ride to Clementi wasn't pleasant, simply because the train was extremely crowded with all the workers! :( Not a good start of the morning to be cramped in the MRT like a sardine in a can. The worse part was that you can't even find a single seat to rest, even though I was talking from Pasir Ris!

Enough about travelling. I mean, I always knew that there is always the morning rush, but I just didn't know that it would be THAT bad. I guess that's how the cookie crumbles. :( *Sigh*

Anyway, being entirely clueless to the place and direction, we blindly followed the crowd. It doesn't seem like a good idea but it's really effective. Heehee~ Why? That's because with that, we managed to find the location easily! Ha! That's called smart thinking! (Or following blindly as said.) I was split to OG10 with my friends. To my surprise, there were quite a few SRJC-ians inside too! I couldn't believe it! (Okay. I probably should have known them like my friends but I swear I've never seen them in my entire life in SRJC! I'm not THAT social-able with everyone you know.) :X

Well. In orientation, what is the first and foremost thing to do? It's self-introduction. We spent some time learning about one another's names and schools. But to tell you the truth, I forgot each names as I remember another... :( I'm really sorry but I was never good with names! Unless the names are familar or easy to call out perhaps. As for the rest...I'm truly sorry! I feel so bad at that time! It's like they just wasted 5 minutes of their lives talking to me... *Sigh* I'm not good at matching names to faces either; with a hint of bad hearing and comparison skills. Ops. Not good for first impressions. It got better with time but I still have no idea who is who. ;(

Of course in such events, games are like bread and butter. I think I'm not as shy as I was before. In the past, I couldn't talk to people easily and hate getting picked on for games or pairing. But today is different as I realized. I did a forfeit without much trouble and easily partner guys during games. :D I guess I'm finally growing up and getting rid of my shy exterior? Hahaha. Perhaps.

Truthfully, the talks are boring. The jokes they made did lighten up the mood but it was boring nevertheless. (Talks are mostly boring unless you're talking about those inspirational talks I had in SRJC - which was quite entertaining I have to say. Especially the Q&A... Kekekekeke~ ^^) But I had fun with the group games - clay modelling; ball travelling etc. They had a game which was supposed to be scary but it turned out to be irritating and ear deafening. Seriously! My ear drums was in pain as they constantly banged on the table tops. LOL. :( Hello~ I don't want to turn deaf at the age of 19 or ever, thank you very much. :D

Overall, I had great fun and laughter with my OG. (Just think pikachu & giraffe.) Heehee~ ;) Some of us even decided to attend the Freshman Orientation Bash at Zouk's. I'm not really a fan or clubbing or drinking but I thought it wouldn't hurt to check out the scene just once. I just wannt try new things this year. Besides, it's not like I'm going to turn into some kind of party animal after going once. I don't drink, nor do I like loud musics. I think if I were to choose, I rather go to a karaoke or jazz pub where it's either with a nice ambience or a quieter surroundings. :D Actually, I rather go to the library any other day. But like I said, this year would be all about trying new things and adding them into my Carpe Diem list.

"Life only happens once, so let's make most of our it and experience all the taste lives: Sourness; Sweetness; Bitterness; Spiciness."

All right. As much as I want to elaborate more for you readers (If there is actually any...), I'm way to exhausted, both mentally and physically, to continue on. Even bumblebees get tired. Goodnightz~

P.S It's a bumblebee orientation!

Are you game? Will you RUN?

2011-07-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

Are to game to push yourself to the limit and RUN? ;D

Yeah. You guessed it SRJC-ians. It's our annual WillRUN! :D
WillRUN is a tradition started out by our very dearest principal (or rather ex-principal now) to push us to break barriers and allow ourselves to achieve greater results. Personally I think WillRUN is very inspiring. All right. So I didn't run for either years. But somehow, I did wanna run, it's just that my medical conditions doesn't allow me to do so - although I was being lazy on the second year. :X Heehee~

Anyway, this year, being an alumni and all, my friends and I decided to drop by to see how well the school is doing and to get into the crowd too. But to my dismay, this year's atmosphere wasn't as homely and lively as the previous - or 2009. The second half got better (when the boys were running). Somehow, I think it was the boys who brought down the whole atmosphere. Seriously! They were just doing their own stuffs as the girls ran. Come on. Where is the support you're supposed to give! Where are the cheers? I remembered in 2011, SRJC got a lot of complains from the neighbours due to our events. But it was all positive noisy I swear. It's was just cheering and encouragement. But I couldn't see that this year. Like he said, it's all positive noisy so keep it up! :P

Oh. I saw this quote from my friend (who saw it during the WillRUN)....
"No run is longer than life, so keep running."
It's very meaningful, especially to those who simply loves running! ;)

I'm pretty exhausted to type one-for-one of what happened during the event so let me just summarize them a little here and there.
We were held up at the gate initially because the security guard didn't allow us in. It was lucky that I never once took out my school pass for SRJC from my wallet. :) Our identity~ Since the run had already started and we didn't know much juniors in the place we decided to take refuge in the general office and collect our cert. Lucky us! ;D We don't have to come back another time for certs! Heehee~ (Hey! SRJC isn't near my home you know.)
All right. After all the running is over, part of 2S17 went to Kovan for lunch-out together! A little shout-out to those dedicated people who turned up:
Sarah! Mei Ying! Wilson! Emeline! Pei Xuan! Rahul! Saiful! Cassandra! (Oh. But special thanks to Jonathan who turned up for WillRUN - though knowing him, he had came with other reasons in mind. xP And also Sok Loon for sending out the sms!)
For the rest, please join us in our next outing. (Especially those who had wanted to join us but couldn't due to clash of schedules. :D)
The service at Kovan's Pizza Hut was pathetic! Disappointing. I mean they ARE seriously short-handed. Shouldn't the management do something about it? You're just bring down the standards of Pizza Hut by saving cost you know... Whatever. I'm just saying. They food was not bad though - probably something to do with great company? LOL. Then we (Me, Mei Ying, Rahul and Wilson) headed to Tampines to window shop. It was quite fun to be shopping with these folks. :D A new experience.

We ended our day and head back home - and all I wanted to do when I get home was to sleep. But sleeping has to wait 'cause gotta go to the airport, after I've only shut my eye for 5 minutes, to send my sister off to Oz. I kind of envy that she could do all the things I wanted to do - Study aboard; go overseas with friends and travel by themselves etc. I know it's not healthy to be jealous - kick the jealous mind away Sarah! I think we should be contented with what we have. Okay...I'm digressing here. Lalalalala~ Back to topic. We had dinner at the exact same place as we did one month ago. LOL. Lalalalalala~

Okay. The tiredness I coming back to me and I have the urge to jump into my comfy bed and fall right into dreamland right now. Zzzzz. Goodnightz~

P.S Today I woke up at 6am in the morning and got on my very first morning-bus 81 to SRJC. :D Such a memorable day today~
P.P.S Tomorrow (or rather now...) is the 7th Month - Hungry Ghost Festival. :(

It's lucky

2011-07-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

You're lucky I'm not the type of girl.

It's a good thing I'm not the type of girl who would curse or swear. Nor am I one who would burn houses, draw graffiti, or anything violent. You're so lucky Hotmail. Why? Because if I was...your life would be over! Seriously. You guys are taking way too long to settle my e-mail account. According to you, Hotmail, you said "It normally takes us up to 24 hours to complete an evaluation." But I believe 24 hours have gone by TWICE and yet I'm still here waiting. Care for an explanation? Please get it back to me ASAP - if not you'll have to pay me for making late payments for my school fees. (And if I can't get into the school because of your slow actions - 'Thanks') Pathetic. :(

Enough of the defaming. I didn't mean too - who am I kidding. But seriously, if you're facing the same problem as I am, you wouldn't be so nice - unless you're a saint which I highly doubt it. I have already waited patiently as much as I could but I have a dateline to meet so my patience only goes so far out. I mean, what more do you want me to do to prove that it's my e-mail?! It's not even my fault that there are spammers who hack accounts. Shouldn't your firewall be better than that and protect your customers? I'm really disappointed. I used to think so highly of Hotmail and MSN. Yes. Of course I know it's not entirely your fault but what I fail to understand is why can't you just settle it quickly and return me my account? I'm desperate for it. Please understand. I know I'm being mean and all here. Sorry, but I'm really in a bad mood - especially with the dateline is so close.

This week is a bad week: My e-mail got blocked all 'thanks' to the spammer and hotmail; my closet got invaded by a lizard; my room got invaded by a big wasp and those frigging irritating insects which are attracted to light. My life is 'so' entertaining. If I'm taking and accepting this week of bad luck, then you better repay me with lots of good luck for the coming month!

Anyway, WillRun is coming - at least there is something worth looking forward too. I wonder how it would go. I suggested to have a lunch out with the class (2S17), hopefully people would join in - come on we haven't meet up for a while (At least for those who missed out on Sentosa) and for the girls, university life is starting, you'll have less time for meet-ups in the future.

Well. I've been feeling down even since MSN got blocked so I decided to entertain myself with YouTube video by WongFu productions etc. I think their videos are meaningful and funny at the same time - not all I guess but it's pretty good. :D About my goals...I did managed to run for the past few weeks as I wanted. But didn't do much about mastering another language nor my piano skills. I guess I got bored with piano after some time - and the interest is not coming back yet. Maybe it takes Nichkhun to push me forward. Why? That's because the first song I mastered "River Flow in You" was inspired by him. After that my interest sort of took a downfall. :(

Okay. I sort of forgotten about this post while web-surfing so...Toddles~

Sue you!

2011-07-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

Oh. My. Gosh. I really wish I could step in front of them and tell them straight what I have to say!

Seriously! No. Nope. I'm not talking about anyone here. What I'm talking about right now is the freaking irritating MSN (Hotmail) who blocked my account! 'Thanks a lot guys!' I didn't even spammed anyone. Someone must have hacked into my account or something! :( OMG. I really need my account back. It's driving me nuts! Please, please return it to me ASAP. I wish I could say it straight in the face of whoever in charge to return my account to me - I have important documents inside you fool! I really wish I could sue you - quickly return it to ME! ****

I'm so pissed off with them. They wrote that it'll only take 24 hours to settle. But for your information, 24 hours have passed and they have yet to reply me! Seriously! Slow. Slow. Slow. Haiz. What can I do!? I'm in full time panic-mode and yet they can't solve it fast. MSN you have to work better than that. Seriously. If not I'm jumping my loyal. :( Not really. But I'm still pissed.

Gak~ I wasn't going to complain for the whole post but what is done, it's done. My mood for blogging today is totally down. Sorry. Bye~

Hong Xin Restaurant

2011-07-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

Have you ever woke up early just for a good breakfast? Well. I have - that is today!

Today was supposed to be family breakfast-cum-lunch at Hong Xin Dim Sum Restaurant (Aka Ruby Restaurant) but my second sister, being the laziest of all, couldn't wake up and so she missed the family breakfast with the whole lot of us. :(

Anyway, it was a great start of the morning - though I kind of woke up involuntarily since I haven't had enough sleep. (For you information, I slept at 2am and mummy woke me up at 7.30am - I couldn't even open my eyes then!) Quickly got up of bed and washed up. :D Off we went to the restaurant. We chatted a lot on the way there so I was mostly awake by then. Heehee~ The restaurant was a little out of place but it wasn't hard to find either - near Chinatown but it's actually at Outram. (Something like that...)

Lalala~ The restaurant was a typical Hong Kong Dim Sum restaurant with people pushing the carts around asking whether you want the food they have. It was nice - though I seriously dislike the tea 'cause it was too bitter! LOL. Oh. And I think the egg-tart sold in YumCha was much better. :X Seriously. I like the custard in YumCha better - plus it's small so you wouldn't get sick of it. Overall: So-so? Probably since I'm not a big fan of Dim Sum besides the 'Xiao Long Bao'. Heehee~ Oh. The 'Nai Huang Bao' was not bad too - for sweet tooth that is 'cause it's filling is caramel custard.

After the long and filling breakfast-cum-lunch, we went to Chinatown for some cheap shopping. We spend quite some time there just shopping for goods like shampoo and facial wash. LOL. But it was cheap and worth so I guess it was all right. :D Found some nice clothes there - had wanted to buy but didn't wanna try so skipped. Kind of regretting it now but I guess there is nothing much to do about it. Oh well.

We headed to Giant afterwards for some more shopping. I guess when one whole family goes out, the best place to shop is Giant and NTUC. Hahaha. Seriously though. But I love spending time in there nevertheless. Kekekeke~ ^^ I think my favourite shopping place aren't the usual ones that teens love - I like places like Popular; stationary stores; VCDs; Bookstores; and NTUC-kind of places. LOL. Weird huh. Hahahaha. :X Whatever. That's just me. xP

Ahhh. I'm pretty sleepy and thirsty right now. Shall brush my teeth and head of to dreamland. :D Goodnightz~

P.S I really wish I was SMS-ing Khun everyday! LOL.

Owl Mode

2011-07-22T02:52:00.001+08:00

Hi! I'm back in my night-shift. It's owl-mode for me.

I guess old habits really doesn't change 'cause I'm back to late sleeping immediately after ending my two days work shift. Oh well. All the blame to 'Running Man' for being so entertaining! :X Anyway, my worries for the two-day shift was necessary 'cause it turned out to be all right. It was a lucky thing that the class I got wasn't the difficult class. Phew. I always wondered how the teachers are always so good with their class - especially that certain one....Hm. Whatever. It's over. I shall not vex over it.

I'm quite a time-waster I think. I've so much time on hand and yet, I don't use them wisely. Instead of spending all this time on meeting with friends and family, I would rather laze around at home watching video - not even stepping out for lunch. Sometimes I feel really bad about it - like I've neglected them or some sort. But then another part of me keeps thinking: Why should I be the one to take the first move to ask them out? If they really wanted to meet-up they could also do the asking right? I know it's selfish to have such thoughts, but I've always been the one asking - and getting disappointed with their answers. I'm tired of being so considerate to people - and ending up getting hurt sometimes. It's selfish, I know, but I rather be the bad guy. Whatever~ If they cared enough they would take the first move too.

My mind is always on the insecure-mode. I really don't like it and I'm trying to change but it's really hard. I guess after all the years, the bad memories stayed longer than all the good old times. Primary school. Secondary school. Junior college. Same. Old. Story. Never mind. Sometimes I really think I'm very selfish. Hm. I guess nobody is perfect - of course that is not an excuse to be such a person. Hm.

Oh. I forgotten to wish Valerie a good future in Australia. Study hard! You'll be fine. :) It's not like you're not coming back to see us. We'll still be here for you. Fighting!~

Anyway, it's pretty late right now. I should be heading off to bed soon. Goodnights~
Words are grey 'cause that's how I'm feeling right now. Or maybe it should be blue...

Updates!

2011-07-18T15:05:00.000+08:00

Welcome back!
I have an 'off' day today because I decided not to meet up for lunch with my friends due to over-exhaustion.

Anyway, I've been busy clearing my schedules off one-by-one. Finally left with a few more to go. Hahahaha. :D Well. Time for some updates for myself don't you think?

Well. I shall just start from Saturday I guess - that is Mei Ying's Birthday party. It was a great party - full of fun and laughters. :) I'm to lazy to elaborate one-for-one what happened there - just that there was tons of surprises for people. (Post-it present for the birthday girl; Pandan cake for penguin; and three surprises for Ly.) Hope they loved it. Thanks for the invite. :)

After the whole tiring, Nina, Ly and I stayed at Mei Ying's house for a sleepover. Well. It was literally a 'sleep' over 'cause we were too tired to do much - although they did talk a lot about make-ups. Lol. The next day wasn't pretty 'cause we were exhausted to do much but laze around and slowly prepare to get out of the house. Hahahahaha. When we're finally done, we couldn't decide on a place to go. Potato chips. Chocolate. Sweets. We decided on City Hall. :D

Okay. Right now, I don't really feel like continuing. I think I wanna finish my 'homework' first. Anyway, I'm kind of excited for school to start. I'm bored to tears here - but to lazy and tired to get out of the house. (How contradicting huh.)

Sometimes, I keep thinking if I were to count the points of friendship, how much there in us? I just I just can't help comparing. The insecurity in me are coming back again and again whenever I see someone - her. I really can't help comparing. Haiz. Just ignore me here. I'm just being random - my mind is wandering off again.

I think I ought to drink more water! I could last one whole day without water - that's not good! :( All right-y~ I'm off to do my things. Toodles~

Exhaustion

2011-07-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

I. Am. ~~Freaking.~~ Exhausted. For. This. Whole. Week. Save me!

Let me show you my schedule list first before explaining. (Starting from last week.)
Thursday - Accompany Mum and Aline shopping (Mummy's off-day from work.)
Friday - Dinner at some Korean BBQ at East Coast Park for celebration of Mummy's birthday
Saturday - Sentosa Outing with dearest 2S17
Sunday - Meet-Up
Monday - SIM Administration Talk (Total waste of time I swear - I don't know half of what they said. In the end, I had to re-read the whole slides...)
Tuesday - Teo Heng with the QBs
Wednesday - FINALLY an off-day (But I must go for running because that is my normal running day. -.-)
Thursday - Dinner at Crown Plaza to celebrate Grandma's birthday
Friday - School Class Registration/ Meet-up
Saturday - Mei Ying's Birthday Party
Sunday - Sleepover
Monday - Lunch with Mao~
Tuesday - Work
Wednesday - Work
Phew...Finally finish typing my schedules.
I win hands down don't I? And it's like they want me to wake up early every outing and meetings. :( You might as well kill me. Oh well~ It'll get me prepared for school opening since I have to go school as early as 8.30am - and I live at the totally opposite side of school! (What the hell...)

Anyway, today's dinner was buffet. I am super guilty right now because I didn't run today and yet I ate such heavenly food. :( I didn't procrastinate today all right. Trust me. I was all prepared to run when water came down from the sky - yeah, it rained. What the heck! And I was all geared up to run...Spoilsport! *Sigh*

The buffet is at Crown Plaza - the one beside Changi Airport T3. :) The food was divine. But it wasn't everything. Actually, I think I'll take back my words 'cause so far I only found the steak was worthwhile. Heehee~ I'm such a beef-lover. I think I kind of over ate though I find myself eating so pathetic little...Hmm. My appetite must have shrunk after all this week of 'eating less and exercising more' - I even lost ONE kilograms. That's something worth being proud off. Teehee~ ;D
Oh. Oh. Did I mention I found pannacotta there?! Hahaha. Sweet. I haven't had that since I was in Jamie's restaurant back in England. It wasn't as nice and smooth as the one in England but delicious nevertheless. By the way, if you don't know what a pannacotta is...Well. It's a desert made from vanilla, cream and yoghurt. It's not very healthy, and quite fattening in fact, but super delicious. Do try it.

That's pretty much it. Oh man. I'm not going be able to run for the next few days...Gosh. I'll gain back that one kilogram again.. Noooo. It took me so hard to lose all that weight. :( Gotta keep fit. Gonna exercise till I bleed - of course not literally. Anyway, gottta sleep soon. (If not I can't wake up tomorrow morning.)

P.S I'm pretty nervous about choosing school schedule. Decision-making was never my forte. Actually, it's my worse aspect. :( I'm always wishy-washy about this kind of things and likes others to help me decide. I guess it's time I make my own choice. Wish me TONs of luck. Please~

I'm a busy-bee

2011-07-13T14:42:00.000+08:00

Buzz. Buzz. That's what I think I am for the past few days - a busy-bee!

Phew. I managed to finish my schedules for the past few days. It's not exactly like school or projects or work. But seriously, meet-up can be tough as well. LOL. Check out my schedules for the past few days:
Thursday - Shopping with Mummy and Aline
Friday - Dinner to celebrate Mummy's Birthday
Saturday - Sentosa trip with 2S17
Sunday - Meet-Up (For some reasons I refuse to disclose for now.)
Monday - SIM Admin-Talk
Tuesday - Teo Heng and Shopping for 'Stuffs'

Today? I'm totally tired so I'm not going anyway. Besides, I owe myself a few days of running so today is the day I repay myself. Haha. Sounds insane or mental to be owning myself things. :P Anyway I'm really tired out so I guess I'll stay at home for a while...Until Friday, Saturday and Sunday that is... :(
Friday - Meet-Up (For another reason I refuse to disclose for now.)
Saturday - Mei Ying's Birthday Party
Sunday - Sleepover

Oh my gosh. I think I'll never finish my goals for this month like this. I ran. That's true. But I'm definitely not learning a language. Neither am I going to finish that piano song I just started - Wedding dress. I didn't even meet up with Dreamz Kisetsu like I promised myself! :( Okay. Enough of self-reproach. Right now there are more important stuff to do - and I'm totally out of inspiration.

Anyway, reminder to self:
Wake up early on Friday to book classes - discuss with Mummy and Daddy first. (Payment is by 29th July.)
Hopefully I get into the class slots I want. I don't mind having afternoon lessons actually. Haha. Maybe like one or two days so I get to sleep in late sometime. :D I'm also planning to have two lectures in one day - it doesn't make sense to me to having to travel so far just for ONE 3 hour lecture and go home. :( Maybe I'll take the 8am slot and 3.30pm slot together. It's tough but I rather do that - then I have middle time for a break or something. :D (But my friends say 3 hours and 3 hours would be 6 hours lecture which would be tough...Haiz.) University should be the time to push your own limits? Maybe that's what I'll do.

All right. All this typing over here is not gonna help me finish my work. :) I'm going then. Bye~

Into the salty sea~

2011-07-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

Splash! Hit! ~~Whack!~~ That's 2S17's activity in Sentosa-Land!

For the first time for quite some time (I'm beginning to realise that I have a lot of 'for the first time' and then I realised it wasn't the 'first time' already...LOL.) I woke up early - 9am. I couldn't help but credit a few more minutes of sleep since I already told my mum to wake me up at 9.30am. I'm totally regretting it 'cause that extra 30 minutes there could have saved me from being late! (But then again, I'm not late am I? ;P)

I think I'm not a morning person because I can actually hear 'Paya Lebar' as 'Tanah Merah'! LOL. That was what happen to me this morning as I rushed down to meet Mei Ying. In the end I told her she missed the train - when the fact was that I haven't even reached there! (I was at Tanah Merah at that time...) So we decided to move on and meet at Outram Park instead. Anyway, although we were late, we weren't the last to arrive. :D That's a relieved. Off we go into VivoCity to meet the rest.

I shall cut all rambles short - we had an AWESOME time at Sentosa beach playing and hanging around. I think it was my first time in the waters of Sentosa. Quite a scary feeling, but fun too 'cause I feel safe with my friends. :) I suggest a overseas trip to Sunway Lagoon! Anyone in? Hahahaha~ (That's random.) We played beach ball and frisbee. I think for someone as health as me, I have really poor energy level. LOL. I was half-dead at the end of the day - until dinner time that it. Kekeke~ ^^

Anyone feeling the side-effect of hanging too much under the sun? Haha. I'm having headaches and muscle aches. LOL. :D But I don't regret going. Never. Now thinking back, I really wanna thank Mei Ying for persuading me to go along even with such a small group - two girls, six boys right? xP Just kidding. (It's an inside joke.) I really not regret going. :)

Credits to the people who made an effort to turn up!
Chuan Loong! For turning up for lunch. :D
Wilson! For his every effort to organise this Sentosa trip! So appreciated!
Mei Ying! For persuading me to go - I was hesitating at first because of some reasons. I totally adore my lovely retarded friend here! ;D
Charlotte and Sok Loon! For turning up for lunch and EVEN going to Sentosa at the last minute! Aww~ We had more fun and laughter with you around. xD
Crystal, Saiful and Pei Xuan! Thanks for turning up today and making the whole trip more lively and happy. We're like one big family - the 2S17 family.
THANK YOU! With lots of love from me~

That's about it. Right now I'm waiting for my hair to dry. I have tons of things to do for this week. Phew. It's gonna be a busy-bee week. :D Let's go~

Disappointments and Expectations

2011-07-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

In this world, everyone would have expectations and with expectations, everyone goes through disappointment.

That's what I'm feeling now. Due to expectation, I feel really disappointed over something, or even someone, right now. I'm serious. I guess we as people shouldn't have such high expectation over things. Like they always say "The higher you try to reach, the harder you fall". It's so true. I shall not expose what I'm feeling disappointed about since it's not... Well. Let's just say it's non of your concerns. :)

Tomorrow is 2S17's class outing at Sentosa. I'm quite sad over the number of people who is gonna turn up. It's seriously pathetic - and because of that, it makes me feel like skipping it too. :( I think people are quite selfish in a way. They always want others to organise an outing, but yet they don't know how tough it is to really organise one. They don't give enough respect to the people. What harm would it make just replying and co-operating? (Nope. I'm not the organiser for tomorrow's event - it's Wilson.) I guess by typing all this out I've actually made my decision - that is I have to go if not, I'll just be slapping my own mouth. LOL. I hope I'll have some fun at least. I'm not close with the people who are going so...Well. I'm not expecting anything there. Hey. No expectation means no disappointments right! :D I've learned my lessons.

Gosh. I'm tired right now. I'm supposed to buy my iPhone casing but mummy is dragging it on and on. I'll ask her now. I shall be off. Updates on happier days. :) Bye~

I'm quite tired of going out all the time so here's my plan for July. Please don't clash or add on too much for me:
Saturday - Sentosa Outing with 2S17 (At least I'll make it for lunch.)
Sunday - Shopping (For presents - coincidentally I can shop for my mummy and daddy...and maybe my grandma too.)
Monday - SIM talk [1-5pm] (A total torture. And what about my weekly run?!)
Wednesday - Weekly run.
Thursday - Teo Heng (Probably. This isn't confirmed.)
Friday - Weekly run
Saturday - Mei Ying's house
Sunday - Mei Ying's house
That's about it for one week or so. Feel free to add on for me but if you're not persuasive enough, I might just pass. (HAHA.)

Surprised! Surprised!

2011-07-06T02:58:00.008+08:00

Surprised! Surprised!

I think one of the joy in live is surprises. I'm not saying the receiving of surprises but rather the giving of surprises. Seriously. And it feels even better if they are really surprised! I feel really happy today for managing to surprise my dearest orange juice. ;D

Today is my worse record for the month of July. Well. It's only the beginning but it's the worse so far. I woke up at 1pm in the afternoon! It's not that bad if I haven't had anything on. But the worse thing is that I was supposed to meet orange juice at 2pm in Orchard road - and just taking the public transport alone would need about an hour or so. I really felt sorry but I was tired as well after sleeping so late at night the previous day watching some Hong Kong drama - '溏心風暴之家好月圓' (AKA Moonlight Resonance) - which is a pretty good show I have to say. :) Except for some occasional foul-up they have (Where some scenes< don't makes sense.). Overall, including the ending, is awesome. Anyway, as I was saying, I slept late. Actually, I woke up twice before, but I just couldn't get out of bed and ending up being late. :( Sorry.

Oh well. In the end we pushed back the time to 3.30pm. (And I was still late by a few minutes - Hey! Don't blame me this time. I missed TWO buses...) We shopped and talked, being our silly 'Dumb and Dumber' mode. I deliberately brought her over to Takashimaya to walk around wasting time waiting for the 'surprise' to come. Maybe not really wasting time since I bought two tops from Forever 21. I would have bought more if it wasn't so expensive. :( I managed to bring her at the right time for the surprise - the two army boys! ;D We finally meet again!

We dined at some Japanese restaurant in ION which I'm feeling very bad about it 'cause they weren't full at all. :( I'm not sure it's because I eat very little or they eat too much. So in the end we even had waffle ice cream at Marvellous Cream and 'Mee Sua' at the Taiwan Snack stall. (I'm so guilty for eating so much today!) I had great fun though. Until I lost my black pouch that is. :( Argh. I shall not think about it. Haiz.

I'm pretty exhausted right now so I'm gonna sleep. I just heard a super old song by Jacky Cheung but I really wanna introduce out to everyone. It's called 'In love with you'. I think it's really quite a touching song. :D Another song which is pretty good is the Hong Kong drama's opening song.

All right-y~ That's the end for today. Look at the time. I should be asleep resting my eyes. I think there is a need for me to set a rule for myself to sleep early and wake early. :( I don't like what I'm doing now and I think it's time to stop myself from doing so - sleeping late. Okay., After the song, I'm sleeping. I shall stop here. Nightz~

P.S From today onwards I shall sleep at latest 12am and wake up at about 8-9am. (It's just a start but baby-steps.)

Keep it up!

2011-06-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

Welcome to Mizuki's station where we'll help to root for you! Keep it up! ;D

Why the sudden warm welcome? Why the sudden cheer? Well...That's because I did it! I managed to keep my bit of the promise and started to run! Isn't that great news? It's probably one boring news to you, but it's still awesome too me! ;D And that is why I want to send out my support to those who feels like giving up, and encourage them to keep moving on! Be brave and hang on, because you can do it! Believe it! Overcome!

Anyway, I'm getting bored by the days. There is nothing much to do there. I said I would accomplish my goals for July but seriously, I don't know if I can do it (I know, such a statement right after cheering people huh...What a twist.). But I'm not talking about the running there. I'm talking about the piano and language. It seems like a good idea days before. Actually, it still seems like a good idea. Great in fact, because why waste your holidays when you can use it to do something more constructive. But your friend here is stuck. Stuck because I can't decided on what piece to choose. Stuck because I don't know where the heck I'm gonna learn my new language from, or what language to pursue. What should I do?

Besides, I'm craving for tons of things right now! I want doughnut (Which reminds me...I have a question here. How do you spell 'doughnut'? Do you spell it like D-O-N-U-T or the way I spell it? I'm not confident but rather confused.). Oh. And other than that, I have sudden urge to go shopping. I want to visit the stationary shops for some cute and creative items or notebooks; buy new VCDs which just came out recently; and just hang around some coffee place to chat with my friends. Oh well. I have lots of things to prepare for this month.

Anyway, a piece of good news for me: I got a iPhone 4! ;) Told you the news was for me. Whee~ Although I didn't like iPhone initially, I still choose to buy it. You know why? Because I love all the covers for iPhone! LOL.What a reason. But seriously, iPhone slacks certain quality (Or at least to me it does.).

Firstly, the ring-tones are so limited and they made it such that you have to buy the ring-tones because you can't use your music files to replace! That's ridiculous don't you think? Imagine a price for just a ring-tone! And it's not like the ring-tone is gonna last or more than a minute! (But then I've found other ways to add ring-tones in so I guess that's solved.)

Secondly. Okay. I was just kidding. There is no second reason. Who am I kidding. iPhone is great at the end of the day. Haha. You just gotta get used to it. (Like how I'm so not used to their keypad.)

I can't bare to throw away my old phone though, so I'm keeping it with me. It makes a good alarm clock anyway. Kekekeke~

Whatever~ Tomorrow is running day too. Hope the weather would be nice. :D A cooling weather is the best time to run. You would even feel cold while running! I can't wait for the Pasir Ris sports complex to open! There is like swimming pool, basketball courts and badminton courts! And probably gym too! To add on to that, it'll be near home. Whee~ I'm definitely visiting there once it's open. Hopefully, it wouldn't be too crowded. Exercise. Exercise. Huff~ Puff~

Oh. I'm dying to go overseas again! T.T I wish money could just fall off from the sky for me. But I know that's just wishful thinking. Haiz~ Oh well. To tell you the truth, I can't wait for school to start. I keep thinking the longer it drags, the less knowledge I'll remember when school starts. :( I don't wanna start off poorly. Argh~

That's all for today. Let's hope tomorrow would be a more exciting day for me. Hugs and kisses~